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12.27 22.12.11

2011-12-22T00:27:00.002+11:00

I'm in one of those moods. Yes, those end-of-the-year-reflection-post moods that I even typed in 'blogger.com' instead of just using my default tumblr. I should however add in a disclaimer, because I still haven't really finished the last post. So instead, I'll just start writing.. not so much about the year, but just about the few thoughts and pie-graph segments of my conciousness as of right now at 12.27am on the 22nd of December 2011.

Work.
What can I say? I love work. It consumes my life, but I wouldn't have it any other way. I wrote a facebook status about it the other week and it was all true.

Yesterday, I came to work and as we started handover at 7 in the morning, a 40 something year old man, painted with tattoos, Hep B+, alcohol overdose who was query bleeding from somewhere in his digestive tract started getting agitated. He accused us of judging him as we handed over his presenting condition and started shouting as he pulled off his ECG dots and went to pull out his IV cannula. I bend down on my knees, grabbed his hand, spoke firmly and looked straight into his eyes. I got him to shut up long enough to listen, I explained why he was admitted, what we were doing for him and that no one was judging him. I earned his trust.

Two years ago, I don't think I could have done that. I didn't have the people skills, the confidence or communication skills to be able to do that. I would have just run away. That's one of the reasons I chose nursing, when I was that timid, socially awkward teenager with the phobia of answering the phone at the end of year twelve. It was the idea of the person I wanted to become. Confident. Caring. Intelligent. Capable.

I feel my most confident at work, I feel like I'm doing something. I'm not always good at it and not always the smartest.. and very often I am forgetful but I'd like to think that I'm making a difference. I'd like to think I'm good at my job. This year, I finished my grad year and started full time on RAMU which was my first rotation. I'm so happy with my decision, I'm having a great time. I've learnt a lot, I've developed my skills, I've made great friends and I feel comfortable there. I was in charge the other week, which for me, was a great leap of confidence from my manager, that she thinks I was capable enough to be entrusted with that role. I loved that shift. I can't wait for more.

The ANF EBA is a whole other blog post. Don't get me started.

Nanda.
The boyfriend. This year has been good to us. It's our second year together, which most of my friends who are in long term relationships say is the year of the fights. We can definitely follow the norm on that one. This year, we've had the biggest, most dramatic (on my part, obviously, think screaming in the rain in the middle of swanston street), hurtful, testing fights this year but I still say that this year has been good to us. Despite the events of this year, it's all just apart of the journey we have together. We've learnt from our mistakes, sometimes it takes us a few of the same mistakes to learn the lesson but I think that's natural. We've put our relationship first before all the hurts and mistrust. We've managed to overcome it. When I think back to each fight, I remember each time we fixed it. My tears, his arms around me. His smile and his quirky sense of humour that reminds me of why it's worth it. Why he's the one for me. It's the lesson of compromise, of trust, of just being reassured that he does love me and only me. I think we have a good thing. So here's to our third year together.

Oh and 'long distance'? Facetime has saved my life. The 4 hour difference and doing full time shift work? Not so much. Never fear, we have 7 more days. :)

Friendship.
I don't have much to say about this, because apparently I'm not very good at it. I don't know if it's because I'm working, my lack of time management or that I'm too cranky after work.. but this year in friendships has been a gentle decline towards the asymptote of just one. (Yes, that one is you Su Wen Ng).

I've made heaps of friends at work though, I love it. We all like to have a laugh and there's always someone whose willing to give me a hug. If I walk into work after a fight with Nanda, someone will automatically pick up on my flat affect and ask me what's up. I've gotten useful advice about marriage and finance from the older married nurses, I've sung Glee mashups while preparing medications in the treatment room. I love my little RAMU family.

To be continued.. because my laptop is out of battery and my charger is.. over there.

telefriend :)

2011-07-29T00:03:00.003+10:00

It's been a good 7 months since I blogged here. I've abandoned it for the microblog sensation that is tumblr. Some things have changed, but most of it hasn't. I've been to Europe for a month and back. I'm no longer a graduate nurse. I've lost and bought a new jacket. Besides that, It's pretty much the same me.

As I posted on my tumblr/facebook, two years ago today marks the start of the nandadermawan chapter of my life :) I'll be honest and not too overly sentimental and therefore not gloss over the fact that I was already very involved with another chapter which took another three months later to close but hey! everyone has to go through many other life experiences to get to the main event. It's like in How I met you mother, Ted tells the story of all his other romances because each one leads him into another situation or changes his mindset about something that in the end, prepares him to meet his future wife (well, we all hope we finally get to meet her at the end of the series!)

Anyway, it started off with a facebook status. We had talked before in the casual setting. I thought he was a pretty cool kid. I think I wrote on his affirmation wall at camp too :P It wasn't love at first sight. It wasn't for him either. It wasn't until he posted a status about Ninjiom lozenges and on my request -- kept one in his pocket until friday to give me one.

I still remember the moment. I think he came up to me or I went up to him.. and he stuck his hand out, opened his fingers to reveal a small silver wrapper. He told me that he had kept it in his pocket to give me and that made me happy inside :3 That same weekend I drove him and Francis and while Francis was pooing, Nanda just started playing Blackbird on his guitar sitting on the other side of the room. A song that I personally love.

I've been reading through my blog to see my thoughts on that period of my life -- such a different time! I can completely remember my state of mind when writing each post. That's why I felt like I needed to write a long post like this again.. just so I can look back in another two years at this post and remember my state of happiness right now.. whatever happens! Here's the post from that first weekend when Nanda started to enter my life:

Monday, 3 August 2009
weekend.

suwii and bagel dates with beans on brunswick
bus rides with cousins and accountablity and church talk
immunisations and two aching arms
zoe lee dinners of gnocchi, brownies and fairybread
keys missions x 2 dejavu
camerajo debut for an event = pros
hersheys cookies and cream
supper x 2 dumplings then pancakes.
you idiot you monkey
stalkercheck.com
shopping for interviews
finding my brother's new wife (5th year med student ++ christian LOL)
finding janey's brother's new wife (2nd year commence student ++ has brownie cheesecake stash)
jesus rocks my world with colin buchanan
snuggies with whole air vents
same person as janey
secret revelations
zane: car expert and appreciation
sunday school worship and dancing
this is the flag flown high from the castle of my heart
bubblewrap pwnz jit
breaking into goh residence
nanda serenade while pranchis pooed
post it up jem's car and more janeytime
pok ribs and brownie cheesecake
the devil wears prada and simon baker
a whole lot of fb catch up (aka the last 24 hours LOL)

but i think the highlight was..

NIN JIOM CHINESE HERBAL COUGH SYRUP IN LOZENGE FORM.
Thank you Nanda :)

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Nanda didn't even read my blog then.. he didn't even like me then yet! He was just being genuinely nice by bringing me the lonzenge! That's just him though, being genuinely nice. He wasn't trying to win me over or anything, he was just being himself. I like that about him. He's very honest.

From then on, I think I had a little crush on him.. though I thought nothing of it because of the age difference and the fact I had someone else on my mind.. I did do the whole facebook stalk.. and I loved his photos! So artistic :) He was certainly interesting.. but it wasn't until one night at Randall's house when Nanda was starting a msn conversation with Randall -- about what else but GAMING -- when I pretended to be Randall and say "I hear this Sarah chick is pretty cool.. you should add her on msn" and silly things like that. When I got home, we became msn friends.

He told me about his childhood, I told him about my life, we talked nonsense and we always seemed to say the same things at the same time -- we were telepathic! We stayed up until 6am one night just talking and talking. I never felt so comfortable talking to one person. It just.. flowed.

I told him about my spontaneous 4 day trip to Malaysia with my mum and the night before I left, he hugged me. Nanda had just gotten my number then too and we texted constantly the whole time I was overseas.

Saturday, 15 August 2009

hot chocolate.

anyway, i think i'm just having a little angst session because i'm flying off tomorrow and because the last time i took off, my world changed. i wonder what's instore for me this time.. hopefully, it's just gai fan and some milo bing! and hugs before i leave ♥ teehee.

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He later told me that he realised he liked me right after we hugged.

(:

OKAY HE'S TELLING ME TO GO TO SLEEP NOW SO I WILL. TO BE CONTINUED .. I HOPE.

2010-12-14T22:52:00.001+11:00

I was going to update something epic.

But then I couldn't be bothered.

Haha. Story of my life.

(:

Weeeekenddd

2010-10-18T01:22:00.004+11:00

So I've finished my two weeks of night duty and I've had my four days off already. Which means work tomorrow. Facepalm.

Nights were pretty good. I didn't find staying up that difficult. Anndd the workload is so much lesss. But the patients do go a little crazy at night. And have falls. And I did like 4 riskmans. And get really sick. It kinds sucks cause there's less nurses around (only 3 at night), so there's not that many people to help you. Also you have 8 patients, which is double the normal patient ratio.

Anyway, weeekend was good.

Thursday Finished that morning, went for breakfast with the family at Harry's (ticked another from Cheap eats guide), rushed to make it to Catch's bake sale (nom nom) then to RMIT. Then I slept. Then Culter & Co. for dinner with the family. Amazzzzingg food.

Friday Slept til like 3pm. Fail. Dermawan came over and we watched Greys. Then impact. Saw the Pheeeebs after her return from the motherland, who preached. We ate seaweed. Then stayed up with my brother and watched Chuck.

Saturday Drove up and down Williams St looking for asian fobs and thus Janey. NEW YORK TOMATO. Which is where I've wanted to go for like a year (Another Cheap Eats Guide tick). Artsy Fartsy. Big W for Pheebs' present and my outfit for Ken's. Found $10. Got free parking. Watched The Truman Show. Got kicked out for wearing thongs. Bought Big W shoes. Then got into Ken's drinks with nerds that play with fire and jaffals. Old Town Kopitiam for supper. Food > drinks anytime. Pls.

Sunday
Woke up lates for church and got ready in two potatoes. Combined church service with chinese. Sabrina confirmed that she saw me singing chinese. I am a winner. Epic altar call. Get prayed for and bawl my eyes out, get the amazing Jesus presence tingles. Prawn mee. Fail parking at shoppo, so John2 drops us. Koko black. Watch more Chuck with my brother and Derms. Junior masterchef. Sleeps. Have epic talk about Jesus and stuff in the car with the love of my life (: Theenn facebook. And blogging. Yeah.

Fun. Food. Family. Friends (including Nanda, ofc. Cause friend ma). And Jesus.

Everything I love. And now back to work.

tumblring

2010-10-03T22:24:00.002+11:00

i copied catchtumblr. to give bloggy some love.

TEN ARE YOU’S

1. Are you single - if you like it, you should have put a ring on it.
2. Are you happy - yes, and no. yes, because of nandajaneysuwiijohnjohn (: no, because of everyone else and epidemics.
3. Are you bored - i love not having anything to do. the best part of working and not studying :D
4. Are you naked - ;) YA WINKYFACE CATCH.
5. Are you a blonde - i'm asian, not azn.
6. Are you moody – yesss..
7. Are you a lover/hater - lover %%
8. Are you hot/cold - i'm hot and i'm cold, i'm yes, and i'm no. actually no, cause that's suwii. aka katy perry.
9. Are you Irish - no
10. Are you Asian- ASIAN FUSION. like tina and mike chang in glee.

TEN FACTS

1. Name - sarah
2. Nicknames – rah.
3. Any birth marks- MOLEY.
4. Hair color – black.
5. Natural hair color - black.
6. Eye color - brown
7. Height - 162-3?
8. Mood - tired, so tired has EYEPIMPLE D:
9. Favorite color – navy blue
10. One Place You Want to Visit - disneyland.

TEN THIS OR THAT

1. Love or lust – love.
3. Cats or dogs – phileo cause.. SO FLUFFFFYY.
4. A few best friends or many regular friends - a few <3
5. Television or internet - internet and greys anatomy.
6. Chinese Or Indian - indian %%
7. Wild night out or romantic night in – night in with the polar bear (:
8. Money or Happiness - happiness.
9. Night or day - NOT NIGHT DUTY D:
10. Msn or phone - phone (:

TEN HAVE YOU EVER

1. Been caught sneaking out – i too ninja pls.
2. Been skinny dipping - i fell off the rope and bikini top flew up in vanuatu D: does that count D: D: D:
3. Bungee jumped – no, i want to. but i think i'd be too scared when it came to it. too much experience of seeing people doing reckless things ending up in comas or paralysed.
5. Lied to someone you liked – ya, when i said he had small nostrils
9. Cried because you lost a pet – YES. the most i've ever cried was when my late doggie passed away ):
10. Wanted to disappear – ya, invisibility cloak ftwftw.

TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER

1. Smile or eyes - SMILE <3 (8:
2. Light or dark hair – dark hair.
3. Hugs or kisses - huggles <3
4. Shorter or taller – taller
5. Intelligence or attraction – you are so dumb, so dumb, so dumb.
6. Romantic or spontaneous - spontaneous, more than cliche romantics
7. Funny or serious - funnny, but serious when needs be.
8. Older or Younger - ;) WINKYFACEE.
9. Outgoing or quiet - outgoing
10. Sweet or Bad Ass – sweet.

TEN HAVE YOU’S

1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd - i did have a stint in the acting career in my pre-teens :P
2. Ever done drugs – everyday, at work.
3. Ever consumed alcohol? casual etoh consumption.
5. Ever been on a cheerleading team – BALWYN HIGH SKYRAIDERS. um no. pls.
9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley? nope. hummer. lol.
10. Ever been in a rap video? no, BUT I THINK WE SHOULD.

TEN LASTS

1. Last phone call you made – nanda dermawan
2. Last person you hung out with - family for cousin's birthday dinner (: before that, janeyjohnjohnsuwiinanda at redrooster <3 my fav peeps.
4. Last time you worked – friday am! best non-working weekend in ages! also, start nightduty tomorrow night D:
5. Last person you tackled – ;) catch put winkyface D:
6. Last person you IM’d - nanda dermawan (8:
8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with - janeylee and zefron prettiness.
9. Last thing you missed – this whole year because of work.
10. Last thing you ate - muscles and chrizo dish at the pav for cousin's din (:

LAST PERSON TO

1. Sleep beside you? - janeyleeee
2. See you cry? – nanda dermawan <3 love you, professional tear wiper (:
5. Call you? - father wong.
7. Made you laugh? - family dinner times (:

WOULD YOU RATHER

1. Pierce your nose or tongue? - nose. cause it's indian.
2. Be serious or be funny? - funny
3. Drink whole or skim milk? - SKIM D: my mother banned me from full milk at home, so now i'm accustomed to it.
4. Spend time with your parents or enemies? - parentalz. probably.

ARE YOU

1. Simple or complicated? - i'm avril lavinge
2. Retarded? - YA RETARD (Y)

DO YOU PREFER

1. Flowers or candy? - flowahzzz.
2. Gray or black? - greys. anatomyy. BAM.
3. Color or Black and white photos? - colour, but i often use black and white.
4. Sunrise or sunset? - sunset :)
6. Staying up late or waking up early? - up late. but i can do both, thanks to my job. though not sure HOW LATE. shall test my late wakingness on nd.

DO YOU PREFER

1. Sun or moon? - i wanna be the moon, cause it reflects the sun. don't wanna be the sun, shines on everyone.
2. Winter or Summer? - autumn (Y) PWNZ SPRING PLS.
3. Left or right? - lefty.
4. 10 acquaintances or having two best friends? - two best fwenz.
5. Sun or rain? - sun.
6. Vanilla or chocolate ice cream? - chocolate.
7. Vodka or Jack Daniels? - vodka.

UNIQUE

1. Nervous Habits? - pen clicking?
2. Are you double jointed? - ma fingersz.
3. Can you twist your tongue around and roll it? - D:
4. Can you raise one eyebrow? - also yah.
5. Can You cross your eyes? - not really D: >_<
6. Do you make your bed daily? - depends. i do make BEDS daily. not always mine.

QUESTIONS

1. Which shoe goes on first? - right?
2. Ever thrown something at someone? - i threw a pokemon at nanda today.
3. On average, how much money do you carry with you? - i normally take out $140 from atm, then it decreases from there.
4. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? - twirlsies.
5. Have you ever eaten Spam? - ya spam.
6. What’s your favorite beverage? - milkz.
7. Do you cook? - can, not well :P but has dermawan who can (:

forsaken

2010-09-21T14:58:00.002+10:00

On my quest to defy gravity, I have abandoned this blog. But the world can rejoice, because I am back. Kind of.

I've re-located most of my scattering of thoughts to my tumblr, however am keeping my lovely blogspot (of so many memories are kept) for the longer life-update kind of posts.

So my life right now:

Work has been good, and pretty much the main section of the pie graph that is my life. I've settled into my new ward, Oncology (and Haematology). I like it. It's a priveledge to be there for someone in their last days. There's a certain kind of peace and acceptance. It doesn't make it any sadder though.

I have to start thinking (well, I've already started.. and started freaking out actually.) about where I want to take my career next year. I'm half way through this year, and it's gone by so quick.

Currently, my plan is to go to Europe with Su-Wen Ng (despite my uneasyness.. I just gotta let go.. take a chance.. why not.. this is turning into a Hilary Duff song..). Cause I really gotta do something with my life. I need something to look forward to.

Then hopefully, I'll come back to a job at RAMU. I went back to RAMU a few days ago and jokingly asked one fo the ANUMs if I could have a job and she said SURE. :D Which made me (Y) She said they missed my sarcasm lolol. Fail. However, it's not up to her, it's the NUM herself.. of which I don't know very well. Sighface.

Besides that, I'm going to Synicity with my brother for food adventures. Can't wait. I need to make more money.

Anyway, I think I'll go finish that angus pie I left half-eaten for lunch. Til next time, tumblr me.

this ain't a fantasy

2010-08-03T22:32:00.002+10:00

Somethin bout the way
Somethin bout the way you look
In my eyes
You make everything so damn easy
So easy that I don't got to worry bout a thing

And baby when we touch
All I can see is the image of us
Sitting by the ocean
Just before the dusk
Sippin on a juice box and
Sand between our toes

This is the part when we say were in love
And the part where we have our first kiss
But this ain't a movie
I know you can't come with me
You got your life
He better be treatin you right

Just tell me you don't love me
Tell me you don't feel the same way that I do
Tell me I don't make you smile
Like I do when you walk in the room
You're so hard to let go

This is the part when we say were in love
And the part where we say it's forever
But this ain't a fantasy
I know you can't come with me
You got your life
He better be treatin you right

This hurts so much to know that you're
With someone else when you should be with me
It's just hard to accept that I can't be around
He better be treatin you good

I'm no Einstein but I know a sign
When I see one
And I know you love me too
I know you love me too

the 2am insecurities.

2010-08-02T02:25:00.000+10:00

So here's the thing.

I really love Jesus. There are times I don't show it. There are moments I wish that part of my life could be hidden and that I had no one to be accountable to. Sometimes I am just.. lazy. The self-pity and apathy sets in, and I just walk away (or fall asleep). I'm tired. I'm constantly tired. I don't know if it's work, or just life.. but I'm exhausted.

I want to live life to the full. I'm young. The world is my oyster (nom nom). I have so many vague goals and I know I'm slowly getting there but.. it's hard. I'm getting older. I have more responsibilities. I don't like it. I feel tied down.

I feel like it's not fair. I am jealous that I've been pushed so quickly into this next chapter of my life and that I didn't get to fully experience everything I was supposed to in my university years. I'm jealous of my friends who are still relishing those years. I hate it. I hate being here by myself. I don't feel ready. I hate that no one fully understands where I am and how I feel.. and I hate that despite their best intentions, their words feel so empty.

I don't feel like I belong anywhere anymore. I used to find comfort within my group of uni friends, always have people to sit with in lectures and weekly yumchas. I used to find comfort in my high school friends and our adventures, but those times are long gone. There's something missing now.. we're all too busy. I used to find comfort in friday nights and sunday mornings. Now when I walk in, I feel like an outsider.. and that no one even notices if I'm there or not. I'm a shadow. I'm not needed anymore.

I hate that even after so long, you're still the same. So much has changed, but I think that something will always be there. This hurts me the most. I wish none of it had happened at all. I wish you had left me alone.

I miss my brother. I miss having my family all together. I miss our random ranting and laughing so hard that I can't breathe sessions, all warm and cosy in my parents room, just being a family. I miss the feeling of being a child, I feel like I'm being treated like an adult now.. when all I want to do when I get home from work is to regress into my little fantasy childlike world.

I hate feeling like I could cry at any moment. I hate that I'm not strong enough to handle this.

On the other hand,

I'm proud of myself for getting this far. I live on the feeling of accomplishment and satisfaction after a good day at work. I know that this is where God wants me for this season. I know He has a future for me, more than I can ever imagine.. if I continue to seek Him.

I love Jesus. I love music. I love the peace that comes with just finding rest in Jesus. I love the bible and the words that speak so clearly and give so much encouragement. I love the God-amazing feeling. I love worship. I love that no matter how many times I fail, He's there to pick me up again.

I love the allied health rants with Su-Wen Ng. Our late night 7eleven runs and just chillin' at my house. I'm excited about our travel plans, although they take so much drama to organise. I think her abs are amazing.

I love the bum moments with Janey, and just random phone calls that amount to nothing, but count for everything. I love her nerd-like passion for transcription and translation and mRNA and tRNA and codons. I love that she has a dream and she's working her butt off to try her best.

I love my parents for being my parents. My mum always drops me at work (Yes, even the 7am starts) and has breakfast waiting for me (: It helps so much. I love that my dad watches the window to see if the trees are swaying because that means that it'll be ideal weather for more kite flying. I love the stories my mum tells. I love that my mum likes Steve Carrell. I loved spending even just a car ride with my brother and buying a whole cheesecake cause it was on sale. I love Phileo (: I can't imagine the pain the Pillai's are going through now.. and I don't even want to think about it.

I love that I've found someone who is perfect for me. I can be myself, completely, when I'm with him. Someone that clicks. There's just this strange feeling, that no one else understands me and my quirks, like he does. Someone who loves me, for me.. as cliche as that sounds. It's comfortable. I'm finally happy.

Aaand..

..those are the thoughts in my mind, swirling around.. making up my emotional state right now. Bittersweet, I guess. But then again, it is 2.30am. I should really sleep. This helped. Thanks for listening (:

:D

2010-08-02T00:07:00.001+10:00

the snow.

= SOOO COLDDDDD
= sabrina woon love
= pwnz architects
= stealing small asian child's stick
= coffeee mug sculpture (:

home and away

2010-08-01T23:32:00.001+10:00

I WILL GO THE DISTANCEEEEE.

I need Hercules on DVD now please.

So much Aj Rafael stalking love tonight.

2010-07-28T00:16:00.002+10:00

i want to fly.

(not really though, cause my view on superhero powers is that TELEPORTATION is the best. because:
1. beats flying: cause you can just teleport to where you want to go, instead of flying, which takes longer)
2. beats invisibility: cause you can just teleport to the place you want to sneak into and teleport out if something starts to turn around and see you
3. beats force fields/ uber fighting powerz: cause you can just teleport out of danger/ away from the bullet heading toward you
4. means you can go anywhere, at anytime, and you never have to miss anyone again.

though i wouldnt mind that serene feeling of flying above the clouds and feeling on top of the world (:

life update

2010-07-27T23:29:00.004+10:00

i've started my second rotation: oncology. i hated it the first week, it was such a shock starting at a whole new place.. but i'm getting used to the ward now (: and has a new ranga friend :D i think he's my first real ranga friend ever. so excite. lololol. still semi-ceebs going to work though ):

this weekend: first weeekend off in ages! after a lot of discussions, i'm going to the snow for the first time since i was like four D: ahahah. i'm scared!! i don't want to get injured.. cause i'm so clumsy D: but am so excited :D and then after has aj rafael concert (:

annual leave: going to china 16-27th august with the family, and then 28th august-1st september going to gold coast with suwiiii (and mebee li). cannot WAIT for something new and exciting X) i've been stalking other people's adventures on faceboook. wanttttt.

catch22

2010-07-21T22:52:00.005+10:00

to the pioneer of underage clubbing and the default pose.

hope your day is..

as sweet as strawberries

or as sweet as a sweet disposition..

as crazy as wild animalz

and crazy like those creepy photos of womynz in that toilet

as bright as that light surrounding you..

and the lights of the melbourne skyline..

and a box hill carpark.

as celebratory as a gradation..

because it is your birthday!

have a great day!

(:

chords

2010-07-16T11:16:00.003+10:00

Eb Fm
Who makes the sun to rise

Eb/G Ab Bb Cm
And brings the earth new life in every beam

Bb Ab
Jesus it is You

Who turns the day to night
And watches me as I begin to dream
Jesus It is You

Fm Eb Cm
Who brings me food for my table

Fm Ab Bb
Who cares for all of my needs?

Eb Fm Eb/G
Who walks the road with me, has grown with me

Ab Bb Cm
Through all that I have been

Bb Am
Jesus It is You

Bb Eb
Jesus It is You

Ab
I lift my hands

Eb
I bring my song

Ab Bb Eb
All of my days, all of my rights, all of my wrongs

Ab Bb Cm
I offer my life Here and beyond

Fm Eb/G
To the one thing true

Ab Bb Eb
Jesus It is You

Who sees my brokenness
And carries me when I am frail and weak?
Jesus It is You

Who tells the storm to rest
When I am overwhelmed and cannot speak
Jesus It is You

Who wears my guilt on His shoulders?
Who holds my heart in His hand?

Who takes my thoughts and fears
And hangs them on the arms of Calvary?
Jesus It is You
Jesus It is You

chords

2010-07-16T11:16:00.000+10:00

Eb Fm

Who makes the sun to rise

Eb/G Ab Bb Cm
And brings the earth new life in every beam

Bb Ab

Jesus it is You

Who turns the day to night

And watches me as I begin to dream

Jesus It is You

Fm Eb Cm

Who brings me food for my table

Fm Ab Bb

Who cares for all of my needs?

Eb Fm Eb/G

Who walks the road with me, has grown with me

Ab Bb Cm

Through all that I have been

Bb Am

Jesus It is You

Bb Eb

Jesus It is You

I lift my hands

I bring my song

Ab Bb EB

All of my days, all of my rights, all of my wrongs

Ab Bb Cm

I offer my life Here and beyond

Fm Eb/G

To the one thing true

Ab Bb Eb

Jesus It is You

Who sees my brokenness

And carries me when I am frail and weak?

Jesus It is You

Who tells the storm to rest

When I am overwhelmed and cannot speak>

Jesus It is You

Who wears my guilt on His shoulders?

Who holds my heart in His hand?

Who takes my thoughts and dears

And hangs them on the arms of Calvary?

Jesus It is You

Jesus It is you

yes please.

2010-07-15T15:12:00.003+10:00

CAKEPIE.

2010-07-14T21:07:00.002+10:00

Do you sing in the car?
- always. though my janey cd is permastuck in the cdplayer now. youuuspinnmyyheaddrighhttrounnddrightround.

Do you have a hard time admitting you're wrong?
- sometimes. depends to who :P to my parents, definately.

When is the last time you had pizza?
- last tuesday at la porchetta with the impacters (:

Do you wear shoes in your house or take them off?
- take them off. BE FREE MY LITTLE FEETIES!

Do you swallow gum when you're finished?
- no cannot D: though i'm not a big fan of gum. the concept freaks me out. yeah, im weird like that.

Is good grammar attractive?
- i hate wen chu talk lyk dis. but halarious if used for mocking purposes. and i accept LOLcatz speak.

Your phone is ringing. Its your ex. What do you say?
- weiiiiiiiiiii?

How are you feeling at this exact moment?
- tired. so glad i have two days off. looking forward to 7am saturday morning.

Do you ever wonder how other people see you?
- i won't lie and say no. (ie. i'll tell the truth and say yes)

What's something you really want right now?
- TO GO SOMEWHERE. adventure pls.

What was the first thing you did this morning?
- turn off alarm and hide under the doona. did. not. want. work.

Do you brush your teeth in the shower?
- i find this repulsive. soo nekkid.

If alcohol were banned, what would be your reaction be?
- ahaha in australia? lies. as crazy as having a ranga prime minister.

Have your parents ever caught you drinking?
- i don't drink much. so no.

When people smoke around you, does it make you cough?
- no, but nogaryno.

Do you know anyone who works at McDonald's?
- yes, went through uni with maccas connections. X) free chicken nuggets, large chips and drinks, burgers with multiple patties.. and then 50% off. I MISS IT SO.

Is it warm out enough to go out in a T-shirt where you live?
- not particulary, it's quite cold. but i am in my afrojew tshirt atm (Y)

Would you rather be able to teleport or be invisible?
- teleport. deffffffff. so so much right now.

What do you do when you have an itch you can't itch?
- dance.

Name something you know about algebra.
- iz funsauz.

Do you like dollar stores?
- love it. so many amazing china inventionz there.

Do you like those big headbands with flowers Blair on Gossip Girl wears?
- yesss. i love blair's fashion (:

Do you think it's weird how babies are made?
- i'm still convinced that babies come from pooo. and if you decided it was time you wanted a baby, you just pick out the poo from the toilet and wash it until it clean and grows.

What's one memory you wish would just vanish?
- the rollercoaster of last year. srsly. gimme me life back.

Whats your favorite thing to order at McDonalds?
- chicken nugggett.

Apple Juice or Orange Juice?
- MILK. pls. when i was young i vomitted orange juice and hated it ever since.

Name a very well known bar in your town.
- mars bar

Do you think it's stupid when people have x's in their username?
- um. i has s2 in mine, so i can't judge.

What would you prefer to get from a guy/girl: flowers, a hand written poem, a picture he drew of you or a nice night out?
- A PICTURE HE DREW OF YOU. ahaha fail. flowers when on a nice night out. X)

Do you know the chicken dance?
- definately :D

If a random person asked how old you are, would you tell them?
- i always make my patients guess, i've gotten 17-24-30.

-----

ABC About You Questions:
A - AVAILABLE: N/A.
B - BIRTHDAY: Everyday is my birthday :D
C - CRUSHIN' ON: Sheldon Cooper.
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: Milk.
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: Autobot.
F - FAVORITE SONG: Maybe I was born.
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: Gummy Bears!
H - HOMETOWN: Rahlan.
I - IN LOVE WITH: Susej.
J - JUGGLE: With scarves.
K - KILLED SOMEONE: I'll kill her.
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: To Canberra/Sydney.
M- MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: Chocolate.
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 1
O - ONE WISH: Upon a star.
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: Nanda Dermawan (Indonesia)
R - REASON TO SMILE: Cause I'm not in it to win it, I'm in it for you.
S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD: Thief in the night - David Choi
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 6.40 am -.-
U - UNDERWEAR COLOR/PATTERN: Black %%
W - WORST HABIT: Sleeepy.
X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: For my braces. For my foot when I feel from monkeybar.
Y – YOYOS ARE: free from accounting companies.
Z - ZODIAC SIGN: COWSNAKE.

Random Questions About You...
Spell your name without vowels: Srh Wng
What color do you wear most?: White and Navy :P
Are you happy with your life right now?: Yes and no. I miss my freedom ):
What is your favorite class in school?: Mathz. Chemistry.
Favorite pair of shoes?: My urban outfitters flats from Americaz.
Where do you wish you were right now?: Some third world country somewhere.

THE CANS:
Can you dance?: So I think I can.
Can you whistle?: No ):
Write with both hands?: My handwriting is shocking with both :P
Walk with your toes curled?: Wazzat.

THE DO'S:
Do you believe there is life on other planets?: ANGEL PLANET.
Do you believe in miracles?: Yes.
Do you believe in magic?: Illusionists are pretty cool.
Do you believe in love at first sight?: Mebe.
Do you believe in Santa?: Fatty.
Do you like roller coasters?: Not particulary. Esp. Emotional rollercoasters.

THE HAVES:
Have you ever been on a plane?: I love it.
Have you ever asked someone out?: Ya.
Have you ever been asked out by someone?: Ya.
Have you ever been to the ocean?: It is lovely.
Have you ever painted your nails?: Yup.

THE WHATS:
What is the temperature outside?: Cold.
What radio station do you listen to?: Light FM.
What was the last restaurant you ate at?: boxhillllhospital cafeteriaaa.
What was the last thing you bought?: cotton on jumper (:
What was the last thing on TV you watched?: HIMYM.

THE WHOS:
Who was the last person you IM'd?: Skyping the Mochi.
Who was the last person you took a picture of?: Printscreen the nan.
Who was the last person you said I love you to?: Some douche in indonesiaaa.

CRYING SECTION:
Ever really cried your heart out?: Yes.
Ever cried yourself to sleep?: Often.
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?: Yes.
Ever cried over the opposite sex?: Often.
Do you cry when you get an injury?: I don't often get injured.
Do certain songs make you cry?: Yupz.

HAPPY SECTION.
Are you a happy person?: YAYA!
What/who can make you happy?: Chocolate.
Do you wish you were happier?: Ya.
Can music make you happy?: PSYCHMUSICSSSSS.

LOVE SECTION.
How many times have you had your heart broken?: Several.
Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them?: Phileo.

LOOK AT ME.
What is your current hair color?: Negro.
Current piercings?: Ears!
Have any tattoos?: Nope.
Eye color?: Chocolate.

IN A BOY/GIRL:
Favorite eye color: Chocolate.
Short or long hair: Permed. LAWLZ. No, mangahead pls.
Height: Ahem.
Best clothing: Hawtz. No tank tops.

THIS OR THAT
Pepsi or Coke: Coke. I love coke.
McDonald's or Burger King: Macccasss. I love maccas.
Strawberries or Blueberries: Strawberries.
Meat or Veggies: MEAT.
TV or Movie: Movies.
Adidas or Nike: Nike cause Marky.
Cheerios or Corn Flakes: Corn flakes.
Cake or Pie: WHOA. So tough. CAKE AND PIE. CAKE PIE.

two n

2010-07-09T00:12:00.001+10:00

three more shifts.
it's been a blast.
but i'm pretty excited about the next rotation (:

another challenge.
bring it.

my life.

2010-07-04T22:51:00.005+10:00

I miss this.

and this

......

This year a lot has changed in my life. I think I've changed. Looking back to my life last year, it just feels sooo different.

My life last year was all about people. Adventure. Foooood. Uni. Placements. Tanya Uebergang. Third Wheeling. Impact. Elevators. Dondon. Aimless shopping around the city. Spontaneous meetings. Lunch. I never have lunch with anyone anymore. Bumping into randoms at the QV bus stop or at MC clock. Roadtrips. Never ending okay bye but still talking for another two hours msn convos. Random late night eateries. Sleeeeeep ins. Wagging lectures to go watch Dragonball Z. Hearing about other people's relationships. Tramming down to Victoria St for pho inbetween tutes. Spending every Saturday with Janey without fail. Kebabs. Perfecting the pause-minimise-alt-tab when watching movies in the library and a librarian would walk past. Bible class before impacts at Pheebs house. Berrybliss (zomg haven't had that in ages and still has to claim my free cup). Drama. Talking about drama. Rollercoasters (but don't really miss that). Beyonce can't handle this jelly singalongs. Hudsons. All you can eat Yumcha.

I miss it.

I was talking to Pheebs about this on the train the other night when we were abadoned by our parents who asked us to take a taxi after walking from Docklands to Melbourne Central.. and I was just rambling about how difference my life is. She asked if this was a good or bad thing.. which got me thinking.

Though I loved my life last year, I think this year has taught me a lot. I think I'm finally starting to grow up. I've got a credit card, for one. (I just paid my first bill which came to $5.98) I'm working full time. I'm in a (gasp) stable relationship. But most of all.. I'm finally doing what I've spent the last three years working towards. I feel accomplished. Leading up to it, I was so scared that I couldn't be able to do it.. and now I have been for the past 4 months. And I think I'm pretty awesome. Kinda.

So yeah, I'm not sure about the previous question.. but here I am. And I can't go back. So bring it on.

socceroospam.

2010-06-24T22:19:00.005+10:00

am proud.
am sad.
am everything.

lucas neill - the captain

neil & pimmy huggles (:

harryyyyyyyy

before the match determination.

the green and gold army are always behind them.

despite contraversy.

and those red cards.

huggles.

IS LOVING BRETT.

who i saw shopping on bourke st mall.

the classic timmy celebration.

pointing back at the ghana kid who pointed at us after the redcard.

timmy celebrationz.

(Y) (Y)

2010-06-15T02:40:00.002+10:00

http://eatsaralee.wordpress.com/

the lilychen & my new food blog.
cause we're fatties.
and like taking photos.

we might be noob, but it's fun.
and life has to be fun sometimes

(:

(photo taken when i went to the good food & wine show and saw gary and george from masterchef! aha i should upload those photos soon too..)

graduation.

2010-06-14T23:31:00.007+10:00

So I graduated..

To me this was a pretty big deal. Uni for me went way to quick and I feel like I never really got to experience what you're supposed to experience in uni. I only really enjoyed the last year of it.. and that in itself was too short due to placements and all that jazz.

So graduating was kind of marking the real end to a chapter of my life that I felt like I never really got to live.. which was sad. On the bright side however, at least I graduated from something I love and brings me into a pretty awesome career.

I was pretty proud (: And I guess it's these big milestones in life that you find out who really cares and bothers to make an effort to let you know they care.

So thanks loves for those who came and those who msged (:

Sabrina; Catono; Johnjohn; Li O__o

And those that endured the whole ceremony X)

My cousin, Suwii (who came straight from clinics) and the Dermawan ♥

My parents who had to endure the whole threee years of tantrums and early mornings and last minute assignment editting and driving me to the bus stop cause I like sleep.

And of course, those that made the last year amazing!

Love you guys!!
(Awaiting the professional photo which had all of us in it (: )

june 8th

2010-06-03T01:37:00.001+10:00

All graduating students must wear full academic dress – black gown, black trencher/bonnet and the appropriate hood/stole for your award.

Your Academic Regalia will be ordered upon payment of the Graduation fee. Sizing is not required as gowning professionals provide all sizes on the day.

Dress code at graduation ceremonies is smart. We suggest you wear an appropriate seasonal outfit, keeping in mind the weather on the day and that the gowns are quite warm.

Attire that is not suitable includes:

Jeans
Singlets
Thongs (and similar footwear)
Runners/Joggers
Shorts

The length of the gown is below the knee so female graduands that wear knee dresses knee length or shorter will often appear to the audience as though they are only wearing the gown.

Graduands will need to negotiate stairs during the presentation and therefore very high heels can be problematic.

The hoods (faculty colours) worn by Bachelor, Masters and Doctoral graduands can often be difficult to hold in place. Most hoods have a loop that can be slipped over a button on a buttoned shirt to assist holding it in place.

We also recommend a simple hairstyle that will accommodate wearing your trencher (graduation hat), which is close-fitting.

Faculty Colours

Faculty	Colour Name	Approximate Shade
Faculty of Arts and Sciences	Spectrum Blue
Faculty of Education	Malachite Green
Faculty of Health Sciences	Peach

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HILARIOUS.

JUNE 8th. Ceremony starts at 5.30. Come and take pictures with me from 2-4pm.

BE THERE OR BE HEXAGON.

aloof

2010-06-03T00:22:00.002+10:00

I'm not really good with words.. which is why I probably don't blog as much as I should. I just can't seem to get my thoughts out in words. I read this the other day on a blog of a fellow Sarah of whom I stalk regardly. She kinda just took the words out of my head and eloquently shared them onto the interwebz.

I've editted bits out ofc. Here we go.

"This is what I’ve really learned this year. Relationships are so important but so ~~f***ing~~ scary. People walk in and out of yours lives every day and sitting back and taking it as people you love leave, people you could’ve loved won’t listen, and the people you need disappear is such a burden of humanity.

Maybe I think about “change” too much. I really don’t like the idea of just leaving everything behind. Changing places always means saying goodbye or at least feeling like something is empty or missing.

I’m realizing that the only person I can count on is myself. I don’t mean that in the sense that everybody else lets you down. But you’re the only person you’ll see every day, every month, every year. You can’t count that other people won’t change in ways that seem strange or unappealing to you. Everybody changes, and you can’t expect people to change along with you. Thoughts change, emotions change, people change.

Our young lives are a rushing stream of experiences, people, experiences, people, experiences, people. And we can’t get off this ride as much as we wanted to. I feel sick sometimes, sick that nobody will stick with me. We fall second and third and fourth and sometimes don’t even make the countdown in terms of who people care about most. I’ll never be a person’s number one. Even our families, or closest friends value and tend to other relationships.

I sometimes dream I could live in a world with no goodbyes. But that’s just silly. We’re meant to move forward through our lives. We’re meant to branch and reach and grow and travel and explore and learn and change."

Since starting full-time shift work, I feel like my life has completely changed. Even since celebrating my 21st, I've realised how far I've come from who I was last year. My network of close friends has frizzled from at least a dozen to two or three.. and even those relationships feel somewhat strained.

I love my job, I love who it's making me become.. compassionate, confident, knowledgable, respectable, kind.. and the impact I'm making on people's lives (because it's not just about the patient, it's the patient's families that I care for as well..). I love it. I love the sense of satisfaction knowing that my life is dedicated for others and not just for making money for my own comforts.

Even thinking about not working for the next two weeks kind of makes me sad thinking about what I'm missing out on at work. On the other hand.. I LOVE SLEEP. I LOVE INTERNET. I LOVE GREYS ANATOMY. I LOVE BEING A BUM. So much captial letters.

So yes, I will continue to enjoy my annual leave.. and hopefully use this time to catch up with a few people that have time to catch up with me.

suweng.

2010-06-01T00:02:00.002+10:00

for the only loyal reader of my blog,
the soon to be qualified physiotherapist,
the girl that made the t-ball team a mixed team,
the other designated driver,
the camwhore at the bus stop/the student room/the toilet/anywhere,
the given by her grandmother pajama wearer,
the one banana a day walking to dight ave companion,
the lover of a certain chocolate sandwich biscuit,
the loudest laugh and sigh from miles round,
the artist behind the mutant bluebear,
the woman to has had the same haircut for the past 21 years..

happy 21st birthday!

just wanted to thank you for ..

the times in methods, and highschool that seems so long ago now, yet so fresh in our minds and our exact same vce subjects and borderline stalkerlike obsession with our teachers ..and our first photo together,

the first ever dandenong roadtrip and said roadtrip partners and all the drama that goes along with that LD and every other drama that comes and goes.

the fob adventures and talking in fob accents and talking about fobs and getting interrupted by random old man on tram who eavvesdropped on our exisistentialistic conversations,

the fresh bebe coconuts and tuskerirriki d&ms and steps together towards independence and the scaryness along the way,

to crazy fun parties, groovimanderaaiyoyoyos, huggles, falling into people's arms and just fun filled times (:

but mostly for those moments, seated outside your house/my house/ the park near linda's house in either one of RSL or TAZ listening to richard mercer and just talking, ranting, bitching, encouraging, laughing.. LOVING X) those are the moments that i cherish the most.

su-wen ng, i love you more than any south-asian male
and i give you permission to touch anytime you like X)

*MACROPHAGEEE*

li's boyfriend.

2010-05-16T23:58:00.001+10:00

how old is srhwng turning on the 19th of May, 2010? (1 bonus mark)

According to the official information birthday published by Sarah Wong on Facebook indicates her birthday is on the 19th of May [1]. However, no further information is given on her actual birth year. An recent event hosted by Sarah Wong titled the twenty-first of sarah ♥ had invited over 150 guests with further invitations extended to "Partners/lovers/special friend" of the original 150 guests [2]. According to the information provided on the description of the twenty-first of sarah ♥ event had indicated she invited her guests to celebrate "the momentous occasion that is my twenty-first birthday" on Saturday, 1st of May 2010. Further photo evidence collected by Dr. Catherine Cheah [3], a well respected optometrist, on the day of the aforementioned event suggest it was indeed Sarah Wong's 21st birthday [4] and not a public ploy to hoax her 150 guests. Thus, this concludes Sarah Wong had celebrated her 21st birthday on the 1st of May and will have another birthday on the 19th of May to celebrate her 22nd birthday.

References:

[1] http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=703168427, Sarah Wong's Facebook page (id=703168427)

[2] http://www.facebook.com/?ref=logo#!/event.php?eid=111498722211921, the twenty-first of sarah event page on Facebook (Party - Cocktail Party)

[3] http://www.facebook.com/cmkcheah, Dr. Catherine Cheah's Facebook page (cmkcheah: enough said)

[4] http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=703168427&v=photos&so=40#!/photo.php?pid=5282657&op=3&o=global&view=global&subj=703168427&id=626832834, Photographic evidence gathered by Dr. Catherine Cheah (sarah's 21st: in non-times-new-roman font)

Summary by Tsai, S. (2010)

couughhsplatterrrgrahh

2010-05-15T02:28:00.003+10:00

the cough.

pathophysiology:

duration:
past 3 days

type:
both dry and chesty
intermittent. coughing fits 4-5 times an hour. variable.

treatment:

nin jiom

+

cow

+

warm giodarno jacket

result:
contemplating calling in sick tomorrow.
(or at least on tuesday night.. the day before my birthday X))

When Five Fell

2010-05-14T13:24:00.001+10:00

The Objects

Can the things we love, love us back just the same?

Glasses (David Choi – davidchoimusic.com) – The glasses represent sight. In a relationship, there are times when our one desire is to share with the other person. We hope to offer a new perspective. To learn and grow from each other in that way. To show the world. Unfortunately, nothing stays clear forever. Many things can blind us: jealousy, doubt, overthinking, and ironically, comfort.

Telephone (Bobby Choy – bigphonymusic.com) – The phone represents hearing. Relationships can’t exist without listening and communication. Sometimes, circumstances prevent people from communicating face to face. That distance greatly effects them. We hear about experiences when what we really want is to live them. Words can only go so far. The phone is interesting because it is constantly eavesdropping on our talks. What would that feel like? To always be talked to but never the subject of conversation. It must hurt to be so unknowingly ignored.

Umbrella (AJ Rafael – myspace.com/ajrafael) – The umbrella represents touch. The very simple idea of being close enough to touch someone. Physical contact. To be able to hold, cover, protect. These are basic parts of a relationship we hope to fulfill. Essentially an umbrella reflects occasional necessity. But who would want that? To feel needed when it’s only convenient.

Scarf (Paul Dateh – pauldateh.com) – The scarf represents smell. The intimacy of knowing someones scent is very special. It’s a privelege that isn’t easily shared and is often overlooked. It may sound ridiculous, but who are the people you can identifty with smell? Most likely those that you are very close with. People you have known for more than awhile. Also, scents can fade. Physical contact carries and transfers a scent but when that contact disappears, the scent is no longer.

Cup (Chris Dinh) – The cup represents taste. More specifically, the cup represents a kiss. And a kiss is the most universal symbol of love and affection. The fact that it describes a first kiss is even more significant. A first kiss is innocent and naive. We cherish it as though it will last forever. But when the cup is broken, the kiss is no longer possible– just like a relationship.

A pair of glasses that goes blind. A phone that resorts to eavesdropping. An umbrella that longs to be held. A scarf that treasures scent. A cup that wants to be kissed. These are the ways I tried to personify the objects to show they fell in and out of love. Between the five, viewers should be able to relate to different dimensions and roles of a relationship. Whether it’s budding in the early stages, the challenge of long distance, slowly fading feelings, or losing out to someone else.

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I've been waiting for this short by wongfuproductions to come out for the past year, since they posted the trailer.. that long ago. Which is fitting I guess.. because I wouldn't have truly understood the message behind the short until now.

In the past six months, I've learnt a lot. I've learnt that it's not all about me.. the meaning of compromise.. or selflessness and of the importance of trust. Relationships come and go.. and soon it becomes difficult to differentiate what's real and what's not. Feelings fade.. the euphoria of a new relationship eventually wanes into mediocrity and stagnation.

What makes it real is how willing you are to make it work. It's the effort, the mutual resolution.. and the respect for one another to keep it going. But most importantly, its the simple moments that remind you of why you fell in the first place.

birthday.

2010-05-12T00:17:00.002+10:00

so my birthday was apparently a big deal.
which is cool.
but there's actually still another week to go til the real deal X)

more plans:
19th balwynz dinner
29th uni dinner

so yeah, it's totally my birthmonth. love it.

(although yes, it's also suwii's. i love you you are sexy!)

let's go to su:t

2010-05-03T00:15:00.002+10:00

Nandaaaaaaaaa says:
i knows foo
:P
i give you
REAL LAPTOP
sarah ♫ says:
ahaha
IS IT
I HAVENT OPENEDD YETT
?
MEBE JUST A BOX WITH DELL ON IT
Nandaaaaaaaaa says:
actuallly
just
a
CARDBOARD BOX
minus big fish
and small fish

i loves birthdays (:

more epic post coming X)

excites.

2010-04-14T01:13:00.002+10:00

working has been good, but with working means no social life. i've missed the past 3 planned meetings with the uni kids, i've missed countless impacts/church sundays, i haven't had time to do a lot of things.. it's taking time to get used to shift/weekend work X)

and thus! days off and events are very rare and very special.

upcoming
16/4 graduate study day. getting paid to listen to lectures and study X) and i see amyahn and dorcasss :)
17/4 janeytimee and the last song plspls.
18-22/4 5 days straight of works
22/4 switchfooot at billboards
23-24/4 torquay for janey's birthday
24/4 janey's birthday
1/5 my 21st birthday partyyyyyyy
19/5 my 21st birthdayday
24/5 socceroos vs. newzealand maatch
28/5 suwii's birthday :D

likes this.

mlia.

2010-04-13T20:06:00.000+10:00

love loves this.

my life is awesome.

different names for the same thing.

2010-04-13T00:04:00.004+10:00

i'm actually starting to really enjoy work :) it's the 5th week and the appraisal is due next week. i've just done mine today with my newly discovered preceptor and i'm anxious to see what she writes.. because i think i've improved tremendously in the last two weeks or so :) i feel like part of the ward, the staff are all lovely, the patients are gorgeous if they're not demented and i feel like i might actually have something to contribute to the betterment of society.

i say again, i'm actually starting to enjoy work :) life is looking up :)

saturate.

2010-04-09T09:44:00.003+10:00

Like a fire shut up in my bones
I want the world to know
You are God

With a passion burning deep within
I want the world to know
That You live

Let Your presence come and saturate
Every part of me
Make me new
Let Your Spirit come and move within
Fill me once again
I need more

Jesus I'm desperate for You
Jesus I'm hungry for You
Jesus I'm longing for You
Lord You are, all I want

Come like a flood
And saturate me now
You're all I want

Come like the wind
And sweep throughout this place
You're all we want.

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So shakersconference is/was this week. I got to go to 1.5 sessions despite work.. and it was definitely worth it.

I've grown up in church, I've known of this God my whole existence and that fact is divine FAVOUR that has been put on my life. I've always known Him to be real, even as a kid.. I always looked up to the grown ups who praised with their hands lifted up and wish the kids around me could do that too.. thinking that that next level of worship was only for the grown ups. I could always feel His presence even from a young age.

I was in year 8 when I truly started to understand the significance and reality of this God that my parents had dedicated their lives to. I found Him real for myself. I was on fire, I was passionate, I raised my hands when no one else my age did. I jumped around like crazy. It was the first love.

Now, 8 years later.. I'm here. After so many hurts and disappointments and just the mundanity of life.. I've lost that fire. I remember being that teenager and seeing my leaders skip conference and being appalled by their lack to enthusiasm. But now I'm the leader.. so what kind of example am I setting?

We really need to get back to the place of our first love. That passion that you just can't contain. That's the passion you see at shakers conference. The other night I was praising and going crazy.. and for a moment opened my eyes and saw the thousands of young people just abandoned in praise. I saw young people reaching that high and connecting with their creator.

I think there's a balance. I'm not that teenager anymore, but that doesn't mean we can't be passionate. We need to start edging on the next generation to reach those highs and start stirring up that passion.

I want that passion that feels like a fire shut up in my bones. Saturate me.

RT @karencheng

2010-04-01T10:45:00.001+11:00

Category : Daily Living

My almost 7 year old has been secretly making a comic series, and the other day, he revealed his work in progress to me.

I thought it was the coolest thing ever! I was so impressed with the consistency of his cover designs and drawings. It was all inspired by Star Wars, of course.

But he was gutted (very disappointed) when I mentioned that he had spelled MONSTERS wrong.

So he decided that “MOSTERS” was the name of the alien race.

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I WANT TO BE KAREN CHENG.

Yes, my life is that dull that I need to reblog other people's lives.

gabe bondoc &hearts

2010-04-01T09:54:00.002+11:00

You’ve worked very hard to be the person you’ve become. Do NOT let ANYONE, under ANY circumstances, make you feel you’re ANY less than you KNOW you are. ‘Self-worth’ is as important as it sounds.

— Note to self.

Your heart was made to be trusted.. as it is equally as strong as it is fragile.

— Note to self.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yUZhQoiF3RU
http://gabebondoc.tumblr.com/

quack

2010-04-01T01:05:00.001+11:00

also i quite like mini-cupcakes from the cupcake factory

♥ ♥

the update. prn. x2

2010-04-01T00:25:00.004+11:00

so the weekend. aka the monday night - wednesday.

monday night
angus & halfpipe & robert pattison
dondon & greys anatomy & gilmore girls
milo dinosaur

tuesday
coconut house
the first shopping spree of janeyrah = > $200 = 2 bags + 1 checked jacket + 1 checked shirt + 1 bra + 1 pair of hot pink undies + 1 scarf + 7 tops + 2 cardigans + 3 jumpers + 2 matching cow pants + 1 very lazy man shorts + 1 towel + 3 bionicles
indoliciousss
cow pants
justin ho
BIONICLES. then GIANT BIONICLES.
impromptu green zone.
more cow pants and same bed.
toesocks

wednesday
greys anatomy
indians and shoppo and 307
rejected from st v's all over again
winter melon tea
sleeping on the grass ♥
LORD OF THE RINGS : THE FELLOWSHIP OF THE RING
in the cinema again after 9 years
me & my brother reliving the fandom
$12 steak from crown
coming home and more fandomz

the update. prn.

2010-03-31T22:49:00.005+11:00

so i haven't used the internet properly for over a week because 1. i've been working and 2. we've been capped so the internet is incredibly slow and thus i ceebs. so right now, the only thing that doesn't require much refreshing of pages is indeed to write a blogpost. so here we go!

work. the biggest struggle/ challenge/ test that i'm facing right now. it's a scary thought going to work not knowing what to expect. i think the whole mortality aspect is all a bit too much for me to handle right now at this age. being the person that is the last to touch, to talk, to care for someone in their last hours is an honour but definitely something that impacts your spirit and sense of self, sense of mortality.

that, and the whole responsibility shazam that every job has: being the employee, being accountable to a boss, the performance appraisals, feeling like you have to prove your competence.. is all a little much to handle.

saying that though, i think i'm getting into the swing of things. three fobby nursing students came in on monday and i showed them around the ward, taught them a few things and loved it. education is def. one of my possible career paths :)

life. so today i had another one of my life evaluations and the familiar sinking feeling in my heart set in. toward the end of last year, i had my dream life set out in front of me.. and in two weeks.. that dream was dashed.. and i was crushed. right now, i still don't think i've gotten over that yet.

today i walked around and thought about the life that i had wanted, i walked around and reminisced about my old life, walked around and just took in everything. i feel like a different person from where i was just 4 months ago.. more grown up i guess.

i think part of maturing is to stop being so idealistic, so naive.. but i think true maturity is to draw the line between being too naive and but still staying optimistic. i know in my head that all these things happened for a reason and the path i'm on now is better.. but a part of me still doesn't understand why things didn't go to plan and why i didn't get my dream.. was it just because He didn't want me to? or was it because i just wasn't good enough?

people. because of work and because i'm a socially retardedhead, i feel like i'm completely falling out of the social world. i'm struggling with work and i don't think people understand.. or actually even care how i'm doing. subconciously, i'm shutting people out, withdrawing from people.. and i dont think anyone even realises it. right now, i only trust a selected few.. and i know everyone has their problems and a lot of people's problems are bigger than mine.. but i right now i only care about those who actually care about me. i know it can get exhausting, i've been there, i've been the friend who has to constantly care for the other.. i think that i deserve that in return.

disclaimer. so yes, these are just a little possibly over-exaggerated thoughts in my head at the moment. just a few determinant factors of my recent dark cloud of a person i have become. i think i'll start a new post on more positive things, cause it hasn't been all gloom and doom .. or dhoom2. brb.

stillmotion

2010-03-23T00:55:00.001+11:00

http://vimeo.com/user403001/videos

i could spend all night watching this. love it.

nutella

2010-03-21T22:31:00.002+11:00

okay, enough wedding photos/blogs/website stalking for tonight
to sleep i go :)

this week:
early monday
tuesday & wednesdays off
thursday study day :D (yes, i get paid yay)

my days are so messed up. X)
someone do something fun with me this week :)

copypaste tidal wave.

2010-03-17T10:17:00.003+11:00

I wish I could cross my arms
And cross your mind 'cause I believe
You'd unfold your paper heart
And wear it on your sleeve

All my life I wish I broke mirrors
Instead of promises
'Cause all I see is a shattered conscience
Staring right back at me

I wish I had covered all my tracks completely
'Cause I'm so afraid
Is that the light at the far end of the tunnel
Or just the train?

Lift your arms, only Heaven knows
Where the danger grows and it's safe to say
There's a bright light up ahead
And help is on the way, help is on the way

I forget the last time I felt brave
I just recall insecurity
'Cause it came down like a tidal wave
And sorrow swept over me

Depression, please cut to the chase
And cut a long story short
Oh, please be done, how much longer
Can this drama afford to run?

Fate looks sharp, severs all my ties
And breaks whatever doesn't bend
But sadly then, all my heavy hopes
Just pull me back down again

I forget the last time I felt brave
I just recall insecurity
'Cause it came down like a tidal wave
And sorrow swept over me

Then I was given grace and love
I was blind but now I can see
'Cause I found a new hope from above
And courage swept over me

It hurts just to wake up
Whenever you're wearing thin
Alone on the outside
So tired of looking in

The end is uncertain
And I've never been so afraid
But I don't need a telescope
To see that there's hope
And that makes me feel brave

maintaining the work-life balance.

2010-03-15T01:23:00.010+11:00

Since the last post..

Wednesday. The day-off 1.
Sleepies , ACMI, Flipbooks, Balwyns, Cho gao, Lychee sohos, Alien encounters, Max brenners, Giant sundaes, ME WANTEMS THIS, hand gestures & 201 busrides

Thursday. The day-off 2.
Greysgreysgreys. Suwii's house. Suwii's exercice video. Mummy ng talking. Shoppo. JBHIFI. Snobbing off my nurseincharge. Pizza expresso with the impactleads. Missing out on Sabrina's birthday D: Came home and found the brother baking. Peanut butter and chocolate cookies. Nommmm.

Friday. The first work day.
Sleep. Work. Blood transfusions. Failed venepunctures. Crazy running around. Missing the train by like 10 seconds and waiting 30 mins for the next one. Tyrone's 21st. Fellow nurse talking with Julie. High school love with Bryan. Coronas. Cake stealing. Constanter ac fideliter to Tyroning. Slept over at Janey's. Princess Monoke.

Saturday. The second work day.
Wake up from reality dream. Taking the Janey to indoschool. Breakfast hunting with John2. Kebabs & the office. Fridge transformations. Bubblecup and crepes and parks. Work. Had the first experience with a dead body. Cold. Went down to the morgue and felt sick D: Easy shift. Sunset dinner dates with patients. Besties patients.

Awesome parents driving me to city after shift to EVERMORE gig. I want to be a popsta.. pornstarr WHAT? Red and yellow Coronas. Talks. Camwhores. Evermore. Light surrounding you. Running. It's too late. Never let you go. Tonight's gonna be a good night. Pieface. IPHONE DROPPAGE when stealing jn's chips. Dermstalk. CAT'S REVELATION IN THE CAR - BEST. Last passenger talks with suwii :D

Sunday. The third work day.
Drove the brother to church. Picked up the janey, ida and dermawan from the city. Ate pies. Church. Driving to work. Work. Humming. Home. Interwebz catch-up. Photo commenting Blogging. Sleep.

.. and so I'm working tomorrow late and Tuesday early.. and it's my weekend again! I have Wednesday and Thursday off :) No plans yet.. besides a tentative balwyn dinner on Thursday. Mebe spontaneous mbro visit.. but we'll see :) Looking forward to it. Greys misses me.

Also. Death of my iphone's camera capabilities. SADFACE. Probs go to shoppo before work tomorrow and see if can fixies.

HOW TO FIX. GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Sif can live without photos srsly.

birthdaysss.

2010-03-11T11:16:00.001+11:00

happy birthday sabrinaa and sarahhh :D

the one.

2010-03-10T23:51:00.003+11:00

blue pill or the
red pill?

cause who doesn't love a matrix reenactment?

(note: click the red pill)
(here's the link to awesomeness if you are really that fail at clicking skills :D
http://www.acmi.net.au/timeslice/Timeslice.htm?file=ts-20100310-826ad63ef7fe056ce704125483a443bc.flv)

trying to keep afloat

2010-03-10T12:06:00.003+11:00

TWO DAYS OFF.

..after only two days at work. but hey, im working the weekend ok. pooface.

So I've spent my whole morning catching up on the world that is the internet. Blogs. Facebook photos. Youtube. And I'm starting to realise that I haven't really missed that much.

I think the internet is one of those friends that you make when you're bored and lonely but ditch once you actually have a life.

I kid. I heart you interwebZ.

Okay, now to head out into the world and talk to real people. Seeeyazz.

upcomingss

2010-03-07T22:49:00.001+11:00

this week
wednesday: balwyns meetup with the jn finally :)
thursday: youthleaders dinner
friday: tyrone's 21st of which i think i will princess leia it up for.
saturday: evermoreeeeeee gig for catch's bday :D (yes, we are still celebrating like 8 months later :D )

from the great unknown.

2010-03-07T22:04:00.003+11:00

so i should be in bed by now because work is at 7am and i am exhausted.. but i thought i'd just delay a little and just update about the first week andd my life :) because sometimes venting is better therapy than sleep is. (also i don't get paid for another two weeks, so retail therapy will have to wait.)

so the first week.

the first two days were purely orientation, freee morning tea/lunch/afternoon tea and making new friends. yes, i have a new bestie now that i call sandra oh :D ahah yes, we both love greys anatomy. she's awesome. new friends = (y)

the next three days were on the ward. wednesday was actually pretty good :) we were just getting used to the ward and iuno not much was expected. but by the time friday came around, i felt like i was crumbling. all i wanted to do was hide away in my room and just cry. i am a emo child srsly. if i was someone else looking in, i would slap myself silly. but.. iuno this is how i feel.

but yes. that fear hasn't really gone away yet. and tomorrow begins the first real week on my own without constant supervision. this is it. threee years of my lifeee has built up to this point. andd i should be asleep soon.

so the last weekend

along with the whole new working thing is the shiftwork. which means, working early mornings, nights, weekends etc. so this last weekend was the last full weekend for the next two months of which i know my roster for D: but i think i spent it well :)

WEEKEND IN DOT POINTS BECAUSE I NEED TO SLP IN THE NEXT 15 MINUTES.
- after work eye apptment and i chose my glasssesssssss :D freaking pwnz.
- impacttttttttttttt
- supper til 2am for the birthday of the brother
- sleeeep in and awaken to the hilarious happenings of the gc crew. i am still laughing.
- the brother's birthday lunch at heide cafe vue. i finally took photos for the first time in like a month X) and the food/ ambiance was lovely. recommended (Y)
- seeing ida and serene on the train ride and talks about dead arms and scaring small children sitting next to us
- THE CRAZY WEATHER STORMM that meant being locked up in melbourne central borders o lol.
- being rescued from the weather by the lees and watching sisters keeper while lovertime with the janey and babbit
- steamboat with the unis and ranting and laughing and eating and eating and being comforted that i'm not that nooob X)
- watched men who stare at goats with george clooney/ ewan mcgregor/ jedis and goast ofc. with $10 hoytstickets
- return to the leehouse sleepover with princesss monoke and sleeping
- waking early and washing my hair with no towel and the van ride to churchh
- churchhhhhhhhh
- kfc lunch with my 1 gay krush
- indooor soccer and running with janeyida though i pwnz them cause i am pwnzing.

..anddd a much needed indomie, electric stove cooked dinner that now gives me enough :) to face tomorrow.

(:

dare you to moveeee

2010-03-06T02:18:00.004+11:00

It was a beautiful letdown
When I crashed and burned
When I found myself alone
Unknown and hurt
It was a beautiful letdown
The day I knew
That all the riches this world had to offer me
Would never do

In a world full of bitter pain
And bitter doubts
I was trying so hard to fit in
Fit in, until I found out
I don't belong here (I don't belong)
I don't belong here (I don't belong)
I will carry a cross and a song
Where I don't belong
I don't belong

It was a beautiful letdown
When You found me here
Yeah, for once in a rare blue moon
I see everything clear

I'll be a beautiful letdown
That's what I'll forever be
And though it may cost my soul
I'll sing for free

We're still chasing our tails
In the rising sun
In our dark water planet still spinning
In a direction no one wins
No one's won.

See, I don't belong here
Well, I don't belong here, I don't belong
I will carry a cross
With a song where I don't belong
I don't belong

I'm gonna set side
And set sail
For the kingdom come, kingdom come
Your kingdom come
Won't you let me down, yeah
Let my foolish pride
forever let me down

Ah, Easy living, you're not much like the name
Easy dying, you look just about the same
Would you please take me off your list
Easy living please c'mon and let me down

We are a beautiful letdown
Painfully uncool
The church of the dropouts
The losers, the sinners,
the failures, and the fools

What a beautiful letdown
Are we salt in the wound
Hey, let us sing one true tune

'Cause I don't belong here
Won't you let me down.

---

so i just got tickets for switchfoooooot on 22/4 as i am working an early on that day :D
AWESOMESAUZ. switchfoot was totally one of my teenage angst bands. i must say, i really like going to concert/gigs :D i have another three lined up already. evermore next week!!

i can't wait to get paid.

2010-03-04T00:20:00.003+11:00

So leave it behind cause we, have a night to get away,
So come on and fly with me, as we make our great escape.

So baby dont worry, you are my only,
You wont be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,
Youll be my only, no need to worry..

ever since the hilton night / dancing but not clubbing at tangerine / the margaret night / the night suwii got hit on by a woman / the night of the jono induction / linda's birthday / yes, that's all the same night X) i've loved this song :) i just like the thought of someone saying these words .. to me. it sounds kinda lame, but i think every girl want to feel like they're the someone's only.

ahaha. embarrass.

I MEAN.. I JUST LIKE THE INDIANS OK? %% mm vindaloo.

the first day.

2010-03-03T20:45:00.000+11:00

sarah ♫ says:
ahahaha
funtimes
i pwnz the doctors today
like
ńëìĻ says:
ooo
sarah ♫ says:
tanya would be so proud
ńëìĻ says:
what
how
u pwn
doctorz
sarah ♫ says:
ahaha
soz
becauseeeeee
my pt was like
thicken fluids etc
sooo
had to crush meds

but she was on esopramazole
which is enteric coated
because it's a proton pump inhibitor
and thus is absorbed in the small intestines
ńëìĻ says:
lolz
yea
sarah ♫ says:
so if crushed, the drug would be metabolised in the stomashh aciddsss and thusss doesn't work effectively
SO.
i was like
ńëìĻ says:
thats where its suppose to be absorbed
srsly?
the doc didnt know htat?
lol
sarah ♫ says:
OH HAI DOCTORRRAHH
so like
i have nexiumz for patient and likee have to crushess
but enteric coated to cannot
so ya
how
and then FOOL INTERN
was like
o rly
and i was like ya rly
and then he was like
ńëìĻ says:
do u wanna go out?
lolz
sarah ♫ says:
i'll check with my registarrr
and then i explained to registrarrr
and she was like.. oh so can i put her on omeprazole?
and imma lke
you're the doctor foo!
and she changed order.
ńëìĻ says:
lolz
sarah ♫ says:
YES HERO I AM PATIENT ADCOVATE.
ńëìĻ says:
LOL
haha
funnnyyyy
sarah ♫ says:
actuallly this is prow
imma gonna blog it.

RAMUUUUUUUU

2010-02-24T01:03:00.001+11:00

Hi All,

I am just touching base with you, to remind you that Orientation is on Monday at Wantirna Health. You will need to park in the gravel car park which is on your left as you turn into the hospital.

You are not required to wear your uniform on the first day however on Tuesday you will need to.

If you haven’t already returned all your paper work to HR, please bring it with you to Orientation (this includes your certificate from the NBV).

Any concerns please email me.

See you all on Monday

Melinda Grice
Acting Graduate coordinator

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This just makes it that much more real. I start on Monday. I am freaking out. I don't want to do this anymore.

semi pieface.

2010-02-17T23:57:00.001+11:00

π says:
ahhh
I see
well, I'll start to get jealous of your awesome number D:
sarah ♫ says:
it's pretty awesome
dont be jealous
envy is sin
you know what would be cool?
a phone number that was
PI
WHOA
π says:
LOL
not very likely
unless it's...
sarah ♫ says:
BUT WOULD BE AWESOME
like 0 PI
π says:
0431 415 926
sarah ♫ says:
04 PI
ahahahahaha
X)
π says:
I want that number!
sarah ♫ says:
LET'S CALL IT
ahahaha
π says:
pi is my favourite sequence of numbers
sarah ♫ says:
why so?
π says:
following that is the fibonacci sequence
why? um...
I just like it.
maybe because
I memorized it to the 32nd place the year before
x)
sarah ♫ says:
ahahah
you are amazing
π says:
nah
you're more awesome
with your awesome number
sarah ♫ says:
i must admit
it is pretty awesome

today was

2010-02-15T00:41:00.003+11:00

Today was a fairytale
You were the prince
I used to be a damsel in distress
You took me by the hand
and you picked me up at six
Today was a fairytale
Today was a fairytale

I wore a dress
You wore a dark grey t-shirt
You told me I was pretty when I looked like a mess
Today was a fairytale
Time slows down whenever you're around

But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way Today was a fairytale
Today was a fairytale

You've got a smile that takes me to another planet
Every move you make everything you say is right
Today was a fairytale

Today was a fairytale
All that I can say is it's getting so much clearer
Nothing made sense until the time I saw your face Today was a fairytale

Time slows down whenever you're around
I can feel my heart
It's beating in my chest
Did you feel it?
I can't put this down

But can you feel this magic in the air?
It must have been the way you kissed me
Fell in love when I saw you standing there
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale
It must have been the way
Today was a fairytale.

marry me juliet

2010-02-14T01:24:00.000+11:00

happy valentine's day lovers who read my blog.

love love me.

pink.

2010-02-13T01:03:00.002+11:00

hi there.

do you know how heavy polar bears are?

O______O''

..enough to break the ice. %%

:D

teehee.

overdramatic and slightly inappropriate answers.

2010-02-12T03:03:00.004+11:00

¹IF I [can] speak in the tongues of men and [even] of angels, but have not love (that reasoning, intentional, spiritual devotion such as is inspired by God's love for and in us), I am only a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal.

²And if I have prophetic powers and understand all the secret truths and mysteries and possess all knowledge, and if I have faith so that I can remove mountains, but have not love (God's love in me) I am nothing (a useless nobody).

³Even if I dole out all that I have to the poor in providing food, and if I surrender my body to be burned or in order that I may glory, but have not love (God's love in me), I gain nothing.

(And again,

¹ If I speak with human eloquence and angelic ecstasy but don't love, I'm nothing but the creaking of a rusty gate. ²If I speak God's Word with power, revealing all his mysteries and making everything plain as day, and if I have faith that says to a mountain, "Jump," and it jumps, but I don't love, I'm nothing. ^3-7If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don't love, I've gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I'm bankrupt without love. )

⁶It does not rejoice at injustice and unrighteousness, but rejoices when right and truth prevail.⁷Love bears up under anything and everything that comes, is ever ready to believe the best of every person, its hopes are fadeless under all circumstances, and it endures everything [without weakening].

⁸Love never fails [never fades out or becomes obsolete or comes to an end].

(And again,

^8-10Love never dies. Inspired speech will be over some day; praying in tongues will end; understanding will reach its limit. We know only a portion of the truth, and what we say about God is always incomplete. But when the Complete arrives, our incompletes will be canceled.

¹¹When I was an infant at my mother's breast, I gurgled and cooed like any infant. When I grew up, I left those infant ways for good.

¹²We don't yet see things clearly. We're squinting in a fog, peering through a mist. But it won't be long before the weather clears and the sun shines bright! We'll see it all then, see it all as clearly as God sees us, knowing him directly just as he knows us!

¹³But for right now, until that completeness, we have three things to do to lead us toward that consummation:

Trust steadily in God,hope unswervingly, love extravagantly.

And the best of the three is love.)

¹³And so faith, hope, love abide [faith--conviction and belief respecting man's relation to God and divine things; hope--joyful and confident expectation of eternal salvation; love--true affection for God and man, growing out of God's love for and in us], these three; but the greatest of these is love.

Admittedly, I have been through and done this church thing for so long. I've been in it my whole life. I've been in ministry. I've seen church through the motions. Ask me about the camp from 2003 or that one night in 2005 and I'd have been there. I've been to church. I'm an expert at church. At some point, you have to start evaluating why you keep going. Is it for the reputation as a christian? The duties and responsibility held? Even the friends that you've made through these years? No. It's all about Jesus and what he's done.

I think one thing that someone said to me recently really struck a chord with me while reading this. What are the results of after doing church for so long? What are the fruits of being close to God? The answer: It's that you love people more. That growing out of love for and in us, we keep persevering.

Right now, I don't think I'm exactly living this out. I feel exhausted even thinking about going through another emotional rollercoaster. I don't think I have anything to offer anymore. I think need a fresh start.

Or maybe I'm just overly emotional today.

you didn't fight for me.

2010-02-11T11:14:00.002+11:00

The other day, Ida came over and we spent the day watching Taylor Swift videos, Disney songs and The Little Mermaid. Yes, we're cool like that.

We got into a discussion on how and why the two main characters in each fairytale fall in the oh so glorified notion of love. In Thumbelina, it's because they're both small. In the Little Mermaid, it's because she sings. In the Lion King it's because they're childhood friends. In Aladdin, it's because he shows her a whole other world to the one she knows, and loves her before finding out she's a princess. The list goes on..

But in the end, we figured that it was because the guy was willing to fight for the girl. I think inside every girl there's this subconscious need for that knight in shining armour, the man who is brave enough to fight.. and fight for her love.

470

2010-02-09T01:04:00.002+11:00

This is my 470th post which means I'm nearly at the 500 mark! I think it's time for another survey YAY !

Would you rather move to New York city or a small town no one has heard of?
NEWW YORKKK cause these lights will inspiree youuu.

Would you be shocked if the last person you kissed texted you right now?
Not really.

Which one of your friends would you get arrested with?
Janey, cause she black.

Was 2009 a good year for you?
Yes :)

When is the last time someone of the opposite sex gave you a hug?
My daddddddddd.

Do you have a best friend who is of the opposite sex?
No.

Who did you like 3 months ago?
Joseph Gordon-Levitt

Would you take $20,000 or a brand new car?
MONEYS.

Were you drinking the last time you threw up?
Yeh.

What does your last outgoing text say? And to who?
About pirates and ninjas. Janey ofc.

How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
Not many.

Have you ever talked to someone when they were high?
Nope.

Ever cried while you were on the phone with someone?
Nope, but have been on the receiving end.

Don't tell me lies, so is the last person you texted attractive?
I'm not gonna lie and say yes :)

Do you find smoking unattractive?
Sometimes.. D:

Have you ever copied someone else's homework?
Of course!

Will next Friday be a good one?
Hopefullyyyyyyyy :D IMPACT LAUNCH CHYEAHHBOII.

Have you ever fell asleep with anyone on your top friends?
Don't have topfriends pls. But yesssssss. Many.

How many days til your next birthday?
19 + 31 + 30 + 19 = 99 days

How's life going for you?
The calm before the storm?

Last person to make you laugh?
Janey/ My parents telling me I'm sterile.

Do you remember who you had a crush on in sixth grade?
Boys are groce pls.

Who was the last person who told you that things were going to be okay?
Nandana Bhagaskara Dermawan.. ?

sólo Cristo

2010-02-08T02:03:00.003+11:00

En reposo, en silencio sé que tú eres Señor.
Al estar en tu presencia sé que hay restauración.

Al oír tu dulce voz,
Te seguiré mi rey, mi Dios.

No hay nadie como tú, sólo Cristo.
Moriste por mí en la cruz, viviré para alabar.

En el caos, en tormenta sé que
sigues siendo Dios.
Cuando siento que soy débil me das
la gracia para seguir.
Al oír tu dulce voz,
cantaré esta canción.

//Mi deleite está en ti,
Mi corazón, toda mi fe
Mi deleite está en ti, por siempre.//

owl city

2010-02-08T01:34:00.005+11:00

I can finally see
That's you're right there beside me

I am not my own
For I have been made new
Please don't let me go
I desperately need you

I am not my own
For I have been made new
Please don't let me go
I desperately need you

two corinthians.

2010-02-03T01:21:00.004+11:00

¹When I came to you, brothers, I did not come with eloquence or superior wisdom as I proclaimed to you the testimony about God.^a]">[a] ²For I resolved to know nothing while I was with you except Jesus Christ and him crucified. ³I came to you in weakness and fear, and with much trembling. ⁴My message and my preaching were not with wise and persuasive words, but with a demonstration of the Spirit's power, ⁵ so that your faith might not rest on men's wisdom, but on God's power.

---

I think one of the main things I tend to battle with is self-worth. I think growing up with an over-achieving sibling and over-achieving friends around me has made a psychological defect in my way of thinking and feeling. I'm never good enough, smart enough, pretty enough, skinny enough or nice enough.

Even with starting this new phase in my life, I am again wrestling with the fears of being incompetent and useless at the job of which I was pretty certain that God had predestined me to do. What if I can't live up the expectations that the world and God's purpose has for me? What if? What if? These thoughts, these worries can be crippling. Sometimes I just want to get away from it all, y'know? But part of me wants to just jump in there to see how I go. If I fail, I fail.

I've been cleaning my room in the past few days and my lastest target is the wardrobe - which hasn't been cleared.. well, ever. It's just an accumulation of my life over the past 9 years since we've moved in. The old school reports, the excercise books filled with years of knowledge that was clearly not retained, the notes written in class between friends, the birthday cards and the lost photographs are all being discovered and re-read.. making the whole cleaning process a lot slower than first thought. But I guess it's better to do it all thoroughly now than later, because there will be never a time after this that I will be this free.

I have to say, I've lead a pretty awesome life so far. My school reports were all pretty above the status quo, the memories that were so long forgotten now remind me of the hilariously retarded but awesome times we've had and the little bits of craft and drawings are cringe-worthy looking at it now in more mature eyes X). It's been a tiring but satisfying journey of nostalgia.

I guess reading these verses really show that in the end, it's not about our strengths or our weaknesses that count. Being christian isn't about proclaiming the holiness or righteousness or even superiority, but recognizing the lack and short-comings of being a human being and giving that all up to the one who made us. It's about proclaiming God's power, no matter how significant we feel we are, it's all about Jesus.

So I guess, when it comes to my future.. (ironically) I should look at my past and see the stages of life that I've gone through and succeeded in to this day and see that through it all.. it's been Jesus that's brought me through, and that He will be with me in this new season.

----

in less emo news, nostalgia is awesome.

me and suwii in MATHS METHODS 1+2 WHILE WE WERE 14.
that's right. WE ARE GENIUS. X) PRAISE ME.

hearts.

2010-02-03T00:34:00.002+11:00

RT @johncmayer I just ate two giant pieces of cake. Hey, it's somebody's birthday somewhere.

This man is a genius.

the tide.

2010-02-02T01:17:00.002+11:00

http://asifpulledbyamagnet.com/

it's strange that something can both be calming, but make you feel sick at the same time.

yet i can't help watching.

john mayer.

2010-02-01T22:54:00.005+11:00

so last week was pretty fun :)

monday

a trip to tiffany&co

a traumatic trip to the dentist
dinner with the LUCY who works at st vincents&mercy private
and gets to scrub in on c-sections = MY TWO GREATEST JOYS = BABIES + THEATRE
& a walk and dnm with the whole khoowongparental unit. goodtimes (Y)

tuesday (australia day :))

chadstone and invictus (amazingg movie pls foo' !! want to go to south africa :D )

PAIN..tball with churchies and suwii :) :)
we got overalls and breastplates and 12 bruises.
but it was pretty fun i must admit X)

wednesday
RMIT enrollement with idaleeeee
brandjunction with idaleee

koreandramass with idaaleee and zaneleeeeeee
mocktails with ida leeee
potato salad and treasured planet with idaleee :)
& prayer meeting ofc.

thursday
the long awaited catchsuwii date X)
dondon and HINDSIGHT ALL OF HIGHSCHOOOLZ.

buBbL3cUpZ s2 ~~

then bloood donating with racheygroup :D
makes me really want to start nursing already D: D:

friday
designated bumday but ended up at ikeaaa

baked cupcakes for the semiroadtrip tomorrow :D
and a pretty hilarious night at the khoohouse for tdiv inductions and confucious says :)
then hot sexy nights with janey slpover :)

saturday

wokie and kissed goodbye the lover in my bed
then lucy's house and waiting for fran to pick us up for semi-ROADTRIP :)

moringtonish area with heaps of food (ofc)
water tunnels, sandcastles, owl city and..

PUPPIESSS :D freckles and blackie :)

then back to boxhilll for bubblecupss
made currypuffs/ various puffpasty treats with idaandjaneleee
and the traumatic SARONG PARTY.
of which i have photos of but am afraid of looking at.

-----

but now this week,
neil started work at fawkner
lucy still at stv's
suwii started uni
catch in GC (Y)
li still overseas
and janey& highschool kiddies start school again

so i'm bored X) someone save me?

and yes, ive spent today started phase two of roomraiders and finding a lot of evidence of the amazing person i am even as a child. ahahaha. i need a scanner X) and i've thrown out one box of recyclables and two bags of rubbish (Y) this feels good.

perfectly lonely.

2010-02-01T02:42:00.003+11:00

friendship is..

life revolving around food and berrybliss

have 3/4s of each others dvds and justifying starwars purchases.

not judging borderline mental illness/ delusions of grandeur

having now permanent toothbrushes at each others houses because it's not your house or my house, it's OUR house :)

..and realising that she may have been right all along.

---

love you janey :) gluck go pwnz them yr11nerdss!
welcome to vce, the best years of your life (Y) srsly.
studying is fun.

are you there? or are you just a decoy dream.

2010-01-28T22:24:00.005+11:00

- ii lubz 5iiv3 hrZ ob t4Lkin' lyK3 dis wid d@ c4tH3r1ne & sH0w11.
- dondon is the best value meal you can get in melbourne, hands down.
- after giving blood today, i really feel like starting work asap please.
- 32 days til work and i still haven't found my ideal outfit D:
- i still haven't began the next phase of ROOMRAIDERS (Y)
- i miss university. i miss being a student. rewind my life please.
- i heart owl city. heart heart heart. they are my new repeat album :)
- djokovic out ): don't want to watch anymore. though i probably will.
- my bruises are getting bigger and changing to weirder colours.
- the primary organ of my cardiovascular system can't handle this anymore.
- i feel very alone
and yes, my flowers are dying.

default.

2010-01-23T11:40:00.002+11:00

I MISS YOU KIDS X)

ahah after like spending EVERYDAY srsly with these kids.. it's like two days withdrawal X)

and yes, im finally uploading photos again X)

happy working song.

2010-01-23T01:09:00.003+11:00

Nandaaaaaaaaa says:
WHERE IS CLEANING ROOM
x)
or
are you dancing
so the birds and deer and rabbits and mice can come in
and dance around you
sarah says:
HAHAHA
X)
Nandaaaaaaaaa says:
and weave you a dress?
and magically clean up your place
x)
sarah says:
yes please.
X)
Nandaaaaaaaaa says:
while singingg disney songs
sarah says:
HAHAHA
Nandaaaaaaaaa says:
x)

-------

PHASE ONE of the roomclean is COMPLETE.
THE DESK. the desk of the past at least TWO YEARS has finally been cleared after two weeks of procrastination.

PHOTOGRAPHIC EVIDENCE BAMMMM.

CLEAR. TABLE. SURFACE. WHOA.

the items that made the cut and escaped the rubbish bin:
nerfgun. blueplaydoh. sushierasers. suwiiface. jnliface. dettol. LUNCHBOX.

FLOWERZ.

NEXT on roomraiders:
1. Top of drawers/ Jewellery etc
2. Under desk
3. CLOSET. this hasn't been touched since i've moved in 9 years ago and has just been growing and growing X) SURE to find some gems there %%
4. CLOTHES. time for some cruel culling of the wardrobe. IT'S LIKE A TANK TOPPPP. and time for new wardrobe in (once i get my first paycheck ahaha)

but yes, that's for another week. going to try to do it all before work :) YES I HAVE A GOAL IN LIFE pls.

& in other news, we've finally made the teens :)

mebe bebe.

2010-01-21T22:23:00.007+11:00

so the past WEEK (and a bit) has been FILLED with the following people.
yes, i stole these pictures from various people. kudos :)
it's been pretty ePIC. loves it. 20 days.

tempertrap. 12.01.10
driving to flemington rd, walking down elizabeth, OLD TOWN KOPITIAM MAMAK, waiting in line, meeting catfriends, BOXER REBELLLIONNN, DOUGIE AND ARMVEINTATTOOS, srsly like front roww/ 1.5 metres away from the band, THE DRUM SONG, DOWNRIVER, barefeet walking to maccas, tramstop waiting and lovechild making %%

dougiee :) the indonesian from tempertrappp :)

waiting in line with the parents :D

jn's 21st 15.01.10
the 24hours before writing speeech, $67.90 outfit, 1+ hours doing my TATTOOS, playdohhh, SHERRIILOVE :D , handcufffs, THE SPEEECH, ms shale storiesss, semidance, camwhores, misplacing my wallet and running around melb to get it, chillimalammm and ofc crashing the leehaus.

lovers :D

my tatts pls. i am gangsta pls.

ausopen day1 18.01.10
bestdaysrsly. doubledating. RAINING. margaret court. ROCHIIIII. RODIIIIIIII. TOMIIIIIIc.. RAIN RAIN RAIN. FREEBIE LAND. oasis x2. kia blast. FREE NECKWARMER. BHASKAR. ballkids in pink. STRETCHED HATS. jacobscreekphotos. RAINRAINRAIN. yourthai. more tomic and front row seats. free umbrellas. HISENSE ARENA upgradeeee. TRAM. headleaning. BOXHILL JOOK :D so satisfying.

molesting GIANT BALL.

jono has long arms.

all our freeebies :D YES! HOT!

linda's 21st. 19.01.10
walking down the stairs, walking up the stairs and walking down the stairs again X) heapsa people i haven't seen in AGES srsly. balwyniess. english classs kids, old church kids, rachsteph and white pants, THE AMAZING CAKE. passionfruitbrowniee. cat's generally funny speech. twirlling. prowparallel parking. PIEFACE. NUGGETS. (Y)

stalking rachsteph in toilets and DRYING OUR HANDS WHOA.

more SUWII ABS rape :D

happy family

semi-roadtrip 21.01.10
buttermilk pancakes :D good soundtrack in the smn hondacivic (Y) SUNNYRIDGEEEEEE. pick strawberries. ALBINO STRAWBERRY. ASEXUAL or PUNNETSQUARE? X) dandelionfail. KICKERBOKERGLORY. maccas craving. using GPS to lead us to nearest maccas = rosebud. mcchickenmeal (Y) cat's first fastfood endevourrr in two years X) SAFETY BEACH. the DEFAULT POSE. the drive home. the lost phone. the drive home.

strawberrypicking :D

lovers at safetybeach/dromana

hearts.

--------------

so yes! it's been a crazy week and a bit and i feel like people are starting to get sick of myface X) but i've had a blast :D love you bebes X) ahahhaa.

38 days til i start work already, which is pretty daunting.. but kinda.. I JUST WANNA GO OUT AND DO MY THANNGGG ;) ahaha. Lucy already started at yes.. MY DREAM JOB D: (DREAMSTEALERRR.. dreamthief?) and seems to be doing okay, because she is a prow. Part of me knows I can do this.. but I guess there's always that little bit of apprehension? So I'm just trying to live out my last few moment of freedom before MY LIFE AS I KNOW IT ENDS.

but yes, right now. i'm very happy :) :)

..i just wish people were happy for me too.

smoove

2010-01-13T16:28:00.004+11:00

Nandaaaaaaaaa says:
onoess birdss
Birds and planes are fighting for airspace, and it's getting increasingly crowded.
Read more: http://www.time.com/time/quotes/0,26174,1953108,00.html#ixzz0cSxjcsb8

i was playing a random game on bird migration yesterday
had to dodge plaaaness
sarah says:
ahahaha
wahh
why didnt tell me
Nandaaaaaaaaa says:
whyy?
is it even importantee?
sarah says:
ahaha
yess
everything is importantee
Nandaaaaaaaaa says:
ahaha
okay
well i've gone for a dump once today :D
sarah says:
how was it?
consistency?
Nandaaaaaaaaa says:
ahahaha
ermmm
gaseous
sarah says:
ahahah
nice
Nandaaaaaaaaa says:
x)
sarah says:
normally in the morning?
Nandaaaaaaaaa says:
ahaha
here yes
but in aus
randommmm
sarah says:
aahahaha
why do you think is?
Nandaaaaaaaaa says:
ahaha
ionoo
cause
my insides are messed up when around you? :$
sarah says:
ahahahaha
that is the most smoooth line ever
X)

steal janey songs again.

2010-01-13T01:37:00.001+11:00

I don't want to see you hear you, be anywhere near you.
you probably think I'm threatened by you
but your illusionary power doesn't threaten me.

Actually I think it's kind of funny that you create an illusion that is a mirror.
I don't appreciate you and I know that that surprises you
I suppose you see that those who follow their heart always win,
those with integrity have won the match before it's begun

So rather than being pushed around, I'm going to push you away first
So rather than trying to protect you, I'm going to cover my bases first

So rather than trying to open my heart, I'm going to lock it with a key
So that only the special ones, so that only the special ones, can ever get through to me

you could offer me nothing, you could offer me nothing that I need
Do you think I'm asking too much?

I don't want to be angry.

This is not worthy of me
and now with clarity I see
that I can walk away,
I can walk away.

sweeeeeeeeet.

2010-01-12T15:36:00.002+11:00

so i have 48 days til the next chapter of my life begins, aka the era of FULL TIME WORK. not only is it full time work, but FULL TIME SHIFT WORK. which means the early mornings and the late nights and DUN DUN DUN.. NIGHT SHIFTS. of which i have yet to experience yet..

holidays have been pretty sweet so far X) since the last day of placements, i've been to vanuatu, enjoyed christmas, adelaide, canberra, rung in the new year, been to the beach, stayed a night at hilton, lived at janey's, had dondon, played rockband and written a lot of emails :) i have yet to get to the stage where i'm bored of holidays X)

as a previous post already reported, i'm going to tempertrap tonight! and have two more 21st in the next week. and a speech to write ! D: i'm kinda feeling the pressure cause i suck at public speaking pls D: and don't know if our injokes will be funny to the rest lolol X)

so yes, enjoying it so far :) and am really quite happy. boompz.

hee.

2010-01-10T20:29:00.004+11:00

we tried to kill cat.

but jono saved her :)

I AM VICTORIOUS TROLLEY.

heh.

i love friends :D

cause i ceeebs.

2010-01-08T13:14:00.003+11:00

cause i ceebs doing the rest of twenty oh nine.

the rest of the year was filled with these peoples

the unis X)

acu balllllll

badgee ceremonyyy

and balwynzz

sofitelllll

galvanicc cellllll

:)

may.

2010-01-01T16:40:00.003+11:00

yes, i'm kind of late with the end of year post since it is already 2010. but give me a break, i was in adelaide (and canberrraa) pls. ahaha. so this is may.

the cupcakes :D

the mornington roadtripp

the mothers day picnicc

the birthdays and the carpark dancing.

the placements at como private hospital.

the red shoes and the manchesterlane party.

the dralion with the fam.

the last tanya lecture!!! D:

the opera with sarah and esther :D

the haircut D:

may was srsly the best month ever X)

---

so 2010!

no resolutions at the moment. just to live life to the full and try to maintain work/life balance x)

things to look forward to:

tonight balwyndin & janey back tonight at 12.30
tomorrow my parent's anniversary din2
3-5th jan beacchiess at torquayy
8th jan hilton night with the balwyns for li's 21st
12th jan TEMPERTRAP
16th jan jn's 21st
19th jan linda's 21st ? not sure..

the year's end.

2009-12-28T18:54:00.007+11:00

so i guess it's time to do the year long reflection post. i'm going to adelaide tomorrow and i'm not sure if there's internet there D: so i'll try to be comprehensive as possible as i semi-pack for the city of churches.

where do we start? i think this year has been probably the most rollercoaster-like year of my life. i've had my heartbreaks (x infnity) but really, what are the ups without the downs? so many great moments. this year hasn't been the biggest for epic roadtrips or sleepovers like last year, but for the little moments, conversations and dates that in the end, are what's truly important. it was my last year at uni and filled with placements and experience in my professional area of life. i've travelled and i've reached a few of life's landmarks. i've had those hard conversations that end in tears and others about nothing at all.

it's been a tough year, but the ride was worth the dips.. cause i'd rather live life to the full and experience the hurts along the way than live in mediocrity and have nothing to reflect on. i'd rather a y = sinx life than a y = 0 . yes i am a nerd. you love it :)

i think i've talked to death about my year already, so i won't rehash all the emotional details X) just talk to me and ask me if you want, cause really i love the sound of my own voice :P

so instead, i'll to the typical year in photos/ blog post recaps X) cause that's how we rolled.

january
- return from america/canada
- a whole month of emo blog posts

- beach and old men with the catsuwii.

- a whole lot of hanging out with the citycellers

- and awesome friends at karaoke and threats at bashing people up :)

february

- new job at VNS
- the wahbeloved saga and all it's implications

- climbing the 1000 steps with my love

- the start and return of impact

- the start of FINAL YEAR OF UNI :) &i love lucy srsly x))

march
- soundrelief and all it's dramas
- 17 again premier and the lovely zefron :D
- rejections of the first letter of the alphabets D:
- earth hour day

- coldplayconcert

- clubbing like wha?

- the arrival of chris martin :)

- the one month to live program and laundrette bible studies

- more yumchas and birthdays :)

- and the arrival of mochi and mbro :D

april
- the assignment month
- the failing of that stupid ethics seminar
- the relationshipstatuschange
- the camerajo night
- the easter camp
- the dramas of easter camp
- the adam hills date
- the new job as a PCA and the shifts that followed D:
- the janey birthday and fail surprises

- releasing the inner rockstar within through karaoke and unis .

- balwyn foods and camwhores in the car

- manifestt

- the insectsaurus invasion at uni X) good times

and now i think it's time for an intermission cause may need a post all for itself X)

vanuatuuuu

2009-12-27T23:35:00.004+11:00

some happy snaps from li's amazing photos since i am still too busy to look through mine x) contemplating a end of year reflection post soon tooo, so watch out lovers :)

hideaway island.

white sands beach

lovers.

our favourite place to chillax: numbawan cafe :)

snokelling/ finding nemo at hideaway :D my favourite part srsly.

rope diving in the blue lagooon

i stole li's hat.

:D

the gift.

2009-12-26T01:35:00.003+11:00

And with this Christmas wish is missed
The point I could convey
If only I could find the words to say
to let You know how much You've touched my life
Because here is where You're finding me,
in the exact same place as New Year's eve

And from a lack of my persistency
We're less than half as close as I want to be

And the first time
That You opened Your eyes did You realize that You would be my Saviour
And the first breath that left Your lips
Did You know that it would change this world forever

And so this Christmas I'll compare the things I felt in prior years
To what this midnight made so clear
That You have come to meet me here

To look back and think that
This baby would one day save me
In the hope that what You did
That you were born so I might live
To look back and think that
This baby would one day save me

And I, I celebrate the day
That You were born to die
So I could one day pray for You to save my life

vanuatu

2009-12-20T16:39:00.002+11:00

so i'm typing this blog from notepad since the internet here is really slow. i haven't had access to the internet on my laptop for this whole time and now i think i've figured out why.. stupid firewalls. i am prow hax0rz srsly. so i've been using my iphone to upload the photos that i've uploaded so far and only now attempting to upload my DSLR photos :)

so far it's been pretty fun. the people here are incredibly friendly, that it really puts us aussies to shame. so socially awkward, srsly. the attitude here is just so chillax.. and well.. happy :) it's really nice here. our place is right in the middle of port villa and the ocean is close than the bus stop is to my house at home x) so it's pretty sweeet.

Yeah, this is my view. Be jealous.

(:

sexytalk.

2009-12-14T21:29:00.001+11:00

sarah says:
hope its not a kiss or soemthing
ahahahaha
Janey says:
HAAHHAHA
mistletoe
sarah says:
HAHAHAH
DOWANNNN
Janey says:
:P
i'll give YOU a mistletoe
sarah says:
HAHA
you can mistle on my toe anytime
%%
Janey says:
hahahahah
oh yehhh ?
i'll tap that
SHIZZZ

the HA-ierarchy?

2009-12-13T00:23:00.002+11:00

sarah says:
HAHAHAHAHAH
no actually, that joke does not deserve capital letters
Nanda thinks Tiffany is nooobsauz says:
ahahah
sarah says:
so only
hahahahaha
not HAHAHAHA
Nanda thinks Tiffany is nooobsauz says:
i see
is this
Nanda thinks Tiffany is nooobsauz says:
the HA-ierarchy?
sarah says:
HAHAHAHAHA
Nanda thinks Tiffany is nooobsauz says:
tehehehhehe
sarah says:
YESSSSSSSSSSSS
WINNNNNNNN.
Nanda thinks Tiffany is nooobsauz says:
(:
sarah says:
do teach pls.
Nanda thinks Tiffany is nooobsauz says:
ahahahahha
(:
well
if you're sarcastic laughing
you put
a full stop at the end of your non capital ha's
sarah says:
ha. ha.
Nanda thinks Tiffany is nooobsauz says:
ha.
not amused
clearly.
Nanda thinks Tiffany is nooobsauz says:
for smiles
you do the normal
ahaha
sarah says:
ahahaha
Nanda thinks Tiffany is nooobsauz says:
for extra smiles you prolong the ha's
to haaaaaaaaahaahaaaaaaa
or
multiply their number
sarah says:
haaaaaaaahaaaaahaaaaaa
Nanda thinks Tiffany is nooobsauz says:
to hahahahahahahahhahahahahah
sarah says:
ahahahahahahahahahahahahahhaa
Nanda thinks Tiffany is nooobsauz says:
for outrageously funny things
you can combine all of those
with added
capitals
no full stops though
so
HAAAAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAH
sarah says:
HAHAHAHA
i love it.
Nanda thinks Tiffany is nooobsauz says:
(:
sarah says:
is there one more than that?
Nanda thinks Tiffany is nooobsauz says:
the heeehee?
thats my own style
you have the ahahs
since
always start with a
sarah says:
ahaha
it does
why? i dont know
D:
Nanda thinks Tiffany is nooobsauz says:
because a is before h?
sarah says:
ahaha
Nanda thinks Tiffany is nooobsauz says:
but after...
the
sarah says:
mebe
Nanda thinks Tiffany is nooobsauz says:
NOOOOOOOoo
A IS NOT AFTER ANYTHING
sarah says:
CAPSLOK.
Nanda thinks Tiffany is nooobsauz says:
CANOT DO THE i BEFORE e
format.
sarah says:
ahahaha
funy funny man.

--

no, i did not ask for permission to post this but thought it was so vital for the world to know the ha-ierarchy that i posted it anyway. pls don't sue for copyright kthanks. i give you cookie.

emails.

2009-12-12T12:28:00.002+11:00

i think it's getting rare to getting emails other than the facebookspam and various other spams. emails that actually say something, that actually mean something. however, recently with the lovers being overseas i've had the privileged of receiving a few of previously mentioned emails that make you (:

like this one from suwii:

so ok plan for ur ARRIVAL. Thursday - i'll prob still have afternoon at placement..have u arranged airport transfer with the lady? coz zomg notoriously lazy and slow - have to call her to come now and pick u up! else take BUS not taxi!!!

we go ROXY'S at erakor for dinner and sunset - meet beforehand and we ride in bus :) on friday you guys go to national museum - do the tour - walk shops, mebe go iririki (but i dunno if u have to pay for day pass ._____________. ) and then at night we go moonlight cinema at nambawan cafe and watch ICE AGE 3

hahahah it is so cool the setting :) sounds good? sunday we go on the round island tour cos nothing is open on sunday

LOVE IT. FIVE DAYS to the vatu. yes please. it doesn't help after 3 sending offs at the airport this week. the next trip will be FOR ME.

and an editted one from janey:

So, events of the year ? ( in no particular order coz i ceebs)

-failed sweet 16th

-hottest day ever ever but hawtest reunion day ever ;)

-L's

-awesome 20th at mornington penisular

-telepathy epicness 2 weekends after mornington which totally blew my mind

-RELIENT K BEST DAY EVERRRR

-the invention of D:

-camerajo epicness and welcome to australiana

-you are 20 and old :D

-death and resurrection of the word 'epic'

-disbanded JIST

-watching tranformers and pores of Megan fox in pyjamas

-discovery of 17 again and hawtest version of zac efron ever

-janey rah weekend over 30 times this year

-no shopping coz we no shop together

-fail conversations with grandma wong

-HIJAB

and more

but totally editted half of those cause cannot be for public viewing X) which reminds me that i should do a end of year post soon (a la sabrina woon :)) haha. but we'll see how that goes.

and quite few more emails about taylorswiftlautneradventures :)

oh and i've established blackbird, gentlemen don't, and somewhere over the rainbow and can't help falling in love with you as part of my wedding song list.

but for now, i should get up and ready for mimi's birthday bbq this arvo with my fellow RN1s :D we made it baby !! :)

i'm a satellite heart.

2009-12-11T03:32:00.005+11:00

gone. the most important people in my life.
suwii. jemface. arman. nanda. my brother. janey. tiff. i feel like im living at the airport now, and i'll be there again this time next week with li off to vanuatu. beach. sun. photos. bring it :)

done. last clinicals ever. preceptorship done.
even after a terrible shift (ended with me crying in the toilets x)) i have to say i had a great time at epworth. i'll miss it. the next time i enter a hospital, it'll be as a registered nurse.

one. person in the world for you? is there really the one?
i'm not sure but all the drama that comes with it is with it better be worth it. but right now, i'm happy .. and i miss you.

i need you in my lifeee.

2009-12-05T02:25:00.001+11:00

oh internet, how i've missed you so.
so i haven't used the internet on my computer for what seems like weeks.
so much facebook to catch up
and tagged photos.
and emo blogposts.

but i'm exhausted and janey is in my bed.
so, til another day my loves.

5 shifts to go
til i can sign RN1 after my name.

also loves to pheebs who whoppwhopped me at my badge ceremony. ily.

badge ceremony.

2009-12-02T12:30:00.004+11:00

the uebergansters with their namesake :)

STEVE. what a tank srsly.

steve and joe.

my two greatest loves.

my favourite couple :)

so the pseudograduation was last night, aka the badge ceremony.

it was amazing :)

two days ago, it looked like no one was going -- amy and diana hadn't bought badges, fran hadn't replied and lucy had placements and neil is a snorlax. but after some convincing, i turned up at 6pm at front cafe and EVERYONE WAS THERE :) :)

the whole ceremony was fairly enjoyable, with all our lectures there to make speeches and such and HEAPSA OF MY PHOTOS were used in the photoslideshowvideolikething :) so proud! the moment standing behind the stage waiting for my name to be called was amazing, as my name was called by the amazing tanya uebergang, i looked into her eyes, smiled and skipped on stage to grab my badge from santha :D with a GO RAHFACE in the audience x) hehe. love my kids :)

i am incredibly happy.
now to get through 8 more shifts of placements!

i think i've done this quiz before but alo.

2009-12-02T12:18:00.002+11:00

If you married the last person that texted you what would your last name be?
lee

Do you know anyone named Molly?
from primary school, but don't really know her anymore besides facebook x)

What smiley face do you use often?
(:

Honestly, have you ever eaten raw cookie dough?
yesyesyes.

Who’s texted you in the past 24 hours?
janey, nanda, jackie, amyahn, phoebe, lucy, neil, motherwong.

Who were you with Saturday night?
janey, beyonce, lizzie maguire, johnjohn & the choir X)

What is bothering you?
5 days. placements.

What’s your favorite kind of ice cream?
$1 korean icecream.

Are any of your friends taller than you?
some X) the important one is ;P

Do you like hugs?
yesyesyes. i am a hugwhore.

What are you listening to right now?
maybe i was born to

Who’s the last person you talked to on the phone?
bandana

Feel like talking to someone you haven’t in a while?
i should write an email.

Who was the first person you talked to today?
well if today was counted as midnight, amyahn x)

Has anyone ever sang to you?
yesssssssss <3 the way to my heart srsly.

Has anybody ever told you that you have pretty eyes?
yesss :)

How was your weekend?
janeyjaneyjaney. bootylicious. toga.

Will you be up before seven am tomorrow?
yes, i start work at 7.

What is something you disliked about your day?
placements in 1.5 hours.

How late did you stay up last night?
3ish, and yes my grandma was GIRL CANNOT GO OUT PAST 3am.

When you’re home alone do you still close the door when you shower?
yessssssssssssssssssssss

Can you remember the last time you really liked someone?
nownownow

What were you doing at 10 last night?
were we still at viethouse? or driving :)

Were you in a good mood last night?
definately.

When was the last picture you took?
last night at badge ceremony :)

Would you ever dye your hair red?
mebe

What are you doing for valentines day?
working prolly D:

i know very well.

2009-11-27T00:25:00.000+11:00

so life,

placementsplacementsplacements earlylatesearlylates
but i'm halfway through now with TWO WEEKS LEFT EVER (if i pass) and i think i'm finally getting the hang of things (: i was just chatting to my VADERCEPTOR today during lunch break and she was just telling me abt the students she failed (by this point i was semifreaking out) and so i stopped her and jokingly asked how i was going and she said i good (:

so yes, it's been good, i think. i've gotten used to the ward, so i'm not just wandering aimlessly around the place looking for linen and i've gotten into the routine of things. well, i'd like to think so. and i think i'm lovely. haha. patients tend to stay a little longer in ortho - about a week or so - so you get to know them. so i was working in room 13 end of last week/early this but the past few days i've been in other rooms, but went into rm13 to help the other nurse and they were all like HII SARAHHH :D heh. i am awesome. one of the patients said i would be a good mother, cause i was playing colouring with one of the little kids ( her name was bella, yes like from twilight hello taylor lautner :D)

so the year is drawing to a close
and all the end of year events and such are happening. this year's pretty special because of graduations and all that jazz. i've got the khoowong dinner on monday, then my grandma's coming on tuesday morning which is dec 1st aka my badge ceremony :D then the saturday after, dec 5th is my brother's graduation and then ida's 18th at night. then it's dec 7th, which is the day before dominic monaghan's birthday.

three days after that, i'm done with placements FOREVER.
and finally, ten days after THAT.. lilychen and myself will be reunited with our suweng
in VANUATU :) :) sexy times to be had.

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but for now, i sleep. i have a free lunch to attend tomorrow :)

i steal janey songs.

2009-11-26T23:34:00.005+11:00

You run your fingers across my lips
No I've never felt like this before, no, no
I know I'm young but I know love
And I'd know I know an angel if I saw one

But I know very well
Gentlemen don't kiss and tell
I promise I won't tell the world
If you say you want to be my girl
In your own words..

I'm just a simple man, simple plans,
Good work, take care of fam,
I'm sure you understand
Because you're heaven sent, independent,
Do you think you need me?
I think I need you girl, baby can't you see?

But I know very well
Gentlemen don't kiss and tell
And I promise I won't tell the world
If you say you want to be my girl
In your words..

Cards on the table
Willing and able
Stable, capable
Of holding you down
I'm just sayin..
I'm not complaining
Your love is worth waitin' for

But I know very well
Gentlemen don't kiss and tell
And I promise I won't tell the world
If you say you want to be my girl
In your words..

i'm still trying to not mess up.

2009-11-23T10:27:00.002+11:00

Would you shave your head if a family member asked you to because they had cancer?
it'll be hard, but in the end i think i would. and get a wig.

What would you do if the doctor told you that you were pregnant?
HCG testt

Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize?
yes, but it still doesn't seem like they meant it.

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
at times, yes.

Explain the last time you threw up:
in canada, after eating yumcha. Yes, it tasted like jook.

Last thing that made you cry:
re-watching jim&pam's wedding :)

Do you have a bad temper?
yes D:

Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?
i hope to be.

How many funerals have you been to in your lifetime?
a few.

How often do you think about suicide?
not recently.

What is your deepest fear?
losing everything.

Do you REALLY love all your family?
yes :P

Did you reject or accept your last friend request?
reject

Was the last person you hugged a male or female?
male

Are you taller than your mum?
yes

Do you find it hard to trust others?
not particulary

Last compliment you received?
:D

What did you wish for on your birthday?
haha more cake?

Were you single on your last birthday?
yes

Would you be able to date someone who doesn't make you laugh?
CANNOT. laughter = love.

Are you scared to fall in love?
yes, don't want to get hurt again.

Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you, and meant it?
i think so :)

When you say you 'dont care' do you mean it?
not always.

Are you sarcastic?
yes, apparently.

The last time you really laughed?
last night. something about 80 tolerance and car upholstery.

What hurts right now?
dramarama.

Is your hair naturally curly or straight?
straight

Do you usually apologize first?
yes, if warranted.

Do you still watch movies on VCR?
like, recorded masterchef yes x)

Do people ever call you by your last name?
yes ;P

Have you ever fallen asleep thinking about a boy/girl?
:)

Ever felt like you're not good enough?
all the time.

Do you miss anyone?
yup. mbro is too far away.

Do you think two people can last forever?
i'd like to think so.

When was the last time you held hands with someone?
D: can't remember.

Does it make you uncomfortable when you receive a compliment?
at times, yes. but learning to accept them :)

Is there a person you look at and automatically smile?
yes please.

When was the last time you were unhappy with your life?
october 17th

Do you want your life to stay the way it is right now forever?
no way.

Can you recall the last time you liked someone?
yesss

Who is someone you wish you could fix things with?
two people in particular.

Did your parents spoil you as a child?
of course :D imma princessss.

Where EXACTLY were you when you entered 2009?
watching the crystal ball drop on tv, in Dix Hills, Long Island, America :D

What do you feel weird without?
MY PHONE D:

Do you brush your hair with a comb or a brush?
confession: i don't really brush my hair D: UNRULY HAIR.

How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
7ish?

Do you like funny people or serious people?
a balance of both. but more funny kthanks.

What are you listening to?
art of love - guy sebastian + jordin sparks (kthanks li ;D)

Cause I'm still learning the art of love
I'm still trying to not mess up
So whenever I stumble let me know
You need to spell it out for me
Cause I'm still trying to learn the art of love

Are you wearing any make up right now?
nope

Do you sing in the car?
constantly.

Have you ever cried from being so mad?
defo.

Expecting something to change in the next month?
everything.

Have you talked about marriage with another person?
marriage. honeymoons. kids. everything.

Could you ever be friends with someone who hurt you badly?
we'll see.

Are you proud of who you are?
at times yes, since i'm about to graduate and i'm only 20 what. but in other aspects, no.

Do you feel alone even in crowded rooms?
when there's no janey, yes.

You're dying in 10 seconds, what are your last words to your best friend?
IT'S LIKE A TANKK TOPPPP. ily.

...to your worst enemy?
Neeed a lift? A pun? yeah.

Do you care if people hate you?
yes, always.

Name one moment where you couldn't control your rage:
D:

Name one moment where you sincerely wanted to just die:
January 10th 2009

For the last one, just say anything you want, anything at all:
I miss you.

countdowns.

2009-11-20T12:21:00.002+11:00

06 days til suwiidepartureforvanuatu
10 days til my grandma is here
11 days til badge ceremony
15 days til brother's graduation/ ida's bdayparty
17 days til the nbdeparture
22 days til janeymsiatime
26 days til rmit graduation
27 days til the vanuatudeparture
35 days til christmas
41 days til 2010

& 16 shifts of studentnursingleft before graduate if pass :)

phileo.

2009-11-17T22:04:00.003+11:00

i feel the need to update, but don't really have anything to update.
i also haven't taken photos for that long, so i have nothing to update.
so i looked through my chrismartin folder and found these that i never uploaded.

i know everyone thinks their doggie is the cutest, but really. phileo is the cutest dog ever. pwnz you.

gimme my close up :)

schleeppytiredface.

pensive.

wazzzzupp.

so placements so far have been okay :) but i don't know how i'm going to survive another 4 weeks.. and the rest of my life living shiftwork. i'm exhausted already and all i want to do is sleep. my nanna naps are the highlight of the day. besides that, nothing much to report. but yes, i'm very happy :) :) cause this one is how we rolled.

therapist?

2009-11-17T21:59:00.001+11:00

for your reference again. stalk me please :)

d: 0700-1500 e: 1400-2200

	Monday	Tuesday	Wednesday	Thursday	Friday
Week 1 (16/11)	Orientation	D	E	D	E Rita
Week 2 (23/11)	E	D	E	D	E Rita
Week 3 (30/11)	D	D	E	D	D
Week 4 (7/12)	D	D	E	D	E Rita

prewhat?

2009-11-16T22:20:00.003+11:00

Nanda says:
:P
woah
such an awesome title
I AM.
YOUR.
door swoosh opens
smoke comes out
back-lit environment
PRECEPTOR.
rah says:
AHHAHAA
DUN DUN DUNNNNNnn
Nanda says:
ksshhkkk *vader*
ahahha
rah says:
ahaha
so epic right
i want to be a preceptor
when im prownurse

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so i'm doing my preceptorship, which means i follow just one nurse around for 4 weeks and she assesses me on my skills and whether or not i am worthy to pass/ proficient to graduate. it's kinda daunting. i officially start tomorrow so pray that i get along with her, cause i'm stuck with her for 4 weeks! my people skills suck.

okay really, bed now. 6am tmo.

never tie us down.

2009-11-16T21:22:00.001+11:00

i should sleep. but my favourite people are busy and i have nothing to do.

= survey timez.

Spell your name without an L :
sarah

When was the last time you were told you were cute?
:D

Do you have unlimited texting?
YESYESYES and it's the best thing ever kthanks.

What do you have to say about the first person on your top friends?
who was my first person on my topfriends? suwiing? she has a blog! and is going to tasmania soon.

Did any particular thing brighten up your day today?
hudsons :)

Does anyone hate you?
possibly. various people's parents D:

Do you like to text or call more?
txt txt txt pxt but i like calls also :)

Do you have an older brother?
yes, he wears threadless shirts and is kinda cooler thann me.

Were you happy when you woke up this morning?
ngahhharrghhh = exact thoughts this morning

Is there someone you can’t stop thinking about?
yes :)

Do you know anyone with the same name as you?
not anybody in a cemetery.

Does anyone have feelings for you?
yes please.

What're you doing tomorrow?
taking the 48 tram at 6.28am for preceptorship at epworth :)

Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell anything to?
yess :)

Are you happy right now?
i'm pretty excited to sleep.

Are you single? If so, who do you like flirting with?
yes, janey lee.

Will you regret your next kiss?
engagement day kthanksbye.

What was the last thing you threw at someone?
D: can't remember.

Do you follow recipes?
not particularly.

Do you look people in the eye when you talk to them?
yes O________O

Do you follow your head or your heart?
my heart.

When was the last time you used a glue stick?
pva glue. on my hands. cause it's cool.

Do you ever look back at your yearbooks?
always. the buchanan. good times.

When you introduce yourself, do you give hand shakes?
generally yes, in a social setting. but in nursing setting no.

Is there a limit to how many best friends you have?
is there? i don't think so.

Do you like screamo music?
no thanks.

Would you rather have money or love?
LOVE!

Do you have the strength to say goodbye forever?
do i? i don't think so.

Have you ever walked away from someone and they didn't come after you?
never >:P

Would you date a 18 year old at the age you are now?
no way.

What about 30?
if they look good for their age.

If you had the chance to shoot someone, would you?
why would you, if you can just PUSH THEM ON THE TRAIN

Name something you dislike about the day you're having:
the early nights.

Who was the last person to smoke a cigarette in your presence?
random people near the bench.

Are you dating the last person you texted?
i am in a relationship with jane lee, yes.

Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
nbd.

What were you doing last night at midnight?
studying about ACL's

If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
constantly.

Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
in my ctrlz threadlesstee and pink boardies. i am hot.

Are you alone in the room?
yes.

What are you doing Friday?
placements and then IMPACT :)

Are you always happy?
not situationally happy.

Are you on any medication?
nope.

Do you want more piercings?
maybe.

Do you try to please everyone?
i try to.

Do you wish someone would call you right now?
yes please. but no thanks cause going to sleep now.

Do you laugh at stupid things?
always. ndjokes.

Have you cried this week?
yessum. WHY DIDNT YOU WRITE ME? I WROTE YOU 365 TIMESSSS.

do you like the colour pink?
yes :D :D

Are you wearing school shorts?
no, but i often do (:

When you say you don't care, do you usually mean it?
sometimes. sometimes i just don't want to deal with it.

How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
depends who from.

Can you recall the last time you liked someone a lot?
yessss.

Do you crack your knuckles a lot?
I CANT. i can't click either.

How long does it take you to fall asleep at night?
not long ;P

How many people do you trust fully?
3 or 4?

Are you happy with the choices you've made?
i'd like to think so. but i'm not 100% sure yet. but i am happy :)

Do you ever think about the past?
always.

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
this arvo at the bustop but then a little kid came along ;P

The person you like/love runs up and kisses you, what do you do?
punch that someone in their face.

Are you okay with making a total fool of yourself?
OK . SIDEWAYS MAN WHOA.

Do you still pinky promise?
always :D

What's the most important part of a relationship in your opinion?
trust.

Sex ruins relationships, right?
outside marriage, yes.

When was the last time you saw someone really attractive?
today.

When was the last time you really laughed?
today :)

Is there anyone who doesn't like you because of something you did?
maybe.

Do you like Red Bull?
nope. natural high kthanks :)

Have you ever wished on a shooting star?
yes. don't often see them though.

Do you have a best friend that knows you inside and out?
yes, better than i know myself.

Can a boy and girl be friends without having feelings for each other?
yes.

Is there anyone you wish you could be spending time with right now?
yes please.

Is there someone who meant a lot to you at one point, and isn't around now?
they may still be around, but not in that sense anymore.

You're locked in a room with the person you fell hardest for, any problems?
eat them.

The boy/girl you truly care about needs you at 3 AM, would you go?
this calls for a maccacss runn :D

Wallpaper on your phone?
ikea.

okay bed hello :)

bridge rd.

2009-11-16T01:07:00.002+11:00

so i start preceptorship tomorrow.
four weeks of clinicals.
one preceptor.
the last test before becoming what i've been studying for the last 3 years to be.

scared much? you bet.

but bring it on.

swell.

2009-11-15T19:24:00.002+11:00

Use the truth as a weapon
To beat up all your friends
Every chink in the armor
An excuse to cause offense
And the boys from the hallway calling out your name
And true love will find them in the end

You were restless
I was somewhere less secure
So I went running to the road
And so now there's a long list of places I was
I quit my rambling and came home

Cause maybe I was born to hold you in these arms
Maybe I was born to hold you in these arms
Use your saints and your mantra And you things to keep you calm
If you stay with that asshole
He's gonna do you harm
There's a voice singing loudly on the radio just for you
That good fortune will find him in the end

Maybe I was born to hold you in these arms.

love.

2009-11-13T13:28:00.006+11:00

MISSION STATEMENT:

To Write Love on Her Arms is a non-profit movement dedicated to presenting hope and finding help for people struggling with depression, addiction, self-injury and suicide. TWLOHA exists to encourage, inform, inspire and also to invest directly into treatment and recovery.

VISION:

The vision is that we actually believe these things…

You were created to love and be loved. You were meant to live life in relationship with other people, to know and be known. You need to know that your story is important and that you're part of a bigger story. You need to know that your life matters.

We all wake to the human condition. We wake to mystery and beauty but also to tragedy and loss. Millions of people live with problems of pain. Millions of homes are filled with questions – moments and seasons and cycles that come as thieves and aim to stay. We know that pain is very real. It is our privilege to suggest that hope is real, and that help is real.

You need to know that rescue is possible, that freedom is possible, that God is still in the business of redemption. We're seeing it happen. We're seeing lives change as people get the help they need. People sitting across from a counselor for the first time. People stepping into treatment. In desperate moments, people calling a suicide hotline. We know that the first step to recovery is the hardest to take. We want to say here that it's worth it, that your life is worth fighting for, that it's possible to change.

Beyond treatment, we believe that community is essential, that people need other people, that we were never meant to do life alone.

The vision is that community and hope and help would replace secrets and silence.

The vision is people putting down guns and blades and bottles.

The vision is that we would learn what it means to love our friends, and that we would love ourselves enough to get the help we need.

The vision is better endings. The vision is the restoration of broken families and broken relationships. The vision is people finding life, finding freedom, finding love. The vision is graduation, a Super Bowl, a wedding, a child, a sunrise. The vision is people becoming incredible parents, people breaking cycles, making change.

The vision is the possibility that your best days are ahead.

The vision is the possibility that we're more loved than we'll ever know.

The vision is hope, and hope is real.

You are not alone, and this is not the end of your story.

dora luz.

2009-11-12T00:19:00.004+11:00

del feliz cumpleaños la escritura del ninja de la cautela im en español causa su la lengua que usted necesitará aprender para su esposa futura así que acostúmbrese a ella y cause solamente las proas que saben al babelfish entenderá.

cumpleaños tan feliz mi amigo telepático para de quien permaneceremos para arriba hasta que seis est porque ninguna confianza el reloj del pollo.

usted hace que mis sueños vienen verdad y morir por su lado sería una manera divina de morir puesto que hicieron una estatua de nosotros y teníamos porción de zorros. tan it' disposición dulce del S.A. que su su cumpleaños hoy causa a it' s im la muchacha más afortunada en la zona este más baja.

¿secreto? oh sí, ése es cómo rodamos. feliz cumpleaños usted.

procrastination.

2009-11-11T16:00:00.003+11:00

Things I have achieved today/hope to

Updated my Centrelink Payment/ Intention to study paperwork
Registered for my Optus "MyAccount" and changed to online billing
Downloaded the NBV registration form etc.
Photocopy Birth Certificate and get it certified
Checked my financial status from my Bankwest/Ing accounts
Transferred to pay parents for Vanuatu
Transferred more money into my Commbank since I ONLY HAVE $25.78
Pay for phonebill hopefully
Caught up on Brothers & Sisters
Had a mud-mask
Made my brother a salmoncheese sandwich
Stalked facebook

And it's 4pm. Save me. I have nothing to do.