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The intermittent records of a slightly socially retarded, trigger happy, newbie registered nurse attempting to defy mediocrity.. and gravity, of course.

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π says:
ahhh
I see
well, I'll start to get jealous of your awesome number D:
sarah ♫ says:
it's pretty awesome
dont be jealous
envy is sin
you know what would be cool?
a phone number that was
PI
WHOA
π says:
LOL
not very likely
unless it's...
sarah ♫ says:
BUT WOULD BE AWESOME
like 0 PI
π says:
0431 415 926
sarah ♫ says:
04 PI
ahahahahaha
X)
π says:
I want that number!
sarah ♫ says:
LET'S CALL IT
ahahaha
π says:
pi is my favourite sequence of numbers
sarah ♫ says:
why so?
π says:
following that is the fibonacci sequence
why? um...
I just like it.
maybe because
I memorized it to the 32nd place the year before
x)
sarah ♫ says:
ahahah
you are amazing
π says:
nah
you're more awesome
with your awesome number
sarah ♫ says:
i must admit
it is pretty awesome 0


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¹IF I [can] speak in the tongues of men and [even] of angels, but have not love (that reasoning, intentional, spiritual devotion such as is inspired by God's love for and in us), I am only a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal.

²And if I have prophetic powers and understand all the secret truths and mysteries and possess all knowledge, and if I have faith so that I can remove mountains, but have not love (God's love in me) I am nothing (a useless nobody).

³Even if I dole out all that I have to the poor in providing food, and if I surrender my body to be burned or in order that I may glory, but have not love (God's love in me), I gain nothing.

(And again,

¹ If I speak with human eloquence and angelic ecstasy but don't love, I'm nothing but the creaking of a rusty gate. ²If I speak God's Word with power, revealing all his mysteries and making everything plain as day, and if I have faith that says to a mountain, "Jump," and it jumps, but I don't love, I'm nothing. ^3-7If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don't love, I've gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I'm bankrupt without love. )


⁶It does not rejoice at injustice and unrighteousness, but rejoices when right and truth prevail. ⁷Love bears up under anything and everything that comes, is ever ready to believe the best of every person, its hopes are fadeless under all circumstances, and it endures everything [without weakening].

⁸Love never fails [never fades out or becomes obsolete or comes to an end].

(And again,

^8-10Love never dies. Inspired speech will be over some day; praying in tongues will end; understanding will reach its limit. We know only a portion of the truth, and what we say about God is always incomplete. But when the Complete arrives, our incompletes will be canceled.

¹¹When I was an infant at my mother's breast, I gurgled and cooed like any infant. When I grew up, I left those infant ways for good.

¹²We don't yet see things clearly. We're squinting in a fog, peering through a mist. But it won't be long before the weather clears and the sun shines bright! We'll see it all then, see it all as clearly as God sees us, knowing him directly just as he knows us!

¹³But for right now, until that completeness, we have three things to do to lead us toward that consummation:

And the best of the three is love.)

¹³And so faith, hope, love abide [faith--conviction and belief respecting man's relation to God and divine things; hope--joyful and confident expectation of eternal salvation; love--true affection for God and man, growing out of God's love for and in us], these three; but the greatest of these is love.

Admittedly, I have been through and done this church thing for so long. I've been in it my whole life. I've been in ministry. I've seen church through the motions. Ask me about the camp from 2003 or that one night in 2005 and I'd have been there. I've been to church. I'm an expert at church. At some point, you have to start evaluating why you keep going. Is it for the reputation as a christian? The duties and responsibility held? Even the friends that you've made through these years? No. It's all about Jesus and what he's done.

I think one thing that someone said to me recently really struck a chord with me while reading this. What are the results of after doing church for so long? What are the fruits of being close to God? The answer: It's that you love people more. That growing out of love for and in us, we keep persevering.

Right now, I don't think I'm exactly living this out. I feel exhausted even thinking about going through another emotional rollercoaster. I don't think I have anything to offer anymore. I think need a fresh start.

Or maybe I'm just overly emotional today.

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The other day, Ida came over and we spent the day watching Taylor Swift videos, Disney songs and The Little Mermaid. Yes, we're cool like that.

We got into a discussion on how and why the two main characters in each fairytale fall in the oh so glorified notion of love. In Thumbelina, it's because they're both small. In the Little Mermaid, it's because she sings. In the Lion King it's because they're childhood friends. In Aladdin, it's because he shows her a whole other world to the one she knows, and loves her before finding out she's a princess. The list goes on..

But in the end, we figured that it was because the guy was willing to fight for the girl. I think inside every girl there's this subconscious need for that knight in shining armour, the man who is brave enough to fight.. and fight for her love. 0


This is my 470th post which means I'm nearly at the 500 mark! I think it's time for another survey YAY !


Would you rather move to New York city or a small town no one has heard of?
NEWW YORKKK cause these lights will inspiree youuu.

Would you be shocked if the last person you kissed texted you right now?
Not really.

Which one of your friends would you get arrested with?
Janey, cause she black.

Was 2009 a good year for you?
Yes :)

When is the last time someone of the opposite sex gave you a hug?
My daddddddddd.

Do you have a best friend who is of the opposite sex?
No.

Who did you like 3 months ago?
Joseph Gordon-Levitt

Would you take $20,000 or a brand new car?
MONEYS.

Were you drinking the last time you threw up?
Yeh.

What does your last outgoing text say? And to who?
About pirates and ninjas. Janey ofc.

How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
Not many.

Have you ever talked to someone when they were high?
Nope.

Ever cried while you were on the phone with someone?
Nope, but have been on the receiving end.

Don't tell me lies, so is the last person you texted attractive?
I'm not gonna lie and say yes :)

Do you find smoking unattractive?
Sometimes.. D:

Have you ever copied someone else's homework?
Of course!

Will next Friday be a good one?
Hopefullyyyyyyyy :D IMPACT LAUNCH CHYEAHHBOII.

Have you ever fell asleep with anyone on your top friends?
Don't have topfriends pls. But yesssssss. Many.

How many days til your next birthday?
19 + 31 + 30 + 19 = 99 days

How's life going for you?
The calm before the storm?

Last person to make you laugh?
Janey/ My parents telling me I'm sterile.

Do you remember who you had a crush on in sixth grade?
Boys are groce pls.

Who was the last person who told you that things were going to be okay?
Nandana Bhagaskara Dermawan.. ? 0


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I think one of the main things I tend to battle with is self-worth. I think growing up with an over-achieving sibling and over-achieving friends around me has made a psychological defect in my way of thinking and feeling. I'm never good enough, smart enough, pretty enough, skinny enough or nice enough.

Even with starting this new phase in my life, I am again wrestling with the fears of being incompetent and useless at the job of which I was pretty certain that God had predestined me to do. What if I can't live up the expectations that the world and God's purpose has for me? What if? What if? These thoughts, these worries can be crippling. Sometimes I just want to get away from it all, y'know? But part of me wants to just jump in there to see how I go. If I fail, I fail.

I've been cleaning my room in the past few days and my lastest target is the wardrobe - which hasn't been cleared.. well, ever. It's just an accumulation of my life over the past 9 years since we've moved in. The old school reports, the excercise books filled with years of knowledge that was clearly not retained, the notes written in class between friends, the birthday cards and the lost photographs are all being discovered and re-read.. making the whole cleaning process a lot slower than first thought. But I guess it's better to do it all thoroughly now than later, because there will be never a time after this that I will be this free.

I have to say, I've lead a pretty awesome life so far. My school reports were all pretty above the status quo, the memories that were so long forgotten now remind me of the hilariously retarded but awesome times we've had and the little bits of craft and drawings are cringe-worthy looking at it now in more mature eyes X). It's been a tiring but satisfying journey of nostalgia.

I guess reading these verses really show that in the end, it's not about our strengths or our weaknesses that count. Being christian isn't about proclaiming the holiness or righteousness or even superiority, but recognizing the lack and short-comings of being a human being and giving that all up to the one who made us. It's about proclaiming God's power, no matter how significant we feel we are, it's all about Jesus.

So I guess, when it comes to my future.. (ironically) I should look at my past and see the stages of life that I've gone through and succeeded in to this day and see that through it all.. it's been Jesus that's brought me through, and that He will be with me in this new season.

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http://asifpulledbyamagnet.com/

it's strange that something can both be calming, but make you feel sick at the same time.

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the about me section that can never truly fully describe a person.
it usually emcompasses the favourite movies, favourite music and all that jazz, but really when you think about it these aspect of me change every few years and can never really define me, as me.

but here are the basics anyway:
1. i'm left handed but drive with my right hand.
2. i like milk, but only safeway light milk.
3. i have a dog named phileo and he's white with a pink nose.
4. i am, after three crazy years, a registered nurse, division one.
5. i wish my life was a musical and i often burst into song and love it when people around me join in too
6. i'm sometimes just a mess but above it all, my jesus is always there to come to the rescue. he's pretty swell :)

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GLUCK GLUCK GLUCK!! :D
u can do it! unleash those skillzzz :D

lyoubsi

By  kcat., at 28 February 2010 at 9:02 pm  

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π says:
ahhh
I see
well, I'll start to get jealous of your awesome number D:
sarah ♫ says:
it's pretty awesome
dont be jealous
envy is sin
you know what would be cool?
a phone number that was
PI
WHOA
π says:
LOL
not very likely
unless it's...
sarah ♫ says:
BUT WOULD BE AWESOME
like 0 PI
π says:
0431 415 926
sarah ♫ says:
04 PI
ahahahahaha
X)
π says:
I want that number!
sarah ♫ says:
LET'S CALL IT
ahahaha
π says:
pi is my favourite sequence of numbers
sarah ♫ says:
why so?
π says:
following that is the fibonacci sequence
why? um...
I just like it.
maybe because
I memorized it to the 32nd place the year before
x)
sarah ♫ says:
ahahah
you are amazing
π says:
nah
you're more awesome
with your awesome number
sarah ♫ says:
i must admit
it is pretty awesome
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happy valentine's day lovers who read my blog.

love love me.
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sooo funni

By  Anonymous, at 13 February 2010 at 10:31 am  

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¹IF I [can] speak in the tongues of men and [even] of angels, but have not love (that reasoning, intentional, spiritual devotion such as is inspired by God's love for and in us), I am only a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal.

²And if I have prophetic powers and understand all the secret truths and mysteries and possess all knowledge, and if I have faith so that I can remove mountains, but have not love (God's love in me) I am nothing (a useless nobody).

³Even if I dole out all that I have to the poor in providing food, and if I surrender my body to be burned or in order that I may glory, but have not love (God's love in me), I gain nothing.

(And again,

¹ If I speak with human eloquence and angelic ecstasy but don't love, I'm nothing but the creaking of a rusty gate. ²If I speak God's Word with power, revealing all his mysteries and making everything plain as day, and if I have faith that says to a mountain, "Jump," and it jumps, but I don't love, I'm nothing. ^3-7If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don't love, I've gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I'm bankrupt without love. )


⁶It does not rejoice at injustice and unrighteousness, but rejoices when right and truth prevail. ⁷Love bears up under anything and everything that comes, is ever ready to believe the best of every person, its hopes are fadeless under all circumstances, and it endures everything [without weakening].

⁸Love never fails [never fades out or becomes obsolete or comes to an end].

(And again,

^8-10Love never dies. Inspired speech will be over some day; praying in tongues will end; understanding will reach its limit. We know only a portion of the truth, and what we say about God is always incomplete. But when the Complete arrives, our incompletes will be canceled.

¹¹When I was an infant at my mother's breast, I gurgled and cooed like any infant. When I grew up, I left those infant ways for good.

¹²We don't yet see things clearly. We're squinting in a fog, peering through a mist. But it won't be long before the weather clears and the sun shines bright! We'll see it all then, see it all as clearly as God sees us, knowing him directly just as he knows us!

¹³But for right now, until that completeness, we have three things to do to lead us toward that consummation:

And the best of the three is love.)

¹³And so faith, hope, love abide [faith--conviction and belief respecting man's relation to God and divine things; hope--joyful and confident expectation of eternal salvation; love--true affection for God and man, growing out of God's love for and in us], these three; but the greatest of these is love.

Admittedly, I have been through and done this church thing for so long. I've been in it my whole life. I've been in ministry. I've seen church through the motions. Ask me about the camp from 2003 or that one night in 2005 and I'd have been there. I've been to church. I'm an expert at church. At some point, you have to start evaluating why you keep going. Is it for the reputation as a christian? The duties and responsibility held? Even the friends that you've made through these years? No. It's all about Jesus and what he's done.

I think one thing that someone said to me recently really struck a chord with me while reading this. What are the results of after doing church for so long? What are the fruits of being close to God? The answer: It's that you love people more. That growing out of love for and in us, we keep persevering.

Right now, I don't think I'm exactly living this out. I feel exhausted even thinking about going through another emotional rollercoaster. I don't think I have anything to offer anymore. I think need a fresh start.

Or maybe I'm just overly emotional today.

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The other day, Ida came over and we spent the day watching Taylor Swift videos, Disney songs and The Little Mermaid. Yes, we're cool like that.

We got into a discussion on how and why the two main characters in each fairytale fall in the oh so glorified notion of love. In Thumbelina, it's because they're both small. In the Little Mermaid, it's because she sings. In the Lion King it's because they're childhood friends. In Aladdin, it's because he shows her a whole other world to the one she knows, and loves her before finding out she's a princess. The list goes on..

But in the end, we figured that it was because the guy was willing to fight for the girl. I think inside every girl there's this subconscious need for that knight in shining armour, the man who is brave enough to fight.. and fight for her love.
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This is my 470th post which means I'm nearly at the 500 mark! I think it's time for another survey YAY !


Would you rather move to New York city or a small town no one has heard of?
NEWW YORKKK cause these lights will inspiree youuu.

Would you be shocked if the last person you kissed texted you right now?
Not really.

Which one of your friends would you get arrested with?
Janey, cause she black.

Was 2009 a good year for you?
Yes :)

When is the last time someone of the opposite sex gave you a hug?
My daddddddddd.

Do you have a best friend who is of the opposite sex?
No.

Who did you like 3 months ago?
Joseph Gordon-Levitt

Would you take $20,000 or a brand new car?
MONEYS.

Were you drinking the last time you threw up?
Yeh.

What does your last outgoing text say? And to who?
About pirates and ninjas. Janey ofc.

How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
Not many.

Have you ever talked to someone when they were high?
Nope.

Ever cried while you were on the phone with someone?
Nope, but have been on the receiving end.

Don't tell me lies, so is the last person you texted attractive?
I'm not gonna lie and say yes :)

Do you find smoking unattractive?
Sometimes.. D:

Have you ever copied someone else's homework?
Of course!

Will next Friday be a good one?
Hopefullyyyyyyyy :D IMPACT LAUNCH CHYEAHHBOII.

Have you ever fell asleep with anyone on your top friends?
Don't have topfriends pls. But yesssssss. Many.

How many days til your next birthday?
19 + 31 + 30 + 19 = 99 days

How's life going for you?
The calm before the storm?

Last person to make you laugh?
Janey/ My parents telling me I'm sterile.

Do you remember who you had a crush on in sixth grade?
Boys are groce pls.

Who was the last person who told you that things were going to be okay?
Nandana Bhagaskara Dermawan.. ?
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I think one of the main things I tend to battle with is self-worth. I think growing up with an over-achieving sibling and over-achieving friends around me has made a psychological defect in my way of thinking and feeling. I'm never good enough, smart enough, pretty enough, skinny enough or nice enough.

Even with starting this new phase in my life, I am again wrestling with the fears of being incompetent and useless at the job of which I was pretty certain that God had predestined me to do. What if I can't live up the expectations that the world and God's purpose has for me? What if? What if? These thoughts, these worries can be crippling. Sometimes I just want to get away from it all, y'know? But part of me wants to just jump in there to see how I go. If I fail, I fail.

I've been cleaning my room in the past few days and my lastest target is the wardrobe - which hasn't been cleared.. well, ever. It's just an accumulation of my life over the past 9 years since we've moved in. The old school reports, the excercise books filled with years of knowledge that was clearly not retained, the notes written in class between friends, the birthday cards and the lost photographs are all being discovered and re-read.. making the whole cleaning process a lot slower than first thought. But I guess it's better to do it all thoroughly now than later, because there will be never a time after this that I will be this free.

I have to say, I've lead a pretty awesome life so far. My school reports were all pretty above the status quo, the memories that were so long forgotten now remind me of the hilariously retarded but awesome times we've had and the little bits of craft and drawings are cringe-worthy looking at it now in more mature eyes X). It's been a tiring but satisfying journey of nostalgia.

I guess reading these verses really show that in the end, it's not about our strengths or our weaknesses that count. Being christian isn't about proclaiming the holiness or righteousness or even superiority, but recognizing the lack and short-comings of being a human being and giving that all up to the one who made us. It's about proclaiming God's power, no matter how significant we feel we are, it's all about Jesus.

So I guess, when it comes to my future.. (ironically) I should look at my past and see the stages of life that I've gone through and succeeded in to this day and see that through it all.. it's been Jesus that's brought me through, and that He will be with me in this new season.


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HAHAHHA
I do remember the photo :)
So funny - all that's missing is Ms. Wong - HEY THERE'S MY CHEAT SHEET ^^
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http://asifpulledbyamagnet.com/

it's strange that something can both be calming, but make you feel sick at the same time.

yet i can't help watching.
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part of the maturity process are seasons of loneliness

And it takes no time to fall in love..
But it takes you years to know what love is
It takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished

Ha la la la la la la life is wonderful
by ...Jason Mraz -Life Is Wonderful

By  Anonymous, at 1 February 2010 at 11:07 am  

eclipse bible reading is no mental illness. Believing that taylor swift and justin gaston is not a sign of mental illness either.
Theory of Taylor Justin immortalness:-
In love story the music video justin and taylor start off in PRESENT time where they 'meet' each other and SUDDENLY zoom back to 18th century with castles and puffy dresses and 'men in tights' where they obviously 'first met', supporting the idea that they have in fact been living for HUNDREDS of years proving the fact that they are indeed vampires. Thank you.

By  janey, at 1 February 2010 at 7:42 pm  

Believing that taylor swift and justin gaston *are vampires is* not a sign of mental illness either.

By  janey, at 1 February 2010 at 7:57 pm  

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