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The intermittent records of a slightly socially retarded, trigger happy, newbie registered nurse attempting to defy mediocrity.. and gravity, of course.

Thank God .

so i havent told many people, and i dont know why i didnt . i guess it was really embarrasing, and probably didnt want to burden people , since everyone else had their own exam dramas etc etc .. but last week .. i failed my aseptic technique assessment .

there were a few complicating factors, and right now, looking back .. it sounds a little trivial .. but because of that for the past week ive been feeling pretty down and had this ..achy feeling in my heart . i guess i was angry at the teacher, at myself .. but more, though i know i shouldnt have, but at God because He let this happen. its a pretty poor mindset to have, but i was there . why did He fail me when i was trying to do His will ? anyway, to cut the rambling short , i was pretty depressed . you have no idea how much .. over something so trivial .

today was the dreaded retest, and after waking up late (woke at 11.20am for a 12pm test !! ) , my dad drove me down to uni and in the car.. i asked him to pray for me . and as he did .. i was crying everywhere . we finally got there , with 5 minutes to spare .

well, guess what ? I PASSEDD ! BOOYAHHH ! :D when i got there, the guy before me came out , and it was pretty clear that he had failed again . that didnt do much for my confidence, but without thinkning she had called my name and i went straight in . i was shaking, but by the grace of God .. i got through it . with comments like 'excellent technique, well done sarah! ' i was pretty ecstatic ! and yes, i celebrated with breadtop :D

on the bus the way home, i got out my bible.. and this verse came out ..

" O LORD, God of Israel, there is no God like you in heaven above or on earth below— you who keep your covenant of love with your servants who continue wholeheartedly in your way.

You have kept your promise to your servant David my father; with your mouth you have promised and with your hand you have fulfilled it— as it is today."



So morale of the story, God keeps his promises .

I don't know what i keep forgetting that .

But theres another story to put in my book of testimonies .




wow, ive already written a lot . i was gonna rant about exams , but i think ill stop it there .. and leave you with a survey from sam (:

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Part 1: On the Outside
Name : sarah wo
Date of Birth : 1905
Current Status : taken by zefron .
Eye Colour : brown like poo .
Hair Colour : black like week old poo .
Righty or Lefty : lefty ftw !
Zodiac Sign : snake , like ayame in furuba

Part 2: On the Inside
Your Heritage : malaysian chinese .
Your Fear : giant mutant budgies .
Your Weakness : FOOOOOOD D: oa pls .
Your Perfect Pizza : margerita with heapss of melty stringy and slightly burnt CHEEESE <3

Part 3: Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up : what day is it ? what time is it ? can i sleep in ? DO I HAVE TO WORK ? NOOOOOOO D:
Your bedtime : in the past week its been about 2am .
Your most missed memory : this time last year . bring me back plssssss . i miss you .

Part 4: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke : coke ftw .
McDees or Burger King : mcdees . but hungryjacks for grilled chicken burger .
Single or Group Dates : both - like in vanessa hudgen's vidclip for ' say okay ' .. that would be a perfect date . (and not only because it has zefron <3333 )
Adidas or Nike : nike - because they sponsor the socceroos & lucas neill models for them . and marky works for them :D
Lipton Tea or Nestea : neither, not much for tea .
Chocolate or Vanilla : CHOCOLATEE !!
Cappucino or Coffee : cappucino just for the bubbles on top (: i have many memories of just eating the top of my parents cappucinos .

Part 5: Do You...
Smoke : NO GARY NO . so many biological risks associated with it . for every body system we learn in bio .. -_______-''
Curse : no .

Part 6: In the Past Month
Drank alcohol : nope :D sober for 2 months .
Gone to the mall : err yes . aka SHOPPO aka . a hole -____- ''
Been on stage : nope
Eaten sushi : yaya ! sushi + breadtop = what gets me through uni XD
Dyed your hair : nope .

Part 7: Have You Ever?
Played a stripping game : YES . no thats a lie .
Changed who you were to fit in : i guess, but not to the point that it compromises who i am . if that makes sense ..

Part 8
Age you're hoping to be married : 23-30 . NOT 42 thankyou .

Part 9: In A Guy/Girl
Best Eye colour : brown like chocolate . though blue eyes are yum .
Hair colour : emo black .
Short or long hair : short, but not as short is mikey's . between that and zefron's hair is love thankyou .

Part 10: What Were You Doing?
1 minute ago : this xD no, not studying .
1 hour ago : studying about digestion in the small intestine . weeee brush border enzymes ftw !
4 1/2 hours ago : watching TV & eating .
1 month ago : it was heroes&villians + jackie's 18th + no parents weekend ! good times (:
1 year ago : that fated day, spesh&bio exams . best time of my live XD i heart you vce .

Part 11: Finish The Sentence
I love : Jesus, family, bfffs & bolys :D
I feel : like dancing ~
I hate : my inability to study for long periods of time & the amount of content i have to cover .
I hide : and seek , ben mckenzie's version from idol <3 .. err i hide food around my room ?
I miss : this time last year x1000000
I need : to pass these exams . those red sunnies . more summer clothes . a new job .

Part 12: Tag 5 People.
1) sabrina (since sam already tagged)
2) phoebe (" ")
3) maria
4) joanne
5) .. sigh i have no more friends that blog . its so sad -____-'' 8


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gorgeous new layout courtesy of http://www.blogskins.com/info/128149 (& check out the 'credits' too)

im officially in love with it . and spent the whole night looking for the perfect layout (since i am too noob to make my own -_____-'' ) . yes the whole night instead of studying for exams that are a mere 11 days away .

a good nights work methinks .

the only thing is .. i cant figure out where the comments go O______O

edit: fixed up the comments (: so leave one please ! 4


another week, gone by in a flash .
watching the clock i wait for each hour to pass by.
desperately looking forward to the next .
to escape that mundane moment .
without making the most of what was then .


a failure at what im meant to be.
my calling , my future stunted .
blaming others for my lacking .
not sure what God's trying to say .
why i have to fall and when ill get back up .


end of first year university .
not what i ever thought it would be .
why i am so socially awkward .
why i dont fit in , while others do .


how he has changed
how i have held onto something
that doesnt exsist any more .
those moments , those cherished memories .
that i have to let go and move on .


she has been nothing but a good friend
i have been nothing but negative .
feeling guilty for things i have said .
and things that i have not done .


how much i need this God i know
but refuse to have the discipline to seek .
because i know He has all the answers .
it is just me who is too lazy to ask .



not trying to be poetic . just some thoughts in my head . i just cant be bothered making sentences . 0






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countdown queen

36 hours till last assignment of the year is due
2 days till aseptic technique assessment
2 weeks of uni left
8 days of actual classes left
16 days till exams start
21 days till summer holidays
& thats the end of first year university .

--> two years to go till graduation.


all in my head ..

i miss my brother a lot. the house is so empty without him. and i have no one to annoy or to download house for me. hopefully coming back either this friday or cup weekend . i miss him like a fat kid on a diet misses cake .

i am loving warmer weather. despite having no summer clothes.. i need to go shopping - im gonna budget myself at $145 , which is the money i got from tax return yay (though it really isnt that much -___-'' ) . i just need TIME to go shopping .

i need to get a nursing related job - but im too scared to go for it . ive heard some stories that have really discouraged me from friends .. and i really dont want to end up with a repeat of workexperience - and then hating nursing and then dropping out . but theres no other way other than nursing home -____-'' i dont know if i can handle it . but i need it for a good CV when i graduate .. and the money is good too .

i need the money because of .. welll as of 3 hours ago.. a planned and possible EUROPE TRIP with linda & glenelg buddies . tentatively planned for a year or two years ahead . SO EXCITING . not sure if we can pull it off . but the thought it of is enough for me to start saving . i always dreamt of going with a boy, but lindas close enough to that :P maybe she can bring her bestie .

bestie (or all variations of the term) is really annoying me. there seems to be something .. a barrier between us. maybe its just from my self-perception . but its really bugging me. looking back a year ago, how close we were .. to now.. where we barely have a conversation.. it makes me really sad that we could have let that slip away. i miss bestie. but .. i dont know.. maybe its time to move on ??? i dont believe i could ever say that .. because im very for the principle of loyalty - but things are just static . but i just cant let go . help me let go please . headpat. maybe ?


allows the regulatory hyperaemic response to function.

how is it that i can write so much ( 436 words ) about nothing in 10 minutes
and ive only got 62 words on my assignment that ive been working on all night ?


okay now that trick is to channel this energy into comparing and contrasting nursing interventions for decubitis ulcers.. 0





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class of two thousand and six .

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note : assignments = blogging instead

i cant believe how fast first year uni has gone by, ive only got one more assignment due on monday (woo 30%) and then its exams in a month ! i feel like i havent learnt anything this semester . got results from a few things back this week - happy x2 and dissapointedx1 . getting that .. credit .. really made me motivated to actually start studying (i havent studied since semester1exams) . but alas i came home and just watched tv & facebooked . in fact, the only thing ive learnt this week is from jn's QM1 tutorial :D yay line of best fit . degrees of freedom . net error is minimised . significance levels . unit . variable . on average .

for some non-pms related reason ive been kinda emo for the past few days. i think i just expect too much from people. one little event can make or break my day - i really have to learn to take things less seriously . it just feels like everyone is going on with their lives, while im stuck here. people have moved on with their lives, new friends, new relationships .. and partly because of my 'clingy-ness' (as linda calls it) i cant handle it .

not to mention.. my hair is starting to get FIZZY D: OH NOESS .


another thing, theres been a few birthdays recently (happy birthday bryan&doris :D) .. and the majority of those are 19th . MY next birthday (though more than half a year away) will be a 19th .. which means 20 isnt too far off . TWENTY . twenty-somethings D: OH MY LIFE IS PASSING ME BY . as a little girl, i always pictured myself as a twenty-something - cool, confident, successful and independent . and now that im nearly there, im certainly not that person . i feel as i have grown as a person in the past year .. but i dont want to be stuck here . i want my 11year old self to be proud of what ive become . i have to start making plans . even with my taxes , my parents did it for me . (not that im complaining :P)

so as i sat all alone by the yarra yesterday afternoon, i made some goals .

this year (with the remaining last 3 months) :
do well in my exams - learn the meaning of study
step up as a youth leader (ive been really slack in the past few months or so.. which really reflects on how the kids relate. )
finish the bible-in-this-year
road-trip & catch up with people i havent seen in ages
practice more worshipy songs on piano

next year (2008)
go on missions <-----
expect and see great things in boly :D
make more significant friends at uni
get a job related to nursing (nursing home, hospital)



.. but enough about the future .. and back to right now ..

this week
finish plan, learning log & start essay by thursday for assignment
finish current book of the bible
practice piano zomg
stop going on facebook
try not to spend >$30



OKAY . no no emo . in OTHER non-emo news ..
- zac efron is in australia once again ! he cant get enough ~ tomorow he'll be hosting kids choice awards :D
- me & my mum are totally into so you think you can dance
- i love wearing dresses, i need more dresses . i need to go dress shopping !
- im so into all saints which is starting right now so i have to go go go !

<3 2



but here we go :


everyone was dressed up , we ate , we camwhored , we ate , we had giant mocktails , we caught up with old friends , we mocked her new friends , we ate , we watched some football and ate somemore ( yes, it was all you can eat ! ) .



my great idea turned sour when no one turned up D: i was so excited, i bought at least $100 worth of junk food and like 8 people showed up from the 30 odd i invited LOL . how sad . BUT nevertheless.. it was fun ! HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 2 FTW . i love you troy bolton . you are the music in me .


the best social ever ( considering we havent reallly had a huge social of such yet xD ) . again, the turn-out from our church was terrible - but gloria's church visited which was great . costumes were great, dancing was embarrasing, food was awesome and all in all it was a fun night :D though no one really appreciated the stitching of velcro for the deco .


after waiting 1/2hr for sarah to arrive, we ran through a red light and reversed angle parked to yallambie for jackie's 18th ! the night after heroes&villains you'd think we'd be danced out .. NONO NOT SO ! from nutbush to macarena to jem's arm swinging to HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 2 re-enactment (where by people LEFT the dancefloor - left the building even - true story ) and ida running to the smoke machine every time .. it was definately most exciting 18th as there was a BLACK-OUT O_______O which made things more interesting and much more fun :D hahaha .

in the last last week which was holidays, my parents were away together and for the first time we were home alone WITHOUT A BABYSITTER ( yesyes, the last time they both went away me and my brother were babysat by johnyong and the time after than chrisgoh XDD ) . which meant the CAR WAS MINE :D

my accomplishments :
- to heidelberg station x432 times
- to church x 654 times
- to work x 6 times
- to glenferrie rd from balwyn
- to yallambie
- to boxhill
- to victoria parade -- and YES i PARALLEL PARKED . it took 10 mintues to the point where the guy on the other side of the road asked if we needed help .. BUT I DID IT ALL BY MYSELF !

all on half a tank full of petrol :D

i didnt do that much on my mere ONE week of holidays - i was working everyday O_____O drainer (but not so much when i checked my bank account today :D helloo babyyy ;) ) . besides working , i went to fedsquare for idol concert . its sad so say it was so crap this year - or because im too mature for fangirlyness (which is hypocritical to my previous post LOL ), lunch with suwii&linda at samurai, lunch with emily at bochiu and a whole lot of heroes&villains decorating .

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz what a drainer . ive already missed 3 hours of lectures, 2 because of li chen and our fully asian shopping day and another because of our 'youth' movie day = ida, mike&cecil xD , wednesday i stayed for all my lectures&tutes but then met up with suwii where we went to pixar & rode the free tourist bus .

ive got 4-5weeks till exams and im not feeling the pressure at all compared to others . feels like i havent learnt anything (and not just because i havent been going to lectures) . bio will be a killer though - learning all those hormones (yay oxytocin..) . but besides that .. im feeling very calm .

exam dates :
7.11 bio118 anatomy&physiology
9.11 nrsg123 context of nursing
12.11 nrsg122 professional practice

yes i only have 3 - half of suwiis :P

and then YEAHHH the real holidays are here ! i cant wait .. last years holidays were the best time ever .. lets hope these ones live up to those .

ROAD TRIP ANYONE ??
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the about me section that can never truly fully describe a person.
it usually emcompasses the favourite movies, favourite music and all that jazz, but really when you think about it these aspect of me change every few years and can never really define me, as me.

but here are the basics anyway:
1. i'm left handed but drive with my right hand.
2. i like milk, but only safeway light milk.
3. i have a dog named phileo and he's white with a pink nose.
4. i am, after three crazy years, a registered nurse, division one.
5. i wish my life was a musical and i often burst into song and love it when people around me join in too
6. i'm sometimes just a mess but above it all, my jesus is always there to come to the rescue. he's pretty swell :)

Thank God .

so i havent told many people, and i dont know why i didnt . i guess it was really embarrasing, and probably didnt want to burden people , since everyone else had their own exam dramas etc etc .. but last week .. i failed my aseptic technique assessment .

there were a few complicating factors, and right now, looking back .. it sounds a little trivial .. but because of that for the past week ive been feeling pretty down and had this ..achy feeling in my heart . i guess i was angry at the teacher, at myself .. but more, though i know i shouldnt have, but at God because He let this happen. its a pretty poor mindset to have, but i was there . why did He fail me when i was trying to do His will ? anyway, to cut the rambling short , i was pretty depressed . you have no idea how much .. over something so trivial .

today was the dreaded retest, and after waking up late (woke at 11.20am for a 12pm test !! ) , my dad drove me down to uni and in the car.. i asked him to pray for me . and as he did .. i was crying everywhere . we finally got there , with 5 minutes to spare .

well, guess what ? I PASSEDD ! BOOYAHHH ! :D when i got there, the guy before me came out , and it was pretty clear that he had failed again . that didnt do much for my confidence, but without thinkning she had called my name and i went straight in . i was shaking, but by the grace of God .. i got through it . with comments like 'excellent technique, well done sarah! ' i was pretty ecstatic ! and yes, i celebrated with breadtop :D

on the bus the way home, i got out my bible.. and this verse came out ..

" O LORD, God of Israel, there is no God like you in heaven above or on earth below— you who keep your covenant of love with your servants who continue wholeheartedly in your way.

You have kept your promise to your servant David my father; with your mouth you have promised and with your hand you have fulfilled it— as it is today."



So morale of the story, God keeps his promises .

I don't know what i keep forgetting that .

But theres another story to put in my book of testimonies .




wow, ive already written a lot . i was gonna rant about exams , but i think ill stop it there .. and leave you with a survey from sam (:

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Part 1: On the Outside
Name : sarah wo
Date of Birth : 1905
Current Status : taken by zefron .
Eye Colour : brown like poo .
Hair Colour : black like week old poo .
Righty or Lefty : lefty ftw !
Zodiac Sign : snake , like ayame in furuba

Part 2: On the Inside
Your Heritage : malaysian chinese .
Your Fear : giant mutant budgies .
Your Weakness : FOOOOOOD D: oa pls .
Your Perfect Pizza : margerita with heapss of melty stringy and slightly burnt CHEEESE <3

Part 3: Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up : what day is it ? what time is it ? can i sleep in ? DO I HAVE TO WORK ? NOOOOOOO D:
Your bedtime : in the past week its been about 2am .
Your most missed memory : this time last year . bring me back plssssss . i miss you .

Part 4: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke : coke ftw .
McDees or Burger King : mcdees . but hungryjacks for grilled chicken burger .
Single or Group Dates : both - like in vanessa hudgen's vidclip for ' say okay ' .. that would be a perfect date . (and not only because it has zefron <3333 )
Adidas or Nike : nike - because they sponsor the socceroos & lucas neill models for them . and marky works for them :D
Lipton Tea or Nestea : neither, not much for tea .
Chocolate or Vanilla : CHOCOLATEE !!
Cappucino or Coffee : cappucino just for the bubbles on top (: i have many memories of just eating the top of my parents cappucinos .

Part 5: Do You...
Smoke : NO GARY NO . so many biological risks associated with it . for every body system we learn in bio .. -_______-''
Curse : no .

Part 6: In the Past Month
Drank alcohol : nope :D sober for 2 months .
Gone to the mall : err yes . aka SHOPPO aka . a hole -____- ''
Been on stage : nope
Eaten sushi : yaya ! sushi + breadtop = what gets me through uni XD
Dyed your hair : nope .

Part 7: Have You Ever?
Played a stripping game : YES . no thats a lie .
Changed who you were to fit in : i guess, but not to the point that it compromises who i am . if that makes sense ..

Part 8
Age you're hoping to be married : 23-30 . NOT 42 thankyou .

Part 9: In A Guy/Girl
Best Eye colour : brown like chocolate . though blue eyes are yum .
Hair colour : emo black .
Short or long hair : short, but not as short is mikey's . between that and zefron's hair is love thankyou .

Part 10: What Were You Doing?
1 minute ago : this xD no, not studying .
1 hour ago : studying about digestion in the small intestine . weeee brush border enzymes ftw !
4 1/2 hours ago : watching TV & eating .
1 month ago : it was heroes&villians + jackie's 18th + no parents weekend ! good times (:
1 year ago : that fated day, spesh&bio exams . best time of my live XD i heart you vce .

Part 11: Finish The Sentence
I love : Jesus, family, bfffs & bolys :D
I feel : like dancing ~
I hate : my inability to study for long periods of time & the amount of content i have to cover .
I hide : and seek , ben mckenzie's version from idol <3 .. err i hide food around my room ?
I miss : this time last year x1000000
I need : to pass these exams . those red sunnies . more summer clothes . a new job .

Part 12: Tag 5 People.
1) sabrina (since sam already tagged)
2) phoebe (" ")
3) maria
4) joanne
5) .. sigh i have no more friends that blog . its so sad -____-''
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Praise God, Sarah! What a wonderful testimony showing the love of God! ;)

By  Maria, at 1 November 2007 at 4:01 pm  

are you really a lefty?

By  Maria, at 1 November 2007 at 4:45 pm  

ps: I love your new layout especially the lines. Hahaha...

By  Sabrina Woon, at 1 November 2007 at 6:18 pm  

Ahaha HEY I'M FINALLY HERE!
*hugs*
=)

By  princessjo, at 1 November 2007 at 9:38 pm  

maria : yes im a lefty ! represent ! :D why would i lie about it ? xDD why you didnt think i was cooooool enough ? of course i am .. i radiate with lefty coolness .

sab : i finish 12nov . lets do something 14th mebe , since you leave on 16th right ?

jo : YAY YOU'RE HERE :D party time !

By  sarah, at 2 November 2007 at 2:10 am  

YAYYYYY!!! Now I can see ur blog!! :D

By  samantha, at 2 November 2007 at 1:30 pm  

heeheeee!!! Saarah!! U were so cute last time! flower girl for A. Linda's wedding! =p U were like so restless.. hahahaha...

By  samantha, at 4 November 2007 at 6:53 pm  

Yeah, let's do something on the 14th!! =)

By  Sabrina Woon, at 4 November 2007 at 7:08 pm  

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Haiya, you tag me again. Hehehe... nice state lib picture. when was that?

We really need to plan something after exams. When is urs finishing? Let's go karaoke or something. =)

By  Sabrina Woon, at 1 November 2007 at 6:17 pm  

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gorgeous new layout courtesy of http://www.blogskins.com/info/128149 (& check out the 'credits' too)

im officially in love with it . and spent the whole night looking for the perfect layout (since i am too noob to make my own -_____-'' ) . yes the whole night instead of studying for exams that are a mere 11 days away .

a good nights work methinks .

the only thing is .. i cant figure out where the comments go O______O

edit: fixed up the comments (: so leave one please !
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commenting on my own blog ftw (:

testing 1, 2, 3 ..

By  sarah, at 27 October 2007 at 11:45 pm  

HAHAHA..

NICE new layout. I should get one soon for next year. :p

Add a chatbox at the side? Then we can spam each other. hehe

study study!!

By  Sabrina Woon, at 28 October 2007 at 4:45 pm  

hey this is cool Sarah!

But....I reckon you should be studying for your exams...:P

By  Maria, at 29 October 2007 at 4:12 pm  

As a reply to your comment: LOL!! :D I cannot remember my brother's birth either...:P

By  Maria, at 30 October 2007 at 3:25 pm  

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another week, gone by in a flash .
watching the clock i wait for each hour to pass by.
desperately looking forward to the next .
to escape that mundane moment .
without making the most of what was then .


a failure at what im meant to be.
my calling , my future stunted .
blaming others for my lacking .
not sure what God's trying to say .
why i have to fall and when ill get back up .


end of first year university .
not what i ever thought it would be .
why i am so socially awkward .
why i dont fit in , while others do .


how he has changed
how i have held onto something
that doesnt exsist any more .
those moments , those cherished memories .
that i have to let go and move on .


she has been nothing but a good friend
i have been nothing but negative .
feeling guilty for things i have said .
and things that i have not done .


how much i need this God i know
but refuse to have the discipline to seek .
because i know He has all the answers .
it is just me who is too lazy to ask .



not trying to be poetic . just some thoughts in my head . i just cant be bothered making sentences .
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countdown queen

36 hours till last assignment of the year is due
2 days till aseptic technique assessment
2 weeks of uni left
8 days of actual classes left
16 days till exams start
21 days till summer holidays
& thats the end of first year university .

--> two years to go till graduation.


all in my head ..

i miss my brother a lot. the house is so empty without him. and i have no one to annoy or to download house for me. hopefully coming back either this friday or cup weekend . i miss him like a fat kid on a diet misses cake .

i am loving warmer weather. despite having no summer clothes.. i need to go shopping - im gonna budget myself at $145 , which is the money i got from tax return yay (though it really isnt that much -___-'' ) . i just need TIME to go shopping .

i need to get a nursing related job - but im too scared to go for it . ive heard some stories that have really discouraged me from friends .. and i really dont want to end up with a repeat of workexperience - and then hating nursing and then dropping out . but theres no other way other than nursing home -____-'' i dont know if i can handle it . but i need it for a good CV when i graduate .. and the money is good too .

i need the money because of .. welll as of 3 hours ago.. a planned and possible EUROPE TRIP with linda & glenelg buddies . tentatively planned for a year or two years ahead . SO EXCITING . not sure if we can pull it off . but the thought it of is enough for me to start saving . i always dreamt of going with a boy, but lindas close enough to that :P maybe she can bring her bestie .

bestie (or all variations of the term) is really annoying me. there seems to be something .. a barrier between us. maybe its just from my self-perception . but its really bugging me. looking back a year ago, how close we were .. to now.. where we barely have a conversation.. it makes me really sad that we could have let that slip away. i miss bestie. but .. i dont know.. maybe its time to move on ??? i dont believe i could ever say that .. because im very for the principle of loyalty - but things are just static . but i just cant let go . help me let go please . headpat. maybe ?


allows the regulatory hyperaemic response to function.

how is it that i can write so much ( 436 words ) about nothing in 10 minutes
and ive only got 62 words on my assignment that ive been working on all night ?


okay now that trick is to channel this energy into comparing and contrasting nursing interventions for decubitis ulcers..
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class of two thousand and six .

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note : assignments = blogging instead

i cant believe how fast first year uni has gone by, ive only got one more assignment due on monday (woo 30%) and then its exams in a month ! i feel like i havent learnt anything this semester . got results from a few things back this week - happy x2 and dissapointedx1 . getting that .. credit .. really made me motivated to actually start studying (i havent studied since semester1exams) . but alas i came home and just watched tv & facebooked . in fact, the only thing ive learnt this week is from jn's QM1 tutorial :D yay line of best fit . degrees of freedom . net error is minimised . significance levels . unit . variable . on average .

for some non-pms related reason ive been kinda emo for the past few days. i think i just expect too much from people. one little event can make or break my day - i really have to learn to take things less seriously . it just feels like everyone is going on with their lives, while im stuck here. people have moved on with their lives, new friends, new relationships .. and partly because of my 'clingy-ness' (as linda calls it) i cant handle it .

not to mention.. my hair is starting to get FIZZY D: OH NOESS .


another thing, theres been a few birthdays recently (happy birthday bryan&doris :D) .. and the majority of those are 19th . MY next birthday (though more than half a year away) will be a 19th .. which means 20 isnt too far off . TWENTY . twenty-somethings D: OH MY LIFE IS PASSING ME BY . as a little girl, i always pictured myself as a twenty-something - cool, confident, successful and independent . and now that im nearly there, im certainly not that person . i feel as i have grown as a person in the past year .. but i dont want to be stuck here . i want my 11year old self to be proud of what ive become . i have to start making plans . even with my taxes , my parents did it for me . (not that im complaining :P)

so as i sat all alone by the yarra yesterday afternoon, i made some goals .

this year (with the remaining last 3 months) :
do well in my exams - learn the meaning of study
step up as a youth leader (ive been really slack in the past few months or so.. which really reflects on how the kids relate. )
finish the bible-in-this-year
road-trip & catch up with people i havent seen in ages
practice more worshipy songs on piano

next year (2008)
go on missions <-----
expect and see great things in boly :D
make more significant friends at uni
get a job related to nursing (nursing home, hospital)



.. but enough about the future .. and back to right now ..

this week
finish plan, learning log & start essay by thursday for assignment
finish current book of the bible
practice piano zomg
stop going on facebook
try not to spend >$30



OKAY . no no emo . in OTHER non-emo news ..
- zac efron is in australia once again ! he cant get enough ~ tomorow he'll be hosting kids choice awards :D
- me & my mum are totally into so you think you can dance
- i love wearing dresses, i need more dresses . i need to go dress shopping !
- im so into all saints which is starting right now so i have to go go go !

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i wanna go dress shopping too!

By  pheebee, at 10 October 2007 at 12:13 pm  

There's still 2 months left till 2008 and you already plan what you want?!! hahaha.. it's great though.. =)

Just feel like hugging you.. hahaha.. *HUGS*

By  Sabrina Woon, at 14 October 2007 at 8:03 pm  

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but here we go :


everyone was dressed up , we ate , we camwhored , we ate , we had giant mocktails , we caught up with old friends , we mocked her new friends , we ate , we watched some football and ate somemore ( yes, it was all you can eat ! ) .



my great idea turned sour when no one turned up D: i was so excited, i bought at least $100 worth of junk food and like 8 people showed up from the 30 odd i invited LOL . how sad . BUT nevertheless.. it was fun ! HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 2 FTW . i love you troy bolton . you are the music in me .


the best social ever ( considering we havent reallly had a huge social of such yet xD ) . again, the turn-out from our church was terrible - but gloria's church visited which was great . costumes were great, dancing was embarrasing, food was awesome and all in all it was a fun night :D though no one really appreciated the stitching of velcro for the deco .


after waiting 1/2hr for sarah to arrive, we ran through a red light and reversed angle parked to yallambie for jackie's 18th ! the night after heroes&villains you'd think we'd be danced out .. NONO NOT SO ! from nutbush to macarena to jem's arm swinging to HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 2 re-enactment (where by people LEFT the dancefloor - left the building even - true story ) and ida running to the smoke machine every time .. it was definately most exciting 18th as there was a BLACK-OUT O_______O which made things more interesting and much more fun :D hahaha .

in the last last week which was holidays, my parents were away together and for the first time we were home alone WITHOUT A BABYSITTER ( yesyes, the last time they both went away me and my brother were babysat by johnyong and the time after than chrisgoh XDD ) . which meant the CAR WAS MINE :D

my accomplishments :
- to heidelberg station x432 times
- to church x 654 times
- to work x 6 times
- to glenferrie rd from balwyn
- to yallambie
- to boxhill
- to victoria parade -- and YES i PARALLEL PARKED . it took 10 mintues to the point where the guy on the other side of the road asked if we needed help .. BUT I DID IT ALL BY MYSELF !

all on half a tank full of petrol :D

i didnt do that much on my mere ONE week of holidays - i was working everyday O_____O drainer (but not so much when i checked my bank account today :D helloo babyyy ;) ) . besides working , i went to fedsquare for idol concert . its sad so say it was so crap this year - or because im too mature for fangirlyness (which is hypocritical to my previous post LOL ), lunch with suwii&linda at samurai, lunch with emily at bochiu and a whole lot of heroes&villains decorating .

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz what a drainer . ive already missed 3 hours of lectures, 2 because of li chen and our fully asian shopping day and another because of our 'youth' movie day = ida, mike&cecil xD , wednesday i stayed for all my lectures&tutes but then met up with suwii where we went to pixar & rode the free tourist bus .

ive got 4-5weeks till exams and im not feeling the pressure at all compared to others . feels like i havent learnt anything (and not just because i havent been going to lectures) . bio will be a killer though - learning all those hormones (yay oxytocin..) . but besides that .. im feeling very calm .

exam dates :
7.11 bio118 anatomy&physiology
9.11 nrsg123 context of nursing
12.11 nrsg122 professional practice

yes i only have 3 - half of suwiis :P

and then YEAHHH the real holidays are here ! i cant wait .. last years holidays were the best time ever .. lets hope these ones live up to those .

ROAD TRIP ANYONE ??

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yesyesyes!!! ROAD TRIP!!!!

..and *fainted*... u finally blogged!

By  pheebee, at 5 October 2007 at 9:18 am  

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