Wednesday 28 October 2009
martyn pig.
When I was a little kid I used to think about dying. I’d lie in bed at night with my head beneath the covers trying to imagine the total absence of everything. No life, no darkness or light, nothing to see, nothing to feel, nothing to know, no time, no where or when, no nothing, forever. It was so unimaginable it was terrifying. I’d lie there for hours staring long and hard into the dark, looking for the emptiness, but all I’d ever see was black black black stretching deep into space for a million miles, and I knew it wasn’t enough. I knew that when I died there’d be no black and no million miles, there wouldn’t even be nothing, there’d be less than nothing, and the thought of that would fill my eyes with tears.
The tears have dried up over the years, but every now and then they come back, and when they do I realize that nothing much has changed – I’m still that little kid lying in bed at night looking for the emptiness.
I closed my eyes. I put my hands to my face and pressed my fingers to my eyelids and watched patterns emerge in the pure sightless black. Dazzling checkerboards of Day-Glo red and electric blue. Bright white bars of light, flashes, sparkles, fluorescent stars. Strange geometries of color – purple pyramids, earth-red squares, and flat lilac fields. There were even things that were colored with colors I’d never seen before. Nameless colors. It was too much. I took my hands from my eyes and stared blindly at the ceiling. After a minute of two the colors and patterns faded and my sight returned.
My eyes hurt. 0
2010
Good Afternoon,
There has been a change of date for the 2010 Melbourne Graduation Mass and Ceremonies.
Mass:
The Graduation Mass will now be held on Tuesday 11 May 2010 at 6pm
Ceremonies:
The Faculty of Education ceremony will now be held on Wednesday 12 May at 6pm
The Faculties of Arts and Sciences, Business and Theology and Philosophy ceremony will now be held on Thursday 13 May at 10:30am
The Faculty of Health Sciences ceremony will now be held on Thursday 13 May at 5:30pm
Please note these changes in your diaries.
With kind regards,
Nicky 0
please let me get what i want this time.
Sometimes I wish I was back in high school when the only thing to stress about was the difference between getting an A or an A+ and it guaranteed that you'd pass and it was really just about how well you did that mattered. I want that feeling of knowing anything was possible after year 12, that the world was yours to explore and you were going to change the world because you were young, full of ideas and well, just awesome.
On the other hand, sometimes I wish I could just fast forward another 10 years where I would have already figured out where my life was headed, I would have found and married the one (if he even exists) and have day trips out like Karen Cheng. Yes, three kids kthxbye.
But for now, I'm stuck here. A place of uncertainty - on the edge of entering the real world where three weeks ago I thought would be all that I dreamed it would be.. but with a few recent turn of events leaving me dreading the next chapter that does not look that appealing anymore. It seems like I'm stepping into another season of insecurity, hesitancy and waiting.
Yeah, so that's what's been on my mind recently. Emo-esk? Maybe. I think I'm going to go scoop myself another cup of Sara Lee's Rasberry Ice cream. Heavenly :) 0
Sunday 25 October 2009
how is it possible that someone is this gorgeous?
maybe I'm bias, but seriously. HAWT ;)
hello portia de rossi :) i love you.
CAN WE FAST FORWARD TO NEXT WEEK PLEASE? 0
catherine cheah.
What are you listening to right now?
begin again - colbie caillat ~ i never knew what i haddd~
Have you ever eaten sushi?
YESSUM. ah i miss the days at tokui sushi with uni kids :)
What is bothering you?
ANOTHER WEEK OF PLACEMENTS WITH CRAZY CLINICAL TEACHER D:
Do you have somebody you can tell anything to?
janey, how did i survive before you exsisted? i love you :)
Expecting something to change in the next month?
haha hopefully st v's calls me and tells me that made and mistake and want me :)
What was the highlight of your day?
visitng the gohmansion and the 5 bathrooms.
Do you need to say anything to someone?
maybe, but not right now.
Did you have a good day yesterday?
yess :) sun, grass, food, movies about foods, pheebs, janey, icecream, kmart and food.
Do you like messages or comments better?
messages :)
The shirt you're wearing, does anyone else have it?
yes, this other girl at uni.. which is why i don't wear it often.
Do you own a camera phone?
iphone, so yes. wish i had the video feature though D:
Have you ever skipped school just because you were tired?
not school, uni maybe :)
Do you like the town you are living in?
yes, represent! i've been here my whole life.
Have you ever thrown a cell phone in anger?
HAHA yes. my phone is shock resistant for all the times i have XD i need anger management classes.
How many months until your birthday?
7 months til the 21st! excite? don't know what to do though.
How are you feeling right now?
blerg about tomorrow ):
Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow?
no, 6am wakeups for earlies ew. the ONE good thing about boxhill is that i get to wake up at 6.30 on earlies D:
Are you jealous of someone right now?
lucy shao.
Is it cute when girls kiss you on your cheek?
haha if you're a portia de rossi.
Do you like to cuddle?
yesssum :)
When is your birthday?
may nineteen
Is this year the best year of your life?
haha possibly? a lot of ups and downs, but i think the ups have outweighed the downs :)
Is there someone who meant a lot to you at one point, and isn't around now?
yes, but that's life i guess. people come and people go.
Would you rather dye your hair or go tanning?
dye hair. blonde streaks here i come.
How late did you stay up last night and why?
1.30 am on the applee :)
Is it easy to annoy you?
haha, kinda.
Is your bed comfortable?
yesssssss ;)
Is your sister a slut?
hahah no d:
Have you ever been in trouble for something you honestly didn't do?
yesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss >=(
What/who woke you up this morning?
my mum D:
Do you prefer to take your showers at night or in the morning?
at night, but not totally against morning showers.
Who was the last person to be in your bedroom besides you?
hahahahahahahahanana
Who is the last person you took a picture with?
not sure of who WITH, but of janey :)
Whats one thing you're tired of?
waiting.
Who means the most to you in your life right now, other than family?
janey :)
Is there anyone you would seriously punch right now if you had the chance?
YES PLEASE. bust the window of your car D:
Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days?
yess :)
What do you usually do when the clock turns 11:11?
make a wish.
Who was the last person that hit you?
johnjohn D: UNNINJA.
Is there a song that every time you hear it, you think of someone?
yes, plenty.
Can you commit to one person?
haha mebe.
Could you go the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?
yes?
Has anyone ever said something that brought tears to your eyes?
yes...
Who is the last person you ate with?
my family (:
Do you miss anyone?
yesyes.
Think back to the last person you hugged; do they mean anything to you?
someone who can constantly read my mind :)
Does anyone have STRONG feelings for you?
SOOO TANNNKKKKKKKK.
Are you in a good mood right now?
yes, but no. yes because im talking to janey but no because of tomorrow.
So be honest, do you have a guy?
:P
Do you fall for people easily?
maybe i do.
What are you supposed to be doing right now?
GOING TO SLEEP.
Do you want to be in a relationship right now?
not ready.
Does anyone know your password besides you?
depends which password. my itunes/log in yes. my email/fb no. my PINumber? YES. but not by choice :P
Would you rather sing or dance in front of 100,000 people?
NEITHER D: sing.
Do you currently like someone who doesn't know you exist?
haha no, thankfully.
Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months without cheating?
haha yes.
What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?
ice choc asian styles in bochiu.
Do you laugh a lot?
yes, and loudly too.
Do you like to hold hands?
yessssssssssss (:
What were you doing at 11 this morning?
churchies.
Where will you be at 8:30 tomorrow morning?
already 1/4 way through a shift at st v's
Is there someone you want a hug from?
yes please :)
I bet you're thinking of someone?
YESSSSSSSSSSSS. I am.
When is the last time you talked to your biological father?
While watching border security.
What’s more important, trust or happiness?
trust
What shoes did you wear today?
pointy greeen shoes and my grace thongs :)
Are you currently wearing a shirt with long or short sleeves?
short
Do you regret anything you've done this year so far?
yes, many. time machine pls.
What usually wakes you up in the morning?
wake calls and morning msgs :) i'm a lucky girl.
Are you wearing short shorts?
no, jeans.
Ever had a girl best friend?
yesyesyes.
Who was the first person you talked to today?
my mum.
If someone is doing something that pisses you off, do you tell them?
depends who they are.
Will this coming up weekend be a good one?
hopefully :) they always are.
Do you have any piercings or tattoos?
two in each ear.
Are you better at remembering names or faces?
face....book.
Think a lot before you go to sleep?
if i have a lot to think about. normally not. fall asleep on the computre xP
Which is more romantic: sunrise or sunsets?
i love both :)
Are you wearing anything on your feet?
SHOES/SOCKS ARE FOR SUCKERS D:
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i need next weekend to come already please :) 0
Tuesday 20 October 2009
outro.
I swear this to you
I wish that this was not the truth
But it's something that you fell into
And crawling out is hard when you
Are not so sure it's what you want to do
The choice is hard to make when you
Are not convinced it's what you wanna do
When a nightmare finally does unfold
Perspective is a lovely hand to hold
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relient k speaks the words that i can't put down on paper. and i laugh cause the song i'm listening to now is called therapy. it's amazing what changes in two and a bit weeks. 0
Monday 19 October 2009
meh.
Box Hill Hospital
* Box Hill hospital accommodates 70 Graduate Nurse Positions and has two main intakes commencing:
Monday 1st February 2010
Monday 1st March 2010
Key Components
• 53 week contract
• Minimal night duty undertaken during the program
• 6 weeks annual leave for full time graduates and 5 weeks annual leave for part time graduates
• All full time graduates are given an ADO every 4 weeks
• Comprehensive Orientation Program
• Supernumerary time at the beginning of each rotation
• Graduate Debrief Program which is conducted regularly throughout the year
• Roster guidelines
• Extensive Support Network
• 5 paid study days
• Extensive education programs across Eastern Health
• Salary packaging including the meal & entertainment card
• Each graduate is provided with a flash drive preloaded with all relevant comprehensive learning and program materials. -- lol oh yay?
• Supported succession planning to facilitate ongoing employment within Eastern Health
• Certificate of Completion
• Regular performance appraisals in each rotation to provide ongoing feedback 0
Sunday 18 October 2009
all of me for all of you.
freaking out.
i'm waiting for that call tomorrow.
jesus, i put everything back into your hands, as it has been all along.
for all of my days. 0
have you tried weeties?
happy birthday zefron baby.
you're 22 today.
you never cease to entertain me :)
Friday 16 October 2009
and that was enough for her.
25 "And now, LORD God, keep forever the promise you have made concerning your servant and his house. Do as you promised, 26 so that your name will be great forever. Then men will say, 'The LORD Almighty is God over Israel!' And the house of your servant David will be established before you.
27 "O LORD Almighty, God of Israel, you have revealed this to your servant, saying, 'I will build a house for you.' So your servant has found courage to offer you this prayer. 28 O Sovereign LORD, you are God! Your words are trustworthy, and you have promised these good things to your servant. 29 Now be pleased to bless the house of your servant, that it may continue forever in your sight; for you, O Sovereign LORD, have spoken, and with your blessing the house of your servant will be blessed forever."
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When it comes down to it, it's not about the clothes you wear, your lastest diet/exercise regime, your career, the latest tv show or band coming out or even your latest relationship gossip.. but about people and friendship. There's nothing better than just enjoying the company of friendship. And I must say that I am very blessed to have an amazing support group, and amazing best friends.
Recently, I've been.. well.. a mess (to quote a wise person). I don't know where I'm going and not watching how I act or the words that I speak. I can tell that my careless actions, or just blasé attitude have caused damage that I can't fix now. It's all been a very immature - It's all about me - way of life.. A way of thought where since someone hurt me, I had a right to seek enjoyment in something else without care. I knew I was being that way but didn't care.
Even now, I still don't know how to get out of here..
but I know I don't want to be here anymore.
I want more from these words than comfort. On Tuesday at PM, we went around the circle and talked about what came out from the verses we read and a lot of people mentioned the 'comfort' that they got from it. I want more than comfort. Comfort can come from anything, from people telling you what you want to hear, from emo lyriced songs, etc. Worldly comfort.
I want the self-fulling power of what God's done for us to be that - to be powerful. We serve an amazing God. I want to claim His promises and show the world that this God that I serve is real, relevant and here for them too.
So take me away.
Thursday 15 October 2009
escape.
So flights booked for Vanuatu for 17th-24th of December
and now we're on the search for accommodation because Li's coming now too! (Yay for not flying alone :D)
I'm kind of sold already, because Jason's really hot. Love it. 0
don't tell me let go.
The day I come to understand
I haven't got a clue
Been searching
for a few years now
Well if I don't repeat myself
Then I'll change into someone else
Well I don't quite know who
I'm over it
Yeah behind me now
I'm just over it
Over it
Yeah I'm finding out
I'm just over it
No I don't know what's over just yet
But I won't go slow and time
can let the mind forget
don't tell me you don't know
already
I'll protect your universe
Or make a mess to make it worse
Time will only tell
You and no one else so
You say you made up your mind
and you've finally decided
But those that helped you choose
haven't the slightest clue
as to the magnitude of what
you're about to lose
I'm guarded and therefore I can endure
A little bit more
Just a little bit more
Than some people would
If I'm not misunderstood
it's still an attempt to be
egoless while self-assured
If I'm still unsure that I'm pretty sure
That I am pretty good
God you know I'm good and
I'm over it. 0
Tuesday 13 October 2009
soldier on.
Since blogstalking tonight, I've realised that my own blog has been left to a whole lot of moe lyrics and copypastes. Boriing, I know. I guess I just haven't been in the mood to write anything down.. also because nothing's really been happening.
My life right now consists of waiting. October 19th is when it all begins again and the day I find out which hospital I end up at next year (if any!). I'm kinda nervous. Really nervous. It's like worst than the day we found out our uni courses. What's worse is that I start placements then too, at St V's public, so if I don't get into St V's private I can go bust the windows of their cars.. but also I have to wait til after orientation to find out because I won't have access to a computer.
The roster for St V's placements are out though
both weeks starting 19/10 + 26/10
monday am
tuesday am
wednesday pm
thursday pm
friday am
I'm on 10east which is what, neurology? Never done it before. Kinda looking forward to it and for life to have some sort of routine and functionality. So bring it on.
So until then, I have 6 more days of ignorance to live out by sleeping late, watching glee, staying in bed til past noon, playing my jesusmusic on the piano, hanging out with my parents, running to temper trap, taking pictures with chris and occasionally stepping out of the house for lunch and such. I don't mind it. It's pretty shweet. Refreshing, I guess? A lot more hours in the day to spend in jesustime :) 0
Monday 12 October 2009
norway
prop·o·si·tion
(prŏp'ə-zĭsh'ən)  n.
To propose a private bargain to, especially to propose sexual relations with. [Middle English proposicion, from Old French proposition, from Latin prōpositiō, prōpositiōn-, setting out in words, from prōpositus, past participle of prōpōnere, to set forth; see propose.] prop'o·si'tion·al adj., prop'o·si'tion·al·ly adv. |
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i don't mind. 0
Sunday 11 October 2009
she's just being ~miley~
To my dearest fans, You all are the closest thing to my heart & it breaks my spirit to hear that some of you feel neglected since I deleted my twitter. It was a wonderful way to stay connected to you & I really felt like during that time we became very much like friends. Twitter is a beautiful thing if used for the right reason. I love my job so much that it is hard to believe sometimes that it is considered working.
But, in the end it is still a business and I do need some sort of a 'normal' life as well. I often complain to the ones closest to me that I don't seem to have much of a private life any more and part of that is my fault. How can I whine about my life being to public if I am the one telling the world what I am doing? Some things in my life need to say in my life only and not on some gossip site.
I never want any of my fans to feel like I don't love them or care about them BUT, sharing the same love and respect for me I need to have the space to grow as a person and make some mistakes. I need to be able to live and learn in private. I never want to quit entertaining it is my life, my love, and my passion but I can't have my personal life be other peoples entertainment.
Twitter is not the only thing I am cutting back on. This is not an attack against this particular site, I just think kids all over the world could maybe take a little vacation from Cyberspace. My problem with the internet is it makes negativity so available. It allows people to anonymously hurt others without any consequences.
That is not the real world. Not only that, but if we spent more time enjoying what we are doing besides tweeting about it, we would enjoy our lives a whole lot more. I have very little free time and the moments that I do have I should be spending with my family and friends and loving every minute of their company.
Now of course rumors have been started that Liam is the reason that I deleted my twitter. I hope my true fans know how stupid that is. I had mentioned to him that someone made a fake twitter with his name and we both starting chatting about how ridiculous it is. Liam is a wonderful friend and he did not try to make me delete my page, he just helped me realize how much time I was wasting on that site.
I really hope you all know how much you mean to me and how much I truly care about each and every one of you. I will keep in touch through Mileyworld and MileyCyrus.com as I did before twitter. I love you all. Blessings Miley Cyrus 0
Friday 9 October 2009
miss you.
Notre Dame, Paris
Colosseum, Rome
Iconic telephone booths, London
Late night wandering, Venice
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I really miss Europe
'Cause the last time this happened, I got to escape to these amazing places though it never made up for what happened, at least I had pretty photos.
I want to go back
..I have a nicer camera now.
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However, I am going to Vanuatu in December
to visit Su-wen Ng
who does physiotherapy.
And booked tickets last night and after much deliberation of when I would arrive back with pros and cons and flighting alone.. I decided that..
Yes, I'll be home for Christmas :)
I love my family.
and janey.
Thursday 8 October 2009
post 399.
1. Can you fill this out without lying?
we'll see.
2. What was the last thing you put in your mouth?
nutella + peanut butter on bread. + milk.
3. Who was your last text message from?
janeyyyyyyyyyyy
4. Where was your default picture taken?
at li's 21st :)
5. Last person you rode in a car with under the age of 20?
janeyyyy
6. Name someone that made you laugh today?
nanda dermawan and his obrein stories.
7. How late did you stay up last night and why?
ahaha 2amish, cause i was watching glee &hearts
8. If you could move somewhere else, would you?
no, i love homeee. more evidently after ballarat.
9. Ever been kissed under fireworks?
nope
10. Which of your friends lives closest to you?
the hardyssss
11. Do you believe ex's can be friends?
yes, of course
12. Calling or texting?
i heart texting, evident from my unlimited texting but nothing beats a
13. How do you feel about Dr. Pepper?
no as awesome as dr. ninja.
14. When was the last time you cried really hard?
yesterday
15. Where is your biological father right now?
his study i'm guessing
16. Where are you at right now?
in my bed
17. What bed did you sleep in last night?
the same
18. What was the last thing someone bought for you?
li bought cupcakes yesterday &hearts
19. Who took your profile picture?
someone at li's party? X) can't remember.
20. Was yesterday better than today?
probably not, yesterday was pretty fun. but today has it's potential.
21. Can you live a day without TV?
yes, but not the internet.
22. Are you mad about anything?
positive
23. Do you think relationships are really worth it?
always, if both people try. better love and lost than never loved at all right?
24. When was the last time you were extremely disappointed and why?
currently
25. Are you a bad influence?
yes, i make children.. UNRULY.
26. Night out or night in?
IN. haha there's nothing better than a night in at janey's
27. What items could you not go without during the day?
MY iPHONE. my laptop. food.
28. Would you share a drink with a stranger?
haha depends.
29. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
um, i'm a nurse.
30. What does the last text message in your inbox say?
morning/afternoon msg from janey about hilary duff lolol.
31. How do you feel about your life right now?
last week was better.
32. How many times have you been pulled over by the police?
once. with two 15 year old girls in my car. dusty gold.
33. Do you hate anyone?
i'll kill her
34. If we were to look in your inbox, what would we find?
a lot of secrets and ily srsly a lots and injokes that you wouldn't understand. and YOU have a good day.
35. Can you easily tell if someone’s fake?
mebe
36. Say you were given a drug test right now, would you pass?
yes, with flying colours.
37. Has anyone ever called you perfect before?
no D:
38. What song is stuck in your head?
over it - relient k , from the janeymixpod
39. Someone knocks on your window at 2 AM, who do you want it to be?
SANTAAA :D
40. Wanna have kids before you’re 30?
yesyesyes.
41. Name something you have to do today?
go treadmill it up.
42. Can you whistle?
no, unskill.
43. Do you sleep on your side, stomach, or back?
side with a cowbabbittanyabear.
44. Do you think too much or too little?
overthinking - relient k
45. Do you smile a lot?
i think so
46. Can you handle the truth?
no thanks.
47. What was the last book you read?
job
48. Is there something you always wear?
my hair down
49. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
EATING. highlight of day srsly.
50. Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you?
hdisly?
51. Have you ever dyed your hair?
one strand - red , when li was dying her hair at my house and made my bath all red and bloodylike.
52. Are you wearing a necklace?
not at the moment.
53. What's something that can always make you feel better?
nutella by the spoonful + milk + janey
54. Will this weekend be a good one?
reduced janey time, but getting love drunk of amy ahn's humps = (y)
55. What do you want right now?
last last sunday night.
56. Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
yup
57. Look behind you, what do you see?
the wall.
58. Have you ever worked in a food place?
FRESH FOOD PEOPLE? also indian foods D:
59. What would you name your future daughter?
grsg
60. What are your summer plans for 2009?
VANUATU the land of earthquakes. i hope we die.
61. Does anyone know your Facebook password?
no, i know three people's though.. but i think linda changed hers x)
62. Would you like some cake?
always. stickydate from sofitel pls.
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Think about the last time you were crying; what made you stop?
dehydration.
What was the last song you sang along to?
isn't it nice to know, that the lining is silver.
How long would your hair be if you cut off ten inches?
shorter
Does it take a lot for you to cry?
onions?
Name someone whose name starts with the letter R.
rene
Did you get a full 8 hours of sleep last night?
yes
Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
my bed is pink. as is my phone.
Tears are falling from your eyes, what's the reason?
i'm not crying, it's just raining on my face. inflammation of my tear ducts. kthank fotc &hearts
Something you're happy about?
seeing janey tonight and getting well deserved huggles.
Your best friend randomly starts hating you. What do you do?
write them a love post on my blog.
When was the last time you got carried by someone?
D:
Have any plans for this weekend?
stalk janey at captainball + chucking a shrimp on the barbie at neil's saturday arvo-sunday morning.
Is there anyone you want to talk to all the time, but you know they'll just piss you off when you do?
yes D:
Tell me a funny story from a crazy night out with your friends?
trolleys. carparks. missing phones.
Do you turn your music up as loud as it can go when nobody's home?
yes. and jump on my bed. that doesnt break.
Where was the very first kiss you had with the last person you kissed?
D:
Is there anything you should be worried about?
10 days
You're up after 3 AM, what's the reason?
msnana
Every girl needs a little black dress. Do you agree?
i want another one.
What kind of mood are you in?
apathetic
Are you someone who enjoys seeking attention from others?
i want my spotlight kthanks *shineeeeeeee*
How open are you with people, out of 10?
9
Have you ever lost someone you wish you didn't?
yup. can we rewind please. or fast forward. eitherway.
Plans for today?
running - evermore
Is your bed against more than one of your walls?
no, just one.
Have you ever been attracted to someone's parent?
ahah no.
Today, did you hug a person you have feelings for?
nope.
Have you hugged anyone in the last 72 hours?
yesssum. ninjadrbrother.
Do you like winter?
that it's always winter and never christmas - relient k
Have you ever injected a drug?
yes, countless X) i r druggie.
When was the last time you saw your father?
just then.
Who's car were you last in?
my pulsar
Do you like when people play with your hair?
yesssum, depends on who though.
Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow?
yes.
Do you get cranky when you're hungry?
yesyesyes. foodfoodfood.
Do you think you are smarter than your friends?
nor than a 5th grader.
What would you do if your seatbelt came loose on a rollercoaster?
DIE.
When you sleep do you dream about heroin addicts?
yes. and then i steal their babies.
Have any memories that you'd like to forget?
yes, that one week in year 10.
Does anything hurt on your body right now?
yeah. the one on my left beating 72 beats/minutes
this is what my emo cousin wrote. i agree.
Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
janeyleee.
Is "because i was drunk" a good enough excuse for you?
i've never been drunk.
You just got rushed to the hospital, who are the first people you call?
my parents. my significant other.
Do you know what you want to do with your life?
not sure now.
Have you eaten any chocolate today?
does nutella count?
How has your week been?
the worst. take me back to last week please.
Who was the last person who called you?
jason ong
How long does it take you to fall asleep at night?
depends what's on my mind
If you were locked in a room with just a pencil, scissors and a blanket, what would you do?
sleep.
What does your toothbrush look like?
it's blue.
Do or did you ever have braces?
yes, best years of my life.
Is your room in the front or the back of the house?
back.
When will you next take a shower?
after runrun.
Do you regret anything you’ve done in the past three weeks?
yes D: a lot. die.
Do you find it weird that some people brush their teeth in the shower?
haha yes, cause it wastes water even though it's warmer in the shower, apparently.
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my life is nothing
i want the next 10 days to come now please. 0
Wednesday 7 October 2009
mo(r)e lyrics
When you're dreaming with a broken heart
Then waking up is the hardest part
You roll outta bed and down on your knees
And for a moment you can hardly breathe
Wondering was he really here?
When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part
She takes you in with her crying eyes
Then all at once you have to say goodbye .
ninjacat.
this is pretty much the freakiest thing at near 4am in the morning.
i have to say that i'm definitely a dog person. cats are cute, but so freakeh and don't know what they're thinking D: i love my phileo.
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Tuesday 6 October 2009
i am black.
i bust the windows out your car
and no it didn't mend my broken heart
i'll probably always have these ugly scars
but right now, i don't care about that part 0
Monday 5 October 2009
one thing that is black and white.
In Christ alone
my hope is found, He is my light, my strength, my song;
this Cornerstone, this solid Ground,
firm through the fiercest drought and storm.
What heights of love, what depths of peace, when fears are stilled, when strivings cease!
My Comforter, my All in All,
here in the love of Christ I stand.
There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain:
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave he rose again!
And as He stands in victory
Sin's curse has lost its grip on me,
For I am His and He is mine -
Bought with the precious blood of Christ.
No guilt in life, no fear in death,
This is the power of Christ in me;
From life's first cry to final breath.
Jesus commands my destiny.
No power of hell, no scheme of man, Can ever pluck me from His hand;
Till He returns or calls me home,
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand.
My chains are gone I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy reigns
Unending love, Amazing grace
The Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures He will my shield and portion be
As long as life endures
The earth shall soon dissolve like snow The sun forbear to shine But God, Who called me here below
You are forever mine.
there's just something about being home alone
having the sun shine through the curtains
singing at the top of my lungs
and the dusty keys beneath my fingers
that brings peace
..and release. 0
pulled hamstrings during aerobics.
a best friend that..
savess me from embarrasment when i break beds by jumping on them and get covered by mattresss and screaming
listens to FIREEE FALL DOWNNNN YAAHWEEEHHHHH
presses the buttton so don't fail drive into garage doors from the outside
helps me awesome parallel park like x4 in past week
webcams nekkid also awesome friend in malaysia who we miss terribly
listens to sermons while we share the same bed (and i fall asleep)
will still not finish watching friends episodes til she's 80
cause there'll always be one that she hasnt seen
makes everyone watch gleeeeeee and doesnt stop believing
tells you what you need to here, not what you want to hear
messages in the movie of young bruce willis and black prophet robots
that gets squashed by boxes of instruments and whoawhoa driivingg
neeeds to get stash spot for indomies and carcinogenic potato gravyss
gets missed calls from nature
shares traditional nasi lemaks and gives me money for when i forget wallets
screamss at zombies and press R for RELOAD diediedie
go and buy milk for me and fortune cookie chocolates
eats whatever neil's eating cause he's fat and would know whats good to eat
gimme the STINKYY BEANNNN and laugh at dr whos.
always has something wise to say, no matter how emotionally draining
does stealth ninhijab stakeouts with mints
still wants to talk to me after 5 days of me :)
and will pwnz school and prestoface in 30 hours.
i don't understand how people survive without a janeyequivalent.
i think we awesome :) i love you.
0savess me from embarrasment when i break beds by jumping on them and get covered by mattresss and screaming
listens to FIREEE FALL DOWNNNN YAAHWEEEHHHHH
presses the buttton so don't fail drive into garage doors from the outside
helps me awesome parallel park like x4 in past week
webcams nekkid also awesome friend in malaysia who we miss terribly
listens to sermons while we share the same bed (and i fall asleep)
will still not finish watching friends episodes til she's 80
cause there'll always be one that she hasnt seen
makes everyone watch gleeeeeee and doesnt stop believing
tells you what you need to here, not what you want to hear
messages in the movie of young bruce willis and black prophet robots
that gets squashed by boxes of instruments and whoawhoa driivingg
neeeds to get stash spot for indomies and carcinogenic potato gravyss
gets missed calls from nature
shares traditional nasi lemaks and gives me money for when i forget wallets
screamss at zombies and press R for RELOAD diediedie
go and buy milk for me and fortune cookie chocolates
eats whatever neil's eating cause he's fat and would know whats good to eat
gimme the STINKYY BEANNNN and laugh at dr whos.
always has something wise to say, no matter how emotionally draining
does stealth ninhijab stakeouts with mints
still wants to talk to me after 5 days of me :)
and will pwnz school and prestoface in 30 hours.
i don't understand how people survive without a janeyequivalent.
i think we awesome :) i love you.
Sunday 4 October 2009
false hope.
taken on 12.09.09
nothing left to say.
i call this photo
"flying away"
i think it's pretty cool.
0nothing left to say.
i call this photo
"flying away"
i think it's pretty cool.
Friday 2 October 2009
human.
Can you tell me how we got in this situation,
I can’t seem to get you off my mind,
all these ups and downs,
they trip up our good intentions,
nobody said this was easy ride.
After all we’re only human,
always fighting what we’re feeling,
hurt instead of healing,
after all we’re only human,
is there any other reason why we stay instead of leavin’ after all
Can we get back to the point of this conversation,
when we saw things through each others eyes,
cause now all I see is ruin and devastation,
we all need some place we can hide inside
After all we’re only human,
always fighting what we’re feeling,
hurt instead of healing,
after all we’re only human,
is there any other reason why we stay instead of leavin’
I’m smart enough to know,
that life goes by,
and it leaves a trail of broken hearts behind,
if you feel I’m letting go,
just give me time,
I’ll come running to your side.
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afterall, i'm human.
i don't know where i'm going
but thankyou for sticking with me
on these ups and downs
and stolen songs
you're my best friend
and i can't imagine my life without you in it
so forgive me for all the bruises
and hurt
i don't know how to make it up to you
but i just want you to know
that i love you. 0