Tuesday 29 September 2009
test the heart
Integrity may be seen as the quality of having a sense of honesty and truthfulness in regard to the motivations for one's actions. The term "hypocrisy" is used in contrast to integrity for asserting that one part of a value system demonstrably conflicts with another, and to demand that the parties holding apparently conflicting values account for the discrepancy or change their beliefs to improve internal consistency.
I guess for me, integrity has always been quite highly prized without me even knowing it. I never intentionally focused on it or even thought about it a lot but I guess it was just expected of me. I don't claim to be righteous or anything, but I've tried to keep my standards high. At least, that is, I've tried to.
Integrity is such a delicate thing to manage - it takes years to build and establish and many sacrifices to preserve. But one moment of insecurity, one false move, can bring years worth crumbling down.. and I think after that, it's impossible to ever get back into that place again. I don't want to let all these years go to waste.
I guess despite the whole "you shouldn't care what people think of you" attitude can be taken too far. Those people are there to keep you accountable for your actions. In my life, I know those people have the best intentions for me. On the other end of the scale though, some people are just there to point fingers and make up drama that isn't really there, to find amusement for their own boring as lives.
But here I am, despite writing about all this waffle and bubble fluff, not knowing what to do. Sometimes I just wish I could give in and give up. Sometimes, I don't want to be that girl. I wish I could just fall and not worry where I land.
17 I know, my God, that you test the heart and are pleased with integrity. All these things have I given willingly and with honest intent. And now I have seen with joy how willingly your people who are here have given to you.
- 1 Chronicles 29:17 0
Monday 28 September 2009
21 + 1 + 2 days.
to my dearest sis,
happy 21st birthday
(+1year)
thank you for all the camwhoring,
hilarious dancing skills and worship sessions,
the foooood binges every weeeekend,
and for just being you.
thanks for filling my fb inbox with scandalous msgs that we would die if anyone else read, for the hugs every weekend, the glorious msgs and altar calls that i amen amen to when i listen on applee, the tweets and blogposts that always inspire and uplift, the late night eateries that God gives and takes away and gives again filled with milk and honey, for being the other impact girl leader with pantyliners and panadol, always being there for my BAHHHHHHHH moments, for giving me my daily wardrobe updates X), for being there for the ups and downs of my ro..llercoaster and for being the big sister that i've always looked for to look up to.
i love you.
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because i couldn't be there for you in your time of pink dresses, here's a little present:
Oh yes, we like.
(: 0
Wednesday 23 September 2009
Suck on that.
Stop going to these extraordinary depths // And raising these high expectations // To only have them crumble // Leaving me like this again
i'm in melbourne again and have
3 more days in the brat
driving back up tomorrow for a late shift
then two earlies
and I'M DONE !
though I had a really good shift today :)
..and i have nothing much else to say.
but i love my sexy legs, hilarious sister and telefriend jgl ♥
Friday 18 September 2009
happy.
food never seems to fail me.
i love food photography.
there is nothing better.
i can't wait to get home
(though i'm craving asian foods so bad nao D: )
<3
Thursday 17 September 2009
overdramatic.
Lotta kids with a homesick view
Deep down
I know that I've been homesick too
But something tells me its alright
I know I'll be back in your arms tonight
I've travelled down some lonely roads
Almost lost my way
I would give all my time
just to spend my nights with you
I would lay down my fears
Just to spend my years with you
Cause when I'm standing at your door
I don't feel homesick anymore
When I'm standing at your door
I dont feel homesick anymore
And after all is said and done
We've made the most of love
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ONE MORE SHIFT til i can go home.
i'm so psyched for this weekend
but miss janey already
it's our first weekend without each other since march D:
so plan:
late shift finish at 9.30 but try to puppy dog eye them and get off at 8/830pm
drive down to the MELBOURNE. drive down HOME.
if time permits, after impact suppers with favourite people :)
500days of summer
kenbry 21st
churchies
fran 21st
the incredibles :) :)
and monday morning back to the brat.
.. and my last assignment somewhere inbetween.
I WANTTTTTTTT.
0Deep down
I know that I've been homesick too
But something tells me its alright
I know I'll be back in your arms tonight
I've travelled down some lonely roads
Almost lost my way
I would give all my time
just to spend my nights with you
I would lay down my fears
Just to spend my years with you
Cause when I'm standing at your door
I don't feel homesick anymore
When I'm standing at your door
I dont feel homesick anymore
And after all is said and done
We've made the most of love
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ONE MORE SHIFT til i can go home.
i'm so psyched for this weekend
but miss janey already
it's our first weekend without each other since march D:
so plan:
late shift finish at 9.30 but try to puppy dog eye them and get off at 8/830pm
drive down to the MELBOURNE. drive down HOME.
if time permits, after impact suppers with favourite people :)
500days of summer
kenbry 21st
churchies
fran 21st
the incredibles :) :)
and monday morning back to the brat.
.. and my last assignment somewhere inbetween.
I WANTTTTTTTT.
Wednesday 16 September 2009
favourite people.
Sarah Wong thinks Nutellla straight of the jar with her favourite spoon is the best homesickness remedy :)
+ webcamming with her favourite people also helps.(yes, cause pheebs was on the phone also :D)
Tuesday 15 September 2009
lovers/losers
webcamming with DOUBLE BUTTS.
is awesome.
Monday 14 September 2009
for your reference.
sarahnade says:
so in nursing there's 3 shifts
Nandananananaa~ says:
uhuhm
sarahnade says:
am pm and nd
or early lates and nights
early 700-1530
lates 1300-2130
nights 2100-700
my rooster.
week of 14th
monday early
tuesday early
wednesday late
thursday late
friday late
week of 21th
monday late
tuesday early
wednesday late
thursday early
friday early
feel free to stalk me :) 0
president of zimbaco.
gluck president of zimbaco :)
cannot understand your dot dot dots.
Friday 11 September 2009
retreat.
pheebs butt is awesome.
so is lemon tart, chocolate kek and es krem.
and non-shy dnms.
nick jonas.
JustJaredJr.com can report that “Uptight (Oliver’s Alright), the episode which concentrates on Oliver’s (Mitchel Musso) diagnosis with diabetes will air on the channel 10 months after it’s original release date.
In the episode, when Miley (Miley Cyrus) and Lilly (Emily Osment) learn that Oliver has been diagnosed with type 1 diabetes, the misguided pair become the “food police” at Traci’s (Romi Dames) Sweet 16 party. After a very strange evening, Oliver puts an end to their meddling ways and misconceptions and they ultimately learn that, with the support of their friends, they can navigate any challenge.
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LAWL. this assignment will never end. 0
would have been without you.
maybe waiting isn't just for you
but for me cause
i never meant to hurt you
you're my best friend
you're my 247
ilyilyily.
(:
Wednesday 9 September 2009
coraline.
gonna nerd it up tonight
and finish this systemic review
2000 words? bring it on.
cause yay picnic/bimbos tomorow.
social interaction YAY.
haha i am a webcam addict. this video is cool. 0
nostalgia?
sarahnade says:
you still owe me a late night cheeseburger
from an assignment
sometime in our uni days
ńëìĻ says:
oh yeaaa
sarahnade says:
good times
those good old days
ahh *nostalglia*
ńëìĻ says:
i knowww
its nostalgia
sarahnade says:
ahaha so long ago
ńëìĻ says:
D=
i dont wanna leave uni
sarahnade says:
me neither
lets do another course
ńëìĻ says:
yay
umm
lets do div 2 nurse?
sarahnade says:
ahaha
nah man
lets do..
MEDICINE
NEVER HAVE TO LEAVE UNI EVERR
:D
ńëìĻ says:
YES!
lets do it
or doctrite in nursing
and become dr nurses
sarahnade says:
dr nursess
ahaha
and then lecture
and then we can go to faculty parties with tanya
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i am a lean mean blogging machine. cause i love my layout that is coincidentally very similar to janey's lol :) also because i don't like disappointing people. i heart pain you dory :) 0
methane.
i find that i'm blogging multiple times a day. but you love it so, here we go.
sorry but, i think janey and myself are AWESOME. love you :) :) 0
Tuesday 8 September 2009
hush sound.
You are the dark ocean bottom
And I am the fast sinking anchor
Should I fall for you?
You are the scar on my tissue
That I show all of my new friends
Should I show you me?
All we need is a little bit of momentum
Breakdown these walls that we’ve built around ourselves
All we need is a little bit of inertia
Breakdown and tell breakdown and tell
That you are the rain on the fire
Deep in the trees when no one was looking
Should I speak of this?
You are a mirage in the distance
That defies the heat of the desert?
Should I believe in you?
These rules are made to break and these walls are built to fall
These rules are made to break us all
And I am the fast sinking anchor
Should I fall for you?
You are the scar on my tissue
That I show all of my new friends
Should I show you me?
All we need is a little bit of momentum
Breakdown these walls that we’ve built around ourselves
All we need is a little bit of inertia
Breakdown and tell breakdown and tell
That you are the rain on the fire
Deep in the trees when no one was looking
Should I speak of this?
You are a mirage in the distance
That defies the heat of the desert?
Should I believe in you?
These rules are made to break and these walls are built to fall
These rules are made to break us all
heart the hush sound.
would copypaste all lyrics here.
and probably will soon.
*crazy dances on her bed*
would copypaste all lyrics here.
and probably will soon.
*crazy dances on her bed*
fresh food person.
so i officially quit.
byebye dri.
bye bye discount card that gave me so much self-worth.
i go cry in my room now.
finishing uni would seem more real ..
if i could just finish these assignments!
blerg.
also, i kinda of love my new layout. photos look nicer on white.
and subtle messages are easier to hide. hi janey :)
Monday 7 September 2009
resignation.
http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20070725222647AAGdYc6
'did you just type in "how to resign from safeway from a good angle" into google?'
lolol i love confessions of a shoppaholic :)
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first draft:
07/09/2009
Service Manager,
Safeway Blackburn North,
Cnr Springfield Street & Williams Street,
Blackburn North, VIC 3130
Dear Tanya,
I wish to give notice of my intention to resign my position as Service Cashier at Safeway Blackburn North.
I am on the verge of completing my university degree and am in final process of graduating. The timing of clinical placements has not allowed me to fulfill my commitments at Safeway.
Working with Safeway has been a very rewarding three years and I would sincerely like to thank you for providing me with the opportunity to work in such an enjoyable environment. I will cherish the time I have spent there fondly.
Yours sincerely,
Sarah 0
grey area.
I think the last one was a little too depressing, and I don't want to be depressing.
It's the end/beginning/transition season of my life, the grey area between here and there. I've finished uni classes, just got my preceptorship, and am on my way to quit my nearly 3 year long relationship with safeway. i'm scared but i know i'll be okay if you're by my side. so take my hand.
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clinical dates:
14/9 & 21/9 BALLARAT BASE PAEDIATRICS
19/10 & 26/10 ST VINCENT'S PUBLIC (10 East)
16/11, 23/11, 30/11, 7/12 EPWORTH RICHMOND HOSPITAL 0
group shot.
stolen from random's facebook that i stalked cause i didnt give them my camera since they wouldn't know how to use chris martin.
can you find me?
NAWWWWWWWWWWWWW.
we then yelled out .. ACU NURSING ROCKS :)
and lucy threw her jacket in the air, a la a graduation cap.
LOL. LOVE IT.
i miss it already.
Thursday 3 September 2009
year twelve.
So two days left.
I just spent tonight doing my assignment, and then looked through my memory books from year 12.. which is now.. three years ago! Crazy thought. It's sad to see so many faces gone and faded away from my life.. but happy in the sense that they were there in the first place.
Year 12 Graduation, it was such an amazing night. I can't wait til Dec 1st.
It's weird to think how friendships come and go. How you can feel so connected to someone in like two weeks, a month, a year. Honestly, those closest to me in this stage of my life now have only recently appeared in the past 1.5 year or so.
And I guess, when it comes down to it.. relationships are what you put into it. The effort. The initiative to make the first call. To send the random sms. To actually organise and turn up to dates and gatherings. Saying that, both people have to be willing, and I guess.. that's what I love about my friends :)
And the reason that some of those old friends have faded away.
Ahh.. C'est la vie.
I think I've gotten to the point where I just have to face whatever comes, and wait for things hoped for. I can't slow down or hurry up time, so for now.. I'm enjoying the journey.
:)
So bring on tomorrow.
0And I guess, when it comes down to it.. relationships are what you put into it. The effort. The initiative to make the first call. To send the random sms. To actually organise and turn up to dates and gatherings. Saying that, both people have to be willing, and I guess.. that's what I love about my friends :)
And the reason that some of those old friends have faded away.
Ahh.. C'est la vie.
I think I've gotten to the point where I just have to face whatever comes, and wait for things hoped for. I can't slow down or hurry up time, so for now.. I'm enjoying the journey.
:)
So bring on tomorrow.
Wednesday 2 September 2009
pseudograduation.
Badge Ceremony 2009
As most of you are aware each year ACU holds a badge ceremony to celebrate the third years finishing their BN. This is a great opportunity to get together and celebrate our achievements with family and friends prior to graduation next year. This year the ceremony will be held on Tuesday 1st December in Central Hall at 7pm, please aim to arrive at 6.30 for a 7pm start, there is quite a lot of organizing to do with the participants before the ceremony can start. After the main ceremony there will be an after party at a nearby venue. We will confirm details of this at a later date so keep an eye on blackboard.
In order to make this a great night, we are seeking your help and asking for everyone to contribute their memories and experiences from over the last three years. This can be done in 3 ways by emailing us with:
1. Photos – these can include, in class photos, if you were involved with uni games or any other uni associated event, post placement drinks (coffee’s of course!) or other social events
2. Videos (wmv files) a short 10-30 second video file where you and/or your friends answer the following questions:
“My most memorable experience during my time at ACU was……”
“The most important thing I have learnt is…..”
3. Email short quotes/memories/reflections/funny stories answering the above questions or any amusing little anecdote you may like to share.
These can all be emailed to badgers09@gmail.com
In order to be presented with a badge on the night you will need to purchase a badge which costs $5.00. Please pay Mandy Mannion, in cash, at reception in the School of Nursing & Midwifery. Mandy has requested that payment for badges be made between the hours of 11-1 and 3-4 Tuesday-Thursday. On receipt of payment your name will be added to the presentation list and you will receive your badge at the ceremony (not from Mandy!).
Many thanks,
Badge Committee
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it's like our form of graduation, cause the official graduation is in May next year, and you can only get two tickets. The 'Badge ceremony' can invite as many as you want.. so COME FOOLS :) I invite you.
Tuesday 1 September 2009
fix you.
i love you, srsly.
you're amazing.
(:
nothing but the blood.
Firstly, it is indeed the final week of uni for me. NO, I don't graduate next week.. what it means it that this week is the last week I will have undergraduate classes ever. Yup, semester ends this week. I still have placements after this, which is a rant for the next paragraph, but this is IT for actual 'uni life' as they say. It's a mix of bittersweet, but I don't know.. maybe it hasn't sunken in yet, or maybe I am really that ready to be a grown up.
Secondly, placements! Not sure if I've already written here that I will indeed be going to BALLARAT (or how I have come to affectionately call it.. the b-rat) base hospital, for my paediatrics placement. 14-25th September. I'll be coming back for the weekend though, so all is good with the world. I'm staying with one fo the staff members of the Ballarat campus there, so I'm a bit anxious about how that's going to work out.. but we'll see. So.. visit me?
Thirdly, I'm just really happy. I hope you're happy too.
MKAY. Uncle Say yaun is here now, I'll continue this later :) 0